You know october will become my fear about anything. But actually is not about the thing itself but also about the preparation.
1. About my friends wedding My friend's wedding will be celebrated on 1 october and she decided to organize all the wedding by herself without EO. That's awesome, this wedding celebrated in singapore and outdoor. This idea for me it's really great.. But the process to make it come true a bit miraculous, and magically since she want to make all by herself from the invitation, souvenir, decoration on the day. Actually its not possible, but the way she create this event to become all the people's event is not easy.
Til this day, It doesnt mean all runs ok since actually some friend doesnt feel happy with the way she bring all wedding thing to us at anytime, anywhere, and anything. :D Our conversation behind her, "Please deh, that's ur wedding.. Why u need to make urself and ours troublesome" And we just feel a bit frustated about how the way she treat his fiancee with madness, rude words, and pressure other's people with her things.
Actually, this is not my feeling, It just the result from girls discussion without her. And we called her as bridezilla. Maybe bride's feeling near the wedding day :D
For me, all become messy at the preparation but in the end, we are friend that will support till that day. Bcause we dont want she will be sad, and dissapointed for this experience. Check this out. But i should prepare my mentally for all of this that will happen til that day. =.='
More than that, on that day i still need to continue to Jakarta to attend others wedding.. What a tired day enw.. T.T
2. My Trip to Europe
It's more than that. I am stupid enough lha.. Even i realize my trip to Europe too sudden, but i still want it comes true. Maybe its ego.. Holiday is not easy man, Its take all my money and space in brain. There are many pressure that i have for this idea.
Firstly, i'll go with 5 people that they has habit to go abroad for holiday. They have gone to Cambodia, Thailand, Penang, and many others place. So i trust this idea will be grateful, but in the end 1 decided not to go, the other 2 also, and now the other 1 also not. So currently only 2 people that will go. Crazyyy!!! And thats very bad happen also, i tot i want to go europe and visit my friend at netherland, oh man she help me to give the invitation from netherlands, but in the end so sad she will stop her study at that place and will back for good. :'( although i dont like it, but it still her decision that probably good for herself.
And now, i a bit panic because of my visa applying. I dont know whether it approved or rijected, i still afraid of it. Although many people can say that it should be approved why they need to riject it, But i still have fear since my account history is not good and also many inconsistency in the application like my friend said that the cost will become my responsibility, but for staying will be accomodated by my friends. And the day will be on monday, i'll know the result. Oooo God, please let me become strong whatever the result.. My wish, If it approved i hope i can go to Lourdes. Give me strength to face all my fears.
I realize that world is really spin, since my feeling everytime always change from happy, thankful, hope, worry, dissapointed, angry.. But let me be the human that never feel desperate. \(^.^)/
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
Life make you tired
Tired of this life..
Yesterday i just came back to Jakarta, meet my father because of he like to message me and when i called him, my mother said he is crying. On that day, i immediately check the flight and decided to buy then come back to Jakarta, take time with him. Actually i feel he changes the way he talk more sarkasm. But i feel sad when i see him difficult to walk because his bulge on the foot and the way he cough each time. He just finished his operation take polip from his nose. Then perhaps it caused he cant enjoy his food, he said all the food is not nice and he feel want to vomit. But then he said like he feel want to die, because he can not enjoy the food, and probably life also. We are spending time together go to puncak, to Romo Yohanes church at Cikanyere and talk at the car along that day.
Then after i come back to Singapore again, i am still thinking about my father. It seems he still money oriented, and also ambitious. After he went to Surabaya and meet my uncle, he seems become delirious. He still want to build business, then look for money since my uncle is very rich man. My uncle ask my father to live there, and my father also want but he still think about many thing at jakarta. His asset at jakarta, his grandchild, etc.
But the thing that i don't like about him is
1. His age has reached almost 70 probably, but he still want to get many thing. Why he doesn't thankful for what they have.
2. He assumed he is smart, a lot of his time used for read newspaper and watch the news, and also he was MAFIA (mathematics, physic, chemistry) teacher, then he has experiences to learn philosophy, and has experience as chairman at church environment, and also chairman for home environment and he has experience also as businessman. That why he feel he know about everything, but i don't know he is success or not to do all. Because for me, how smart he is but the family cannot know the essence of all that he done. Probably he just look for the respect from other people that he can not get from home. Since my mother maybe got big respect from the family. Ok, enw that political at home :D
The other thing that make me tired also
1. My friend at home, she is very kind and also can not be quiet. Since she lost his ex boy friend, it seem she always make her busier. Yesterday, i hear that she sometimes still remember him and sometimes she just crying although when she is walking. But ya, she always sleep late til night cooking, or walk at night, or else.
2. My friend that wanna marry this October, she feel a bit depressed that his fiance a bit late to think anything. She feel do anything by herself. Although i don't want become to interfere her marriage preparation too much. But if i have time sometime help a little thing.
3. My stuff, preparation to go Europe it seems very difficult for me. There is many pressure, problem and anything that come from family, money, time and myself. But i hope i can manage all to get what i want.
Beside all that tired thing, but thankful is needed. I spend time together with him at Jakarta, take a look new mall Gandaria City and Mall Living World. That both mall is new, and its big. But the food has adapted with mix Singaporean food and also Indonesian food. I just realized that Indonesia is modern city, i feel unbalanced when i go to inside mall and come out to the road. o ya, enw thank you for pick me up and accompany me walk at jakarta. :)
Yesterday i just came back to Jakarta, meet my father because of he like to message me and when i called him, my mother said he is crying. On that day, i immediately check the flight and decided to buy then come back to Jakarta, take time with him. Actually i feel he changes the way he talk more sarkasm. But i feel sad when i see him difficult to walk because his bulge on the foot and the way he cough each time. He just finished his operation take polip from his nose. Then perhaps it caused he cant enjoy his food, he said all the food is not nice and he feel want to vomit. But then he said like he feel want to die, because he can not enjoy the food, and probably life also. We are spending time together go to puncak, to Romo Yohanes church at Cikanyere and talk at the car along that day.
Then after i come back to Singapore again, i am still thinking about my father. It seems he still money oriented, and also ambitious. After he went to Surabaya and meet my uncle, he seems become delirious. He still want to build business, then look for money since my uncle is very rich man. My uncle ask my father to live there, and my father also want but he still think about many thing at jakarta. His asset at jakarta, his grandchild, etc.
But the thing that i don't like about him is
1. His age has reached almost 70 probably, but he still want to get many thing. Why he doesn't thankful for what they have.
2. He assumed he is smart, a lot of his time used for read newspaper and watch the news, and also he was MAFIA (mathematics, physic, chemistry) teacher, then he has experiences to learn philosophy, and has experience as chairman at church environment, and also chairman for home environment and he has experience also as businessman. That why he feel he know about everything, but i don't know he is success or not to do all. Because for me, how smart he is but the family cannot know the essence of all that he done. Probably he just look for the respect from other people that he can not get from home. Since my mother maybe got big respect from the family. Ok, enw that political at home :D
The other thing that make me tired also
1. My friend at home, she is very kind and also can not be quiet. Since she lost his ex boy friend, it seem she always make her busier. Yesterday, i hear that she sometimes still remember him and sometimes she just crying although when she is walking. But ya, she always sleep late til night cooking, or walk at night, or else.
2. My friend that wanna marry this October, she feel a bit depressed that his fiance a bit late to think anything. She feel do anything by herself. Although i don't want become to interfere her marriage preparation too much. But if i have time sometime help a little thing.
3. My stuff, preparation to go Europe it seems very difficult for me. There is many pressure, problem and anything that come from family, money, time and myself. But i hope i can manage all to get what i want.
Beside all that tired thing, but thankful is needed. I spend time together with him at Jakarta, take a look new mall Gandaria City and Mall Living World. That both mall is new, and its big. But the food has adapted with mix Singaporean food and also Indonesian food. I just realized that Indonesia is modern city, i feel unbalanced when i go to inside mall and come out to the road. o ya, enw thank you for pick me up and accompany me walk at jakarta. :)
Monday, June 27, 2011
Thinking
I have been live here at singapore almost 1 year and half.. I still remember last year i am still enjoy to live here. Work although hard, but still excited. Then enjoy about Singapore Great Sale, shopping without think to saving.
Oh my.. But it seems i cant live like that.. Nowadays, i become have many plan. Example Applying PR Spore, Plan holiday to Europe, Saving for future, Insurance, Help my friend for Wedding Preparation, Home Contract almost end, Decrease my weight, Plan to learn chinese and also work. This thing actually make me a bit depress, although it seem i am not really manage it by myself. There is friend that can manage it, but it seems take a part of my brain. :(
I miss home that my parents always think about it. But how old i am, why i am still cant be mature enough. Because all of this, i am become grumpy and angrier. :( Where is my patience ? :( God, i should be thankful. But i still need to have a dream, but to reach my dream actually i am not ready for up and down to ecounter the problem. Maybe i am not stable person character... But at all, there is always have some thing to be thanksful, friend that always try to make me laugh and boyfriend that patiently be there. :)
After last year i was enjoying my life, this year i try to continue look for a problem to challange myself become better person. But challange my self it seems make my comfort zone as a slacker person disturbed.. :D
Please help me to pass through together with u god and mother.. Lead my way!
Oh my.. But it seems i cant live like that.. Nowadays, i become have many plan. Example Applying PR Spore, Plan holiday to Europe, Saving for future, Insurance, Help my friend for Wedding Preparation, Home Contract almost end, Decrease my weight, Plan to learn chinese and also work. This thing actually make me a bit depress, although it seem i am not really manage it by myself. There is friend that can manage it, but it seems take a part of my brain. :(
I miss home that my parents always think about it. But how old i am, why i am still cant be mature enough. Because all of this, i am become grumpy and angrier. :( Where is my patience ? :( God, i should be thankful. But i still need to have a dream, but to reach my dream actually i am not ready for up and down to ecounter the problem. Maybe i am not stable person character... But at all, there is always have some thing to be thanksful, friend that always try to make me laugh and boyfriend that patiently be there. :)
After last year i was enjoying my life, this year i try to continue look for a problem to challange myself become better person. But challange my self it seems make my comfort zone as a slacker person disturbed.. :D
Please help me to pass through together with u god and mother.. Lead my way!
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
miss you, hate you, or like you
Just now, i can't sleep and want to say i miss you.. and evolve become any other feeling..
YM friend, old friend
i miss jati bcause i can pukul2 dia, 'n cubit2 dia :P
i miss steven bcause i still need his advice..
i hate wiewie, because we never have good conversation. i dont know why except he always can pick up me :p
i like adit because he like to chat with me and comment for something is not important to be discussed.. but actually its good.
i like talk to denny once a time.. its fun and interesting to talk what we already done in outself life.
Family
i dont like my own family bcause i thought our family never have good conversation each others.
i like tante liang, she is busy aunty that can talk to anyone at any age.
i like ci annie, ci sunny, ci bea, heidi because they just independent america woman from my family.
i like widya, meta because they are cheerful.
i like reynard, denny, evan because i can talk to them as a young person wahahaha..
i like davin, because he is managable person. also indah managable for foods.
i like tante tine because she is actually cheerful, except like to shopping :D
i like tante annie because she is patient
i like my mother so much because she is the best person that have big responsibility to my family.
i like my father but not so much because he can be reliable abour car and driving, but he like to mad, and lazy to do home work thing..
i dont like my sister cannot save money, just waste money.
i dont really like my brother, because he is a man in family cannot make my parents proud.
i dont like mine because i am like my father, bad side :D
singapore friend
i like juli because i can talk anything to her about work at singapore, and my friend. :)
i like andre because i have friend to go to church and talk about something motivate and also chat about routine life.
Office
i miss mandy because she like to talk and laugh..
i miss ebe because actualy he know how to appreciate me..
i miss josh because he like to ask me for chat and share before discuss about work..
i miss sharin because he has some humor sense..
i dont miss ricky because he is too much.. like to do social media thing at work hour :D except he like to talk about cheese, banana, and any other weird and unique thing :D
i miss shiau ling because she is cheerful girl except on stress working
i miss jolene, sharon. All the people in office just unique.:)
Braddeler
i like ivana because she is cheerful, talented girl and like to talk without stop.
i like ebby because she is kind, and thankful for what she get in life
i like endien because she is like to shopping ? heeeeee... bcause she is talkactive girl..
ohhhh my housemate all is talkactive :D and i love to hearing. i dont like to speak too much.
the last man at home dimas. just quiet, serious person but actually have sense of humor and music :)
the others that already live here
i miss githaaa because she is kind to me, and help me to saving money more :) so now i collect coin and force my quarter of salary go to saving account :)
i miss diana, my friend at home when i was going back fast after work :)
YM friend, old friend
i miss jati bcause i can pukul2 dia, 'n cubit2 dia :P
i miss steven bcause i still need his advice..
i hate wiewie, because we never have good conversation. i dont know why except he always can pick up me :p
i like adit because he like to chat with me and comment for something is not important to be discussed.. but actually its good.
i like talk to denny once a time.. its fun and interesting to talk what we already done in outself life.
Family
i dont like my own family bcause i thought our family never have good conversation each others.
i like tante liang, she is busy aunty that can talk to anyone at any age.
i like ci annie, ci sunny, ci bea, heidi because they just independent america woman from my family.
i like widya, meta because they are cheerful.
i like reynard, denny, evan because i can talk to them as a young person wahahaha..
i like davin, because he is managable person. also indah managable for foods.
i like tante tine because she is actually cheerful, except like to shopping :D
i like tante annie because she is patient
i like my mother so much because she is the best person that have big responsibility to my family.
i like my father but not so much because he can be reliable abour car and driving, but he like to mad, and lazy to do home work thing..
i dont like my sister cannot save money, just waste money.
i dont really like my brother, because he is a man in family cannot make my parents proud.
i dont like mine because i am like my father, bad side :D
singapore friend
i like juli because i can talk anything to her about work at singapore, and my friend. :)
i like andre because i have friend to go to church and talk about something motivate and also chat about routine life.
Office
i miss mandy because she like to talk and laugh..
i miss ebe because actualy he know how to appreciate me..
i miss josh because he like to ask me for chat and share before discuss about work..
i miss sharin because he has some humor sense..
i dont miss ricky because he is too much.. like to do social media thing at work hour :D except he like to talk about cheese, banana, and any other weird and unique thing :D
i miss shiau ling because she is cheerful girl except on stress working
i miss jolene, sharon. All the people in office just unique.:)
Braddeler
i like ivana because she is cheerful, talented girl and like to talk without stop.
i like ebby because she is kind, and thankful for what she get in life
i like endien because she is like to shopping ? heeeeee... bcause she is talkactive girl..
ohhhh my housemate all is talkactive :D and i love to hearing. i dont like to speak too much.
the last man at home dimas. just quiet, serious person but actually have sense of humor and music :)
the others that already live here
i miss githaaa because she is kind to me, and help me to saving money more :) so now i collect coin and force my quarter of salary go to saving account :)
i miss diana, my friend at home when i was going back fast after work :)
Thursday, March 24, 2011
mimpi..
mengejar mimpi.. Tahun 2011 skarang yeee.. bntar lagi tahun 2012... ahayyy.. katanya sih end of the world??? reallyyy?
Before that day, i want to write my dreams.. #terinspirasi dari blognya orang, kakany tmen house mate ku sih tepatnya.. :P
sooo, langsung aja listed my dream. :)
*tapi sebenernya dari dlu aku sudah mempunyai mimpi loh. Dulu itu mimpiku dalam 5 tahun pertama stlh lulus kuliah aku mau ke singapore. Dan dalam 10 tahun pertamaku, aku mau ke jepang.
ok, itu yg tercatat dlm ingatanku. Dan aku merasa bahagia karena beberapa impianku banyak tercapai di penghujung tahun 2009 diantaranya adalah
- aku belajar menyetir mobil dengan lancar diajarin teman dan mulai membawa mobil mulai tengah tahun 2009 aku bawa mobil ke kntor;)
- aku melamar kerja ke singapore dapat tawaran dari teman, dan diterima ;)
Dan kali ini mari kulanjutkan dengan mimpi lanjutannya.
1. stelah10tahunpertamasetelahluluskeJepang
2. jalanjalankeluarnegrikalaubisamengunjungitemanatausaudaradinegaralain
3. pengenbisabahasachina
4. merasakanmusimautumnsomeday
5. menikahdenganpriayanggentlemandanbisamenjadisosokayahnjaditeladan
6. punyaanakdanmendidikanakdengandisiplinkalaubisamanyekolahinanakkeinggris
7. bisamasakinorangygguesayangbiarkatanydrperutnaikkehati
8. punyausahasendiri
9. berpikirsblmbertindak
10. lancarberbahasainggris
11. bikinortubanggadantetepsumbangsihkeortu
12. keepmenulis
13. tidaksombongdantidakcueklebihramahdenganoranglain
14. pengenpunyacameradanwacom(perangkatdesign)
15. punyamobilnrumah
bisa ga selese2 nih kalo ditulis semuanya.. More think will have more dream should i reach:)
sekian dulu :)
Before that day, i want to write my dreams.. #terinspirasi dari blognya orang, kakany tmen house mate ku sih tepatnya.. :P
sooo, langsung aja listed my dream. :)
*tapi sebenernya dari dlu aku sudah mempunyai mimpi loh. Dulu itu mimpiku dalam 5 tahun pertama stlh lulus kuliah aku mau ke singapore. Dan dalam 10 tahun pertamaku, aku mau ke jepang.
ok, itu yg tercatat dlm ingatanku. Dan aku merasa bahagia karena beberapa impianku banyak tercapai di penghujung tahun 2009 diantaranya adalah
- aku belajar menyetir mobil dengan lancar diajarin teman dan mulai membawa mobil mulai tengah tahun 2009 aku bawa mobil ke kntor;)
- aku melamar kerja ke singapore dapat tawaran dari teman, dan diterima ;)
Dan kali ini mari kulanjutkan dengan mimpi lanjutannya.
1. stelah10tahunpertamasetelahluluskeJepang
2. jalanjalankeluarnegrikalaubisamengunjungitemanatausaudaradinegaralain
3. pengenbisabahasachina
4. merasakanmusimautumnsomeday
5. menikahdenganpriayanggentlemandanbisamenjadisosokayahnjaditeladan
6. punyaanakdanmendidikanakdengandisiplinkalaubisamanyekolahinanakkeinggris
7. bisamasakinorangygguesayangbiarkatanydrperutnaikkehati
8. punyausahasendiri
9. berpikirsblmbertindak
10. lancarberbahasainggris
11. bikinortubanggadantetepsumbangsihkeortu
12. keepmenulis
13. tidaksombongdantidakcueklebihramahdenganoranglain
14. pengenpunyacameradanwacom(perangkatdesign)
15. punyamobilnrumah
bisa ga selese2 nih kalo ditulis semuanya.. More think will have more dream should i reach:)
sekian dulu :)
Thursday, March 10, 2011
HouseMate story
Ok, the story is not the latest, but i still want to fill up into my blog. My homemate eby just has birthday celebration on 20 February. We gather at home and celebrate her, there is david, ivant, kiki, cecep, dimas, nico, and raymond here. We make surprise that is not surprise anymore because eby already come to home. :D But we still celebrate with birthday cake, give a gift then continue with eat mushroom, talk and talk and singing til morning.. Then tommorow, the day after this eby treat us at Punggol eat some seafood there. The places is very far from the city, some people to get there need some time. So after we get there, still need to wait others places. Since after we gather at punggol, we still need to take LRT to Riviera to reach the places. Actually the places is very nice place near the lake and also natural places we still can hear sound of jangkrik.. :P Then we reach home, after dinner. And sunday morning just get the good news, that "do you know what the present that her's boy friend gift to her?" There is a boxes, inside the box first time you saw the boxed of cd Jack Johnson, eby's favorite singer, then below it there is concert ticket jack johnson at Japan :D, then the last plane ticket to Osaka :) And all that gift is given to her at the place that they will be marry almost this last year. :) Awesomeee.. right ? if you can find the romantic guy like that ?:P Congratulation for Eby, You are so Lucky ;)
Others story about my housemate ivant, her good name actually ivana :). She just resigned from her office, and decided to go back to indonesia to take care her family maybe. Its seem the reason, but i dont think so :D but maybe one from many reason too :). Then for celebrate her resignation, and her last day at Singapore we gather many people to gathering and give some present for her. We give her Polaroid Camera and some cards to her. There are Andi, Nico, Dessy, Raymond, Dimas, Anton, Eby, Ansein, Ew, David, Kiki (but he absent on the day). We gather at home to give the card to her, and make give her some clue card to looking for the gift. :) She need to looking for 10 clue to get the present, and every clue she need to looking for at many places from my room, kitchen, refrigenerator, shoes rack, book rack, etc... The last she found it, she is very happy ^^ and she tried the camera to take picture of us :) Good luck to you girls, Wish u always happy ^^
I am just happy can become part of braddeller story. I thought my housemate eby and ivant are cheerful girl.. How come they can be so cheerful, that always become my question ? :D I thought i am serious person, i cannt do like theirs doing, cook and ask the people to come home and we gather just to gathering. Maybe i am to individualis. :P But its ok, that i am :)
Others story about my housemate ivant, her good name actually ivana :). She just resigned from her office, and decided to go back to indonesia to take care her family maybe. Its seem the reason, but i dont think so :D but maybe one from many reason too :). Then for celebrate her resignation, and her last day at Singapore we gather many people to gathering and give some present for her. We give her Polaroid Camera and some cards to her. There are Andi, Nico, Dessy, Raymond, Dimas, Anton, Eby, Ansein, Ew, David, Kiki (but he absent on the day). We gather at home to give the card to her, and make give her some clue card to looking for the gift. :) She need to looking for 10 clue to get the present, and every clue she need to looking for at many places from my room, kitchen, refrigenerator, shoes rack, book rack, etc... The last she found it, she is very happy ^^ and she tried the camera to take picture of us :) Good luck to you girls, Wish u always happy ^^
I am just happy can become part of braddeller story. I thought my housemate eby and ivant are cheerful girl.. How come they can be so cheerful, that always become my question ? :D I thought i am serious person, i cannt do like theirs doing, cook and ask the people to come home and we gather just to gathering. Maybe i am to individualis. :P But its ok, that i am :)
Friday, January 28, 2011
Kata2 mario teguh sungguh mengena.
"Beranikanlah dirimu.. Bahkan seringlah gagal, Asal engkau lebih sering bangkit lagi.. Kesediaan untuk memulai lagi Tanpa penurunan semangat Adalah penanda tinggi imanmu." Kata2 sering2lah gagal mungkin itu adalah yg terberat. Tidak mudah untuk menerima kegagalan, apalagi sering. Membayangkan ny saja sudah berat, tp mario teguh asal bangkit lagi. Tidak apa menjadi gagal, asal bangkin lagi. Jgn biarkan dirimu terlelap dalam kegagalan. Sebisa mungkin justru jika saat memulai tidak ada lagi penurunan semangat. Itu berarti imanmu tinggi. Imanku tidak cukup tinggi, bahkan kepasrahan ku dan kepercayaan ku pada tuhan tidak cukup besar sehingga dsaat aku gagal aku slalu butuh wKtu lama untuk bangkit kembali. Tuhan aku mungkin skrg brada dalam kegagalan krn aku mrasa dalam persimpangan pekerjaan yg mnrt currently tdk membuatku cukup comfortable dsana.. Tp aku tahu aku hanyalah berada di persimpangan sub div, dmn antar subdiv mungkin memiliki perbedaan scr kepentingan.. Tp ajarku untuk menjadi lebih kuat lagi untuk bisa lebih baik scr personal, bukan untuk menjadi employee yg lebih baik. Ajarilah aku untuk tidak putus asa untuk mencapai cita2 dan harapan yang kuinginkan. Semoga tuhan slalu ada besertaku dan kluarga. Terima kasih untuk mario teguh dan semua motivator, smoga kalian slalu ada untuk membawa kemajuan bagi2 setiap manusia di dunia to become better person. Krn perubahan adalah sesuatu yg konstan, perubahan mjd lebih baik!!!!
"Beranikanlah dirimu.. Bahkan seringlah gagal, Asal engkau lebih sering bangkit lagi.. Kesediaan untuk memulai lagi Tanpa penurunan semangat Adalah penanda tinggi imanmu." Kata2 sering2lah gagal mungkin itu adalah yg terberat. Tidak mudah untuk menerima kegagalan, apalagi sering. Membayangkan ny saja sudah berat, tp mario teguh asal bangkit lagi. Tidak apa menjadi gagal, asal bangkin lagi. Jgn biarkan dirimu terlelap dalam kegagalan. Sebisa mungkin justru jika saat memulai tidak ada lagi penurunan semangat. Itu berarti imanmu tinggi. Imanku tidak cukup tinggi, bahkan kepasrahan ku dan kepercayaan ku pada tuhan tidak cukup besar sehingga dsaat aku gagal aku slalu butuh wKtu lama untuk bangkit kembali. Tuhan aku mungkin skrg brada dalam kegagalan krn aku mrasa dalam persimpangan pekerjaan yg mnrt currently tdk membuatku cukup comfortable dsana.. Tp aku tahu aku hanyalah berada di persimpangan sub div, dmn antar subdiv mungkin memiliki perbedaan scr kepentingan.. Tp ajarku untuk menjadi lebih kuat lagi untuk bisa lebih baik scr personal, bukan untuk menjadi employee yg lebih baik. Ajarilah aku untuk tidak putus asa untuk mencapai cita2 dan harapan yang kuinginkan. Semoga tuhan slalu ada besertaku dan kluarga. Terima kasih untuk mario teguh dan semua motivator, smoga kalian slalu ada untuk membawa kemajuan bagi2 setiap manusia di dunia to become better person. Krn perubahan adalah sesuatu yg konstan, perubahan mjd lebih baik!!!!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
20 Januari 2011
I almost send my resignation letter this morning, since i was so depressed today. But fortunately i can passed this morning time.
Actually they are not so bad. They are really kind of person. Maybe just situation that make them need to take responsible like that.
Somehow i so owe with them, with Mandy. How come they can be cheerful, although they have problem about work each others. I know mandy is really kind person, i like her so much. Actually although Jolene become unpleasant people when do verify, but i know she still warm to me. And also Shiau Ling, the one that very worst to report many thing bugs. I know it is not easy become her, because she need to be responsible to all the operation things. I am sorry, i am become very quiet lately. Actually i was very depressed if they still found issue that sometimes me and programmer doesn't what cause it and how to fixed it.
I am happy to become portal team. Although i know maybe somehow my team is not really serious to take schedule, Everything always finish lately. I still like u all. Sharin, that funny guys, and always relax. But actually become serious it is not good too. Somehow i always have many thing to be worried, make me older that i should be. Josh, our consultant that always have something to do, and sometime makes others always have something to be done. But i know, he just kind person that always make me remember about God. I need to thanks to both of them because actually they try to make cheerful if i was been have bad feeling, especially depression because operation thing.
Thank to developer that always do develop and fixed the bugs, actually it is not easy become them. Because they have many thing to do. But i see them still have spirit. Cia Yoooo :)
I love my company currently although i have stress on it. I like u all, at least i am thankful to god because i always go to office that there is political issues. All is my friends :)
And also my home mate, i am sorry. This week i am become very quiet. I just need time for myself. Although somehow i hate u all, but i know all of you hate me too. Somehow i always make u unhappy too.
Actually they are not so bad. They are really kind of person. Maybe just situation that make them need to take responsible like that.
Somehow i so owe with them, with Mandy. How come they can be cheerful, although they have problem about work each others. I know mandy is really kind person, i like her so much. Actually although Jolene become unpleasant people when do verify, but i know she still warm to me. And also Shiau Ling, the one that very worst to report many thing bugs. I know it is not easy become her, because she need to be responsible to all the operation things. I am sorry, i am become very quiet lately. Actually i was very depressed if they still found issue that sometimes me and programmer doesn't what cause it and how to fixed it.
I am happy to become portal team. Although i know maybe somehow my team is not really serious to take schedule, Everything always finish lately. I still like u all. Sharin, that funny guys, and always relax. But actually become serious it is not good too. Somehow i always have many thing to be worried, make me older that i should be. Josh, our consultant that always have something to do, and sometime makes others always have something to be done. But i know, he just kind person that always make me remember about God. I need to thanks to both of them because actually they try to make cheerful if i was been have bad feeling, especially depression because operation thing.
Thank to developer that always do develop and fixed the bugs, actually it is not easy become them. Because they have many thing to do. But i see them still have spirit. Cia Yoooo :)
I love my company currently although i have stress on it. I like u all, at least i am thankful to god because i always go to office that there is political issues. All is my friends :)
And also my home mate, i am sorry. This week i am become very quiet. I just need time for myself. Although somehow i hate u all, but i know all of you hate me too. Somehow i always make u unhappy too.
Saturday, November 06, 2010
About parental guide
Today i saw the movie of planet earth at andi's place n also watch facebook movie and also watch finding neverland at home. I just thinked about parental guide..
i just thinked i don't have enough experiences from my family life like my others friends have. Some other's parent let their children see planet earth to know about other world example animal's life. Or other's parents have a habit to pray together between family, or other's family like to visit many places to show their children example Borobudur, Taman Mekar Sari, others country like Thailand. But my parent seems doesn't like that. My family actually so passive, maybe they pray alone to pray another part of family, then i thought my parent have type as support. They support to make sure their children study until university. But maybe they forgot about children need to be learnt about how to life, how to have attitude,and how to dream.
I am very thanksful to get many thing to be learnt from outside. Maybe my turning point of my life happen when i changed my life from jakarta to surabaya, and was realizing that i cannot come to science major at Santa Ursula High School BSD and moved on into Karitas 3 Sby. I live far from my family, and really thanks to know others type of father's brother family. After that decided to back Jakarta again, to study at university but i live at kost near university. I joined an organization during my study.. I learn about organization, friendship and relationship there.
- Organization things that i get is about technical skill and management.
- Friendship things that i get is about togetherness, team work.
- Relationship things that i get is about my selfishness, make me more stronger, and learn how to challange myself become better to run my life. Then i worked at Software House,German Centre, I was learn about banking, then somehow realize about work environment is different with univ environment. Some of people at univ was learning, but at work some of people concern between earn money for making family or about being profesional or both.
But when i moved to Singapore i learn diferent things about friendship more completely ( friendship like family feeling ),
- About Food, How my friend really like to cook & i start to believe from stomach can go to the heart,
- About togetherness we always celebrated friend's birthday, and also spending time to do friend gathering..
- About Story that conflict sometimes happened inside friendship. But we are still friend.
Many things i had learned from my environment, not from my family places.. Maybe that's why my other sister and brother doesn't really mature.. Thanks to many people that makes me learn more, Thanks to God that make me experience many things..
If i could have a purpose of My Life, I am imagining about make a family as challanging experience.. I know i am not perfect as a woman, but as long as i tried to become better is enough.. I want to be active person to make a family member's as a live person (body & soul) to run a reality life.
i just thinked i don't have enough experiences from my family life like my others friends have. Some other's parent let their children see planet earth to know about other world example animal's life. Or other's parents have a habit to pray together between family, or other's family like to visit many places to show their children example Borobudur, Taman Mekar Sari, others country like Thailand. But my parent seems doesn't like that. My family actually so passive, maybe they pray alone to pray another part of family, then i thought my parent have type as support. They support to make sure their children study until university. But maybe they forgot about children need to be learnt about how to life, how to have attitude,and how to dream.
I am very thanksful to get many thing to be learnt from outside. Maybe my turning point of my life happen when i changed my life from jakarta to surabaya, and was realizing that i cannot come to science major at Santa Ursula High School BSD and moved on into Karitas 3 Sby. I live far from my family, and really thanks to know others type of father's brother family. After that decided to back Jakarta again, to study at university but i live at kost near university. I joined an organization during my study.. I learn about organization, friendship and relationship there.
- Organization things that i get is about technical skill and management.
- Friendship things that i get is about togetherness, team work.
- Relationship things that i get is about my selfishness, make me more stronger, and learn how to challange myself become better to run my life. Then i worked at Software House,German Centre, I was learn about banking, then somehow realize about work environment is different with univ environment. Some of people at univ was learning, but at work some of people concern between earn money for making family or about being profesional or both.
But when i moved to Singapore i learn diferent things about friendship more completely ( friendship like family feeling ),
- About Food, How my friend really like to cook & i start to believe from stomach can go to the heart,
- About togetherness we always celebrated friend's birthday, and also spending time to do friend gathering..
- About Story that conflict sometimes happened inside friendship. But we are still friend.
Many things i had learned from my environment, not from my family places.. Maybe that's why my other sister and brother doesn't really mature.. Thanks to many people that makes me learn more, Thanks to God that make me experience many things..
If i could have a purpose of My Life, I am imagining about make a family as challanging experience.. I know i am not perfect as a woman, but as long as i tried to become better is enough.. I want to be active person to make a family member's as a live person (body & soul) to run a reality life.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
oh tuhan, oh my god, ya ampun
ya ampun, ya tuhan, ya ampun, ya tuhan..
mengapa hal2 seperti ini bisa terjadi padaku
Rasany aku ingin menangis malam ini
Currently rasanya kok ngenes.
- i almost make my friend late for her's flight
- i lost my simcard
- i don't have money
Before this feeling happen to me, actually i was happy because i am visited by Yuli, my high school friend. She was sleeping at my places one day, then we come and go out on saturday. This morning we go to look for i phone 4g / camera dslr canon. Firstly only survey the prices at Ang Mo Kio, and then we have lunch prata at thomson road. Then we go to City Hall and go to Funan, looking for the camera. She wanted to buy, but actully she didn' t bring money a lot. So i borrow her all my money, but still not enough then she borrow her friend money. Ouch, it such a funny story to buy camera we need to collect money since my friend only one day at spore so she didn't bring enough money since she doesn't have purpose to shopping.
Ok actually for this scenario successfully we did. After that we go home to take rest, then we go out for dinner before she go back to indonesia. Ouch my Godness, because my slovenlines, i didn't bring key so when we go back i realized that the door is closed. Then my i phone is dead.
This the way i hate and also love my i phone. Somehow iPhone as a guidance for me at anywhere, but the battery always died half day if i used 3g more. This thing maybe should i learn, i need to buy battery for my i phone. Actually i want to buy, but i make mine intercept that this is not necessary. :'( so until now, i have not buy.
Then we actually become panic, i asked many people about charger for i phone. Many people said that they doesn't have. How come i am not so lucky, when iPhone so 1000 umat dsini, but i cannot found the charger to make my i phone on :(
I really need it to call my friend to know where they are, and possibility i can take the key because i really need it since yuli need to flight back to indonesia. I am so shameful, at many places asked people. But actually i love yuli, she is smart when we are panic. I though she can explain more clearly to other people and also borrow my neighbour charger for i phone. Thx god, after that we can call my friend, and take the key and go to Airport as soon as possible.
Then, i join yuli to go to airport. I need to make sure if she will be allright. But actually yuli cannot check in the luggage because they said already closed. Then she want prepare to change schedule become tommorow, until the gate stuff said can check in the luggage, and there is many people maybe 4 that need to check in. Another have many of ipad to buy, WoW. Then in front of us, she informed by the staff because its late the luggage there is possibility will be sent for the next flight. Yuli really2 worried with her stuff, but she just already check in cannot cancel. That she can do, try to make sure the luggage will be bring into the same flight. I hope she will can do that.
After that i just sit at airport and try to re-thinking all. I dont want to happen like that anymore. It is really stupid. I need to learn for this experience, I will buy the charger for my bad iPhone. And then i will always bring key to anywhere. "PROMISE" and also i will bring key for internet banking.
i hope this will not happen anymore. so stupid thing. me.. why me always like that. so sad!
mengapa hal2 seperti ini bisa terjadi padaku
Rasany aku ingin menangis malam ini
Currently rasanya kok ngenes.
- i almost make my friend late for her's flight
- i lost my simcard
- i don't have money
Before this feeling happen to me, actually i was happy because i am visited by Yuli, my high school friend. She was sleeping at my places one day, then we come and go out on saturday. This morning we go to look for i phone 4g / camera dslr canon. Firstly only survey the prices at Ang Mo Kio, and then we have lunch prata at thomson road. Then we go to City Hall and go to Funan, looking for the camera. She wanted to buy, but actully she didn' t bring money a lot. So i borrow her all my money, but still not enough then she borrow her friend money. Ouch, it such a funny story to buy camera we need to collect money since my friend only one day at spore so she didn't bring enough money since she doesn't have purpose to shopping.
Ok actually for this scenario successfully we did. After that we go home to take rest, then we go out for dinner before she go back to indonesia. Ouch my Godness, because my slovenlines, i didn't bring key so when we go back i realized that the door is closed. Then my i phone is dead.
This the way i hate and also love my i phone. Somehow iPhone as a guidance for me at anywhere, but the battery always died half day if i used 3g more. This thing maybe should i learn, i need to buy battery for my i phone. Actually i want to buy, but i make mine intercept that this is not necessary. :'( so until now, i have not buy.
Then we actually become panic, i asked many people about charger for i phone. Many people said that they doesn't have. How come i am not so lucky, when iPhone so 1000 umat dsini, but i cannot found the charger to make my i phone on :(
I really need it to call my friend to know where they are, and possibility i can take the key because i really need it since yuli need to flight back to indonesia. I am so shameful, at many places asked people. But actually i love yuli, she is smart when we are panic. I though she can explain more clearly to other people and also borrow my neighbour charger for i phone. Thx god, after that we can call my friend, and take the key and go to Airport as soon as possible.
Then, i join yuli to go to airport. I need to make sure if she will be allright. But actually yuli cannot check in the luggage because they said already closed. Then she want prepare to change schedule become tommorow, until the gate stuff said can check in the luggage, and there is many people maybe 4 that need to check in. Another have many of ipad to buy, WoW. Then in front of us, she informed by the staff because its late the luggage there is possibility will be sent for the next flight. Yuli really2 worried with her stuff, but she just already check in cannot cancel. That she can do, try to make sure the luggage will be bring into the same flight. I hope she will can do that.
After that i just sit at airport and try to re-thinking all. I dont want to happen like that anymore. It is really stupid. I need to learn for this experience, I will buy the charger for my bad iPhone. And then i will always bring key to anywhere. "PROMISE" and also i will bring key for internet banking.
i hope this will not happen anymore. so stupid thing. me.. why me always like that. so sad!
Sunday, September 26, 2010
The Day after my birthday
Actually 24-26 September is the busiest week for me.. Because 24th i am too busy to celebrate my birthday by myself go to Johor and participate on Suprising Party for me by my friends. Then 25th, take a rest and take enough sleep and wait Eby's friend from Japan Juri Hitaka is coming to see F1. We have dinner at shokudo, Raffles place after accompany Juri to take the ticket. There are Ivan, Ebby, Anton, Bram, and Juri also me. Juri is Japanese girl that can talk Indonesia. Juri actually Ebby's friend at Jogya. Juri can speak Indonesian well.
Thanks God to make me open my mind, at least at this month i just realized that i found two people, one is Yuli's friend ( Yuli is my High School friend and also married with my university's friend ) at Jakarta that Indian but can speak Indonesian well. Currently i find the Japanese but can speak Indonesia. Indonesia should be nicer because many overseas people want to learn Indonesia language. :)
Why the didn't learn Italy, France, or others.
then, back to topic.. After that Saturday night, i go to Davin (My Cousin) and Indah place to help them celebrate 1st Year (Richie) their children at Sunday. I ask Ivan and Ebby's help to preparing the party. The preparation is late, so some people come when the party have not finish. But it's ok since they help up to create the baloon. Then more people were coming and start the party. Actually Richie sometime cry when the balloon bang, or because too many people. Other thing the food from Aneka Canteen is nice, then there was a Macaroni Schotel and Pudding also have Longan ice. I love the food very much. The party finish at 3 o'clock and we(Ivan, Ebby and Me) help them until finish all the thing.
And then We start to go to Newton MRT to the next plan. I treat my friend at Korean Restaurant, Jalan Lorong Kilat. When we wait my others friend to come Juli my friend is very excited to ask Juri about Japanese thing. Since she was very escited to go to Japan. Juri explain that Tokyo, Osaka and Kyoto can be describes as Tokyo is modern, Osaka 50th older, and Kyoto 100th older.. Maybe you can find many traditional place in Kyoto.Then at Tokyo there is two airport Haneda and one more maybe Narita. But She said that Haneda more near to the town, alhough Narita more newer airport. After all my friend come, We were enjoying the food and also order Sojo - Korean beer almost 20% alcohol.. Ganpaii.. It was because Bram like beer and I want to know how the taste of that one. After that we go home, and enjoy watching F1 at home and also take a rest after my tired day..
The topic that i like this saturday - sunday about the beer and wine. Actually this topic come to me by Bram. Maybe he already know many beer. I try to describe. In Many country have beer. At Korea have Sojo, And then at Japan there is Asahi, And he said there is more nicer the beer from German.
Thanks God to make me open my mind, at least at this month i just realized that i found two people, one is Yuli's friend ( Yuli is my High School friend and also married with my university's friend ) at Jakarta that Indian but can speak Indonesian well. Currently i find the Japanese but can speak Indonesia. Indonesia should be nicer because many overseas people want to learn Indonesia language. :)
Why the didn't learn Italy, France, or others.
then, back to topic.. After that Saturday night, i go to Davin (My Cousin) and Indah place to help them celebrate 1st Year (Richie) their children at Sunday. I ask Ivan and Ebby's help to preparing the party. The preparation is late, so some people come when the party have not finish. But it's ok since they help up to create the baloon. Then more people were coming and start the party. Actually Richie sometime cry when the balloon bang, or because too many people. Other thing the food from Aneka Canteen is nice, then there was a Macaroni Schotel and Pudding also have Longan ice. I love the food very much. The party finish at 3 o'clock and we(Ivan, Ebby and Me) help them until finish all the thing.
And then We start to go to Newton MRT to the next plan. I treat my friend at Korean Restaurant, Jalan Lorong Kilat. When we wait my others friend to come Juli my friend is very excited to ask Juri about Japanese thing. Since she was very escited to go to Japan. Juri explain that Tokyo, Osaka and Kyoto can be describes as Tokyo is modern, Osaka 50th older, and Kyoto 100th older.. Maybe you can find many traditional place in Kyoto.Then at Tokyo there is two airport Haneda and one more maybe Narita. But She said that Haneda more near to the town, alhough Narita more newer airport. After all my friend come, We were enjoying the food and also order Sojo - Korean beer almost 20% alcohol.. Ganpaii.. It was because Bram like beer and I want to know how the taste of that one. After that we go home, and enjoy watching F1 at home and also take a rest after my tired day..
The topic that i like this saturday - sunday about the beer and wine. Actually this topic come to me by Bram. Maybe he already know many beer. I try to describe. In Many country have beer. At Korea have Sojo, And then at Japan there is Asahi, And he said there is more nicer the beer from German.
Friday, September 24, 2010
100% happiness
Since my birthday today but my friend in the office all is very kind. They give me a cake,treat me and also give me the present.. My Singapore friend have a culture like that to celebrate the birthday before the day, if the birthday girl/boy will on leave or the big day on Saturday / Sunday. I am very happy to have chinese name and receive the present.. Thank you.. :)
Today i take on leave, and i really enjoy. My birthday is special day...
Especially for me, today in the morning wake up very early to go the church. The worship start at 6.30 AM at Novena. I remembered that there is reading from a woman about a time. "There is a time, A time to learn, A time to love, A time to hate, etc.." Too many.. But I thought that correct, as long as i am live, We always have A time to love, A time to hate, A time to share, A time to sad, A time to happy.. There is a time to people to realize any feeling.. That time that can make people will be mature.. anyway today is my time to be happy..
After that i just hunting money changer to change singaporean dollar into ringgit. But I though the misa is too early, so when i go to china town the money changer still closed. Then i go to Arcade Raffless place still closed too, until i need to wait by having breakfast in foodcourt..
After that i go to Johor Baru, actually my plan i want to go to City Square and Jusco. But i arrive there already afternoon, then it need time to find City Square although it so easy because i can walk from immigration. But because this is my first time, i dont know that so near. i thought need bus. So i did wrong, i go to Larkin Bus interchange, then need to go back to Malaysia immigration anymore. So i cancelled go to jusco, since it is maybe complicated like i need to buy mrt card / use coin. so next time can try again more far from immigration.
Then i go to see City Square at Johor Baru. It nice, and looking for many store and see hair studio, and decide where i will rebonding my hair. And find the Hair Studio Pro Trim, actually the places very nice. You know, when rebonding i still can do chatting :D That why i am really enjoying in that hair studio..
And the people that serve me really not mbak2, you know this one like professional / educated. Seem the peopler work does not for money, but for skill. I really like it!!! PROTRIM the hair studio is called.
After that just take a look to many store, then go home. Since maybe its too late arrive in Singapore.
Then when i wrote this blog, my friend call me ask me to go out. Then deng deng deng dengg... There are a lot of people outside... *surpriseeeee... hoho..There is eby, ivan, dimas, bram, anton and prof Andi. :)
And more suprise, exactly when Juli and Andre go out from the centre room... WoW.... Thanks all my friend to make surprise party for me... Thanks a lot.. Then get a cake from Bengawan Solo, then eat some food that they cook.. hihihi.. And the last, there is wine to be drinked.. WoW... It really fun, I love it today 100% percent. Thank u for the present too :)
Today i take on leave, and i really enjoy. My birthday is special day...
Especially for me, today in the morning wake up very early to go the church. The worship start at 6.30 AM at Novena. I remembered that there is reading from a woman about a time. "There is a time, A time to learn, A time to love, A time to hate, etc.." Too many.. But I thought that correct, as long as i am live, We always have A time to love, A time to hate, A time to share, A time to sad, A time to happy.. There is a time to people to realize any feeling.. That time that can make people will be mature.. anyway today is my time to be happy..
After that i just hunting money changer to change singaporean dollar into ringgit. But I though the misa is too early, so when i go to china town the money changer still closed. Then i go to Arcade Raffless place still closed too, until i need to wait by having breakfast in foodcourt..
After that i go to Johor Baru, actually my plan i want to go to City Square and Jusco. But i arrive there already afternoon, then it need time to find City Square although it so easy because i can walk from immigration. But because this is my first time, i dont know that so near. i thought need bus. So i did wrong, i go to Larkin Bus interchange, then need to go back to Malaysia immigration anymore. So i cancelled go to jusco, since it is maybe complicated like i need to buy mrt card / use coin. so next time can try again more far from immigration.
Then i go to see City Square at Johor Baru. It nice, and looking for many store and see hair studio, and decide where i will rebonding my hair. And find the Hair Studio Pro Trim, actually the places very nice. You know, when rebonding i still can do chatting :D That why i am really enjoying in that hair studio..
And the people that serve me really not mbak2, you know this one like professional / educated. Seem the peopler work does not for money, but for skill. I really like it!!! PROTRIM the hair studio is called.
After that just take a look to many store, then go home. Since maybe its too late arrive in Singapore.
Then when i wrote this blog, my friend call me ask me to go out. Then deng deng deng dengg... There are a lot of people outside... *surpriseeeee... hoho..There is eby, ivan, dimas, bram, anton and prof Andi. :) And more suprise, exactly when Juli and Andre go out from the centre room... WoW.... Thanks all my friend to make surprise party for me... Thanks a lot.. Then get a cake from Bengawan Solo, then eat some food that they cook.. hihihi.. And the last, there is wine to be drinked.. WoW... It really fun, I love it today 100% percent. Thank u for the present too :)
Wednesday, September 22, 2010
du di du di dam
Hi, Blog..
How are you ? I am in the office. After i thought maybe two weeks become so emotionally. Sometimes crying, sometime very angry. Today i think it will be calm down. My pre period and period will be expired. :D
I just trying to be happy on my birtday. I hope so, what thing should I plan ? Actually i take on leave but still dunno what will i do. There is possibility to go to bintan , or universal studio, or watching korean movie at home.. The possibility to go to bintan is the smallest than others, but the biggest will be only at home. :D
This year i need to comtemplate my life. Sometimes i just running my life as flow in the river. Without effort, but fortunately i have luck. LUCK.. Do u know "I am Lucky" :) luck..luck..luck..
Ok, after make sure the possibility with some friends, 100% only at home.. T.T
so Unlucky!! :'( Really2 will be Comtemplation Day..
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My friend at Singapore really2 excited to look for a new job. After he work probably 1 year and more.. He like to send Resume and come to interview. I dont know why, It seems that he feel bored with his job, or doesn't satisfy with his salary. Since this is my friend at my previous IT company, then resign and move to singapore and in the end he found the job at User Company without relate to Financial knowledge. Maybe that one of the reason too, that at user company you cannot get enough knowledge.
Actually same with me, i worked at user company. Company that provide the application for children below 5 year maybe ( N1, K1, K2 ). But actually this education company is nicely for family-man to work. The time is more flexible than software house company.
Is my friend experience will be happened to me? I still don't know. I am confusing to think about that thing. Many thing need to be thought, since i worked not at my original country. What will happen if the work pass doesn't pass, and there is possibility to going back home. Or in Singapore, there is many friend that work so bad especially the time make you stress and cann't have enough rest. Until you realize that your body become week, although your brain become smart. Currently maybe i think my body is ok, although my brain become not enough smart. \(^.^)/
But many times ago, when i meet my ex-boss, she said that it so pity that my knowledge in banking no used. She seems explicitly talked that i should use the knowledge. I am still thinking that currently is not the time, since my english still not good enough. But later will be my challange.
How are you ? I am in the office. After i thought maybe two weeks become so emotionally. Sometimes crying, sometime very angry. Today i think it will be calm down. My pre period and period will be expired. :D
I just trying to be happy on my birtday. I hope so, what thing should I plan ? Actually i take on leave but still dunno what will i do. There is possibility to go to bintan , or universal studio, or watching korean movie at home.. The possibility to go to bintan is the smallest than others, but the biggest will be only at home. :D
This year i need to comtemplate my life. Sometimes i just running my life as flow in the river. Without effort, but fortunately i have luck. LUCK.. Do u know "I am Lucky" :) luck..luck..luck..
Ok, after make sure the possibility with some friends, 100% only at home.. T.T
so Unlucky!! :'( Really2 will be Comtemplation Day..
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My friend at Singapore really2 excited to look for a new job. After he work probably 1 year and more.. He like to send Resume and come to interview. I dont know why, It seems that he feel bored with his job, or doesn't satisfy with his salary. Since this is my friend at my previous IT company, then resign and move to singapore and in the end he found the job at User Company without relate to Financial knowledge. Maybe that one of the reason too, that at user company you cannot get enough knowledge.
Actually same with me, i worked at user company. Company that provide the application for children below 5 year maybe ( N1, K1, K2 ). But actually this education company is nicely for family-man to work. The time is more flexible than software house company.
Is my friend experience will be happened to me? I still don't know. I am confusing to think about that thing. Many thing need to be thought, since i worked not at my original country. What will happen if the work pass doesn't pass, and there is possibility to going back home. Or in Singapore, there is many friend that work so bad especially the time make you stress and cann't have enough rest. Until you realize that your body become week, although your brain become smart. Currently maybe i think my body is ok, although my brain become not enough smart. \(^.^)/
But many times ago, when i meet my ex-boss, she said that it so pity that my knowledge in banking no used. She seems explicitly talked that i should use the knowledge. I am still thinking that currently is not the time, since my english still not good enough. But later will be my challange.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
tired
Sudah lama aku tidak punya waktu untuk diriku sendiri...
Sudah lama kutahan perasaan-perasaan ku selama ini..
Tapi seperti penuh, beberapa hari ini terkuras dengan air mata..
Akhir2 ini aku merasa lelah untuk menjadi orang lain yg selalu berada dimana2, berusaha hadir di setiap event bersama tmn rmh, tmn yg berkunjung k sini, ke tmpat sdr, dll..
Aku mungkin sosok yg anti sosial. Tidak merasa nyaman ketika berusaha untuk bersosialisasi..
Aku bnyk menangis.. Aku sedih menangisi diriku sendiri kali ini.. Aku sedih kenapa aku hingga hari ini belum bisa bahagia.. Aku masi dalam masa sendiri, menyimpan sakit hati yg telah lalu..
Kehidupan ku seperti tidak maju, tidak ada kemajuan.. Dimana orang lain sudah hampir di masa menjadi istri dan menjadi ibu, aku masi disini di posisi berusaha menyenangkan orang tua dengan cara bekerja.. Tapi diriku sebagai eksistensi pribadi adalah kosong.
Sosok sebagai pekerja, aku kecewa.
Sosok sebagai wanita, aku sendiri.
Sosok sebagai anak, aku cuek.
Aku lelah menjalani hidup ini. Sungguh aku lelah.
Aku ingin menangisi kehidupanku, diriku.
Teringat buku eat pray love.. Ingin kucari kedamaian dan ketenangan hati..
Sudah lama kutahan perasaan-perasaan ku selama ini..
Tapi seperti penuh, beberapa hari ini terkuras dengan air mata..
Akhir2 ini aku merasa lelah untuk menjadi orang lain yg selalu berada dimana2, berusaha hadir di setiap event bersama tmn rmh, tmn yg berkunjung k sini, ke tmpat sdr, dll..
Aku mungkin sosok yg anti sosial. Tidak merasa nyaman ketika berusaha untuk bersosialisasi..
Aku bnyk menangis.. Aku sedih menangisi diriku sendiri kali ini.. Aku sedih kenapa aku hingga hari ini belum bisa bahagia.. Aku masi dalam masa sendiri, menyimpan sakit hati yg telah lalu..
Kehidupan ku seperti tidak maju, tidak ada kemajuan.. Dimana orang lain sudah hampir di masa menjadi istri dan menjadi ibu, aku masi disini di posisi berusaha menyenangkan orang tua dengan cara bekerja.. Tapi diriku sebagai eksistensi pribadi adalah kosong.
Sosok sebagai pekerja, aku kecewa.
Sosok sebagai wanita, aku sendiri.
Sosok sebagai anak, aku cuek.
Aku lelah menjalani hidup ini. Sungguh aku lelah.
Aku ingin menangisi kehidupanku, diriku.
Teringat buku eat pray love.. Ingin kucari kedamaian dan ketenangan hati..
Monday, September 13, 2010
Thursday, September 02, 2010
01 sept 2010
Ansein's Birthday. Since her boyfriend was not here, because his traveller work to China, and Ansein's mother in Jakarta cannot get the flight to Singapore, We have plan to celebrate her birthday. Ebby as planner, collect us to give surprise party in NUS the places that she study for S2. Many people involved with this surprise party, and many friend so cooperated with support to do the task. Example Bram said "For cake leave it to me", and Anton said "For flower leave it to me". The person in charge at below :
- Andi, An PHD lecturer at NUS with Major - Engineering. He looking for the Ansein's Schedule, and buy the manekin and bring into the uni.
- Ebby, looking for the gift for Ansein and have conclusion to give manekin, the statue body that used for designer, since she have new hobby as designer.
- Ivant, looking for her friend (lab assistant) in NUS and borrowed some room as suprise party.
- Anton, looking for the flower (lily) that will be given to Ansein
- Bram, he was not coming but he give the cake for Ansein's birthday and drop by at ivant office.
- Me, one day before just buy the biggest paper, so the paper can used to make something like miss universe used to identify from what country they come from.
Then we gather at NUS, one room to wait miss ansein come into the room and give surprise. The light is off, the she come to the room and the light turn on and we said "surpriseee". Suddently she feel shy, the she go out the door but then go back again and see the manekin doll and the cake. :P Happy birthday girls.. :)
Before celebrate Ansein's birthday, In the office we celebrate Miss Kat, Miss Yoke Koon and Mr Sharin's birthday. They will have birthday on 2,3,4 september. But we gather today on 1st September, because some of them take on leave on 2 September. What happy day today, many people celebrate their birthday. :)
Have a blessing Day on their birthday^^
- Andi, An PHD lecturer at NUS with Major - Engineering. He looking for the Ansein's Schedule, and buy the manekin and bring into the uni.
- Ebby, looking for the gift for Ansein and have conclusion to give manekin, the statue body that used for designer, since she have new hobby as designer.
- Ivant, looking for her friend (lab assistant) in NUS and borrowed some room as suprise party.
- Anton, looking for the flower (lily) that will be given to Ansein
- Bram, he was not coming but he give the cake for Ansein's birthday and drop by at ivant office.
- Me, one day before just buy the biggest paper, so the paper can used to make something like miss universe used to identify from what country they come from.
Then we gather at NUS, one room to wait miss ansein come into the room and give surprise. The light is off, the she come to the room and the light turn on and we said "surpriseee". Suddently she feel shy, the she go out the door but then go back again and see the manekin doll and the cake. :P Happy birthday girls.. :)
Before celebrate Ansein's birthday, In the office we celebrate Miss Kat, Miss Yoke Koon and Mr Sharin's birthday. They will have birthday on 2,3,4 september. But we gather today on 1st September, because some of them take on leave on 2 September. What happy day today, many people celebrate their birthday. :)
Have a blessing Day on their birthday^^
Wednesday, September 01, 2010
Bali Trip 25-30 Agustus 2010
Bali Trip is my first time to visit Bali. I am so excited come 25 august go to airport from office approx 4 o'clock. Departure from Singapore 19.30PM and arrived in Bali 21.00 PM o'clock.
I am so lucky, Thx to Githa and Febri that pick up me on the NguraH Rai Airport. After that have dinner in Denpasar and sleep in Vebri's place in Ubud.
26 August see my friend, Mba Yuli in Taman Ayun. Have breakfast there, and come inside Taman Ayun to see surroundings. There is Pura, and we take many photos there. Some use Mba Yuli's Camera. Continue to Balicamp, my old company but Bali branch. Actually there i saw Pak Rezha, and Pak Prayugo. Another i didn't know, then see the office from swimming pool, 1st floor to six floor, that Mba Yuli explAin to me. That the bigger number, the lower position. And the highest is col-col. From there, the most beautiful landscape that i saw. There is terasering. And then chatting with Mba Pauline and Mba Yuli, After that we go to eat ayam betutu, and go home to ubud and picked up with Vebri. We take a look the hotel, Puri bayu to take the key and then eat pork ribs at Nuris. Vebri bring the ribs go home and give to Pilow, her's dog.
Then in the night, she bring me to the hotel and i meet Ivana, Dede (her big sister) and bobo (her little sister) and take a rest. The person in charge on Bali Trip.
27 August We borrow motor cycle, then walk in Ubud's market. Then have lunch in Bebek Bengil, and then go to Sukowati's market and Celuk looking for silver. After that we have dinner in Pizza Bagus near Ubud, Ivana meet her friend Vebri and Octo, and have chat until morning in hotel.
28 August, We go to meet Endien by Vebri's car. We have lunch in Warung Sulawesi, and go to Waterboom Bali. Before that take photo in Legian. The game in Waterboom bali is very special, especially Climax like rocket. You will go down 180% and then the tools will throw you to go up and rounded the way. Its really scary, and the funny storie ivana's double sister cannot go smoothly and after the go up, they go down again didn't finish game completely. After that we rent a car, avansa. you know i drive the car from waterboom denpasar then walk to Kuta go to Hard Rock Hotel and continue dinner in Subak, near Tabanan. There, we meet my friend Yudi, and after that Yudi take us to the Seminyak Night Life in Bali and go to Kudeta, the nice places for high class. Thanks to Yudi.
29 August, We was looking for Salon New Melati, but cann't cut hair, and smoothing. Because the cutter is not in, and we moved to others places, expression in Padang only can serve for one people only. After that desperately we go to Galleria, mall in Bali and go to Yopie Salon do creambath, manicure and pedicure, massage. After that looking for souvenir, and go to ice cream place near Jimbaran then bring Bobo to Ubeng, because she will go back to Jatim. After that eat at emak engking, with ivana friend. Then at night go to VEbri's place and chatting.
After that go home take a rest, on last day 30 august 2010 bring dedek to batu bulan the she continue taxi to airport. Continue to ivana old office to meet her's friend. Until we need to go back into airport.
The holiday is over. Something that make me very happy, i drive the car there. Thank a lot Victory for teaching me how to drive!!
I am so lucky, Thx to Githa and Febri that pick up me on the NguraH Rai Airport. After that have dinner in Denpasar and sleep in Vebri's place in Ubud.
26 August see my friend, Mba Yuli in Taman Ayun. Have breakfast there, and come inside Taman Ayun to see surroundings. There is Pura, and we take many photos there. Some use Mba Yuli's Camera. Continue to Balicamp, my old company but Bali branch. Actually there i saw Pak Rezha, and Pak Prayugo. Another i didn't know, then see the office from swimming pool, 1st floor to six floor, that Mba Yuli explAin to me. That the bigger number, the lower position. And the highest is col-col. From there, the most beautiful landscape that i saw. There is terasering. And then chatting with Mba Pauline and Mba Yuli, After that we go to eat ayam betutu, and go home to ubud and picked up with Vebri. We take a look the hotel, Puri bayu to take the key and then eat pork ribs at Nuris. Vebri bring the ribs go home and give to Pilow, her's dog.
Then in the night, she bring me to the hotel and i meet Ivana, Dede (her big sister) and bobo (her little sister) and take a rest. The person in charge on Bali Trip.
27 August We borrow motor cycle, then walk in Ubud's market. Then have lunch in Bebek Bengil, and then go to Sukowati's market and Celuk looking for silver. After that we have dinner in Pizza Bagus near Ubud, Ivana meet her friend Vebri and Octo, and have chat until morning in hotel.
28 August, We go to meet Endien by Vebri's car. We have lunch in Warung Sulawesi, and go to Waterboom Bali. Before that take photo in Legian. The game in Waterboom bali is very special, especially Climax like rocket. You will go down 180% and then the tools will throw you to go up and rounded the way. Its really scary, and the funny storie ivana's double sister cannot go smoothly and after the go up, they go down again didn't finish game completely. After that we rent a car, avansa. you know i drive the car from waterboom denpasar then walk to Kuta go to Hard Rock Hotel and continue dinner in Subak, near Tabanan. There, we meet my friend Yudi, and after that Yudi take us to the Seminyak Night Life in Bali and go to Kudeta, the nice places for high class. Thanks to Yudi.
29 August, We was looking for Salon New Melati, but cann't cut hair, and smoothing. Because the cutter is not in, and we moved to others places, expression in Padang only can serve for one people only. After that desperately we go to Galleria, mall in Bali and go to Yopie Salon do creambath, manicure and pedicure, massage. After that looking for souvenir, and go to ice cream place near Jimbaran then bring Bobo to Ubeng, because she will go back to Jatim. After that eat at emak engking, with ivana friend. Then at night go to VEbri's place and chatting.
After that go home take a rest, on last day 30 august 2010 bring dedek to batu bulan the she continue taxi to airport. Continue to ivana old office to meet her's friend. Until we need to go back into airport.
The holiday is over. Something that make me very happy, i drive the car there. Thank a lot Victory for teaching me how to drive!!
Monday, August 16, 2010
My House mate story..
Jadi keranjingan ngeblog, ga cukup skali.
First time at my home, there are 3 room with 5 girl.
Room 1 are me and Githa
Room 2 are Ivana and Ebby
Room 3 small room, for Diana only
Githa, Anak pertama dari bandung yang mandiri, galak, muka judes tapi kalo dah kenal dalemnya akan terpancar kemodernisasianny, kepeduliannya terhadap kecantikan, juga yg terakhir kliatan kebaikanny. :p
Me, Anak bungsu dari jakarta baru dateng ke singapore belum bnyk tahu spore, kalem, penurut dan semakin kenal akan tahu orangny suka makan, suka tidur, dan akhirny paling suka diledekin plus digalakin sama githa.
Ebby, Cwe jogya yang ramah kecuali kalo mo dtg masa bulanany menampilkan muka galak, dan kalo lagi kelaperan sangath 'n butuh nasi utk sdkt mrubah raut mukanya. Anak rumah yang punya cowo dan sama2 tinggal di singapore.
Ivana, sosok cewe bawel bgth, suka keramaian n ngumpulin orang2 biar rame, suka rame, dan yah sedikit dominan. Paling peduli dengan dapurnya apalagi sejak dia pny oven di dapur. :D
Diana, yg kerja 6 hari seminggu di hotel bisa dapet shift pagi / mlem. Bangun paling pagi jam 6 dah berangkat tpi plg paling cpet jam 3an. Cwe yg sangat sibuk dengan kerjaan, acara gereja, dan pacaran sama cowony yg di Indonesia. Tapi nih cwe satu2ny yg bisa lancar bahasa mandarin di rmh.
Aku ga sempet menceritakan stiap kejadian d rmh.. tapi skrg personil2 itu telat tergantikan pertama Diana pindah ke tempat baru, karena akan balik ke indo untuk persiapan pernikahanny di tahun depan. Digantikan oleh Dimas, satu-satuny cowo di rumah. Kemudian Githa pulang ke Bandung, sebelum melanjutkan kisahnya ke Netherland. Dan personil rumah akan tetap menjadi empat orang, dan teman-temannya yg lain yg akan meramaikan kisah kehidupan.
Yg jelas cerita terbaru,
- My Friend ebby is proposed in Bintan. She was happy, since she talked to her boyfriend. To proposed should be good place and good time..
- My Friend Dimas just bought iPad and how the guys friend really interested with that stuff, although the our friend Phd
- My friend Ivana that got offer to Beijing, but still wandering serious offer / not.
- Me, is dreaming wandering vacation on Bali..
How nice this story if become novel, just a new fresh idea. ;)
First time at my home, there are 3 room with 5 girl.
Room 1 are me and Githa
Room 2 are Ivana and Ebby
Room 3 small room, for Diana only
Githa, Anak pertama dari bandung yang mandiri, galak, muka judes tapi kalo dah kenal dalemnya akan terpancar kemodernisasianny, kepeduliannya terhadap kecantikan, juga yg terakhir kliatan kebaikanny. :p
Me, Anak bungsu dari jakarta baru dateng ke singapore belum bnyk tahu spore, kalem, penurut dan semakin kenal akan tahu orangny suka makan, suka tidur, dan akhirny paling suka diledekin plus digalakin sama githa.
Ebby, Cwe jogya yang ramah kecuali kalo mo dtg masa bulanany menampilkan muka galak, dan kalo lagi kelaperan sangath 'n butuh nasi utk sdkt mrubah raut mukanya. Anak rumah yang punya cowo dan sama2 tinggal di singapore.
Ivana, sosok cewe bawel bgth, suka keramaian n ngumpulin orang2 biar rame, suka rame, dan yah sedikit dominan. Paling peduli dengan dapurnya apalagi sejak dia pny oven di dapur. :D
Diana, yg kerja 6 hari seminggu di hotel bisa dapet shift pagi / mlem. Bangun paling pagi jam 6 dah berangkat tpi plg paling cpet jam 3an. Cwe yg sangat sibuk dengan kerjaan, acara gereja, dan pacaran sama cowony yg di Indonesia. Tapi nih cwe satu2ny yg bisa lancar bahasa mandarin di rmh.
Aku ga sempet menceritakan stiap kejadian d rmh.. tapi skrg personil2 itu telat tergantikan pertama Diana pindah ke tempat baru, karena akan balik ke indo untuk persiapan pernikahanny di tahun depan. Digantikan oleh Dimas, satu-satuny cowo di rumah. Kemudian Githa pulang ke Bandung, sebelum melanjutkan kisahnya ke Netherland. Dan personil rumah akan tetap menjadi empat orang, dan teman-temannya yg lain yg akan meramaikan kisah kehidupan.
Yg jelas cerita terbaru,
- My Friend ebby is proposed in Bintan. She was happy, since she talked to her boyfriend. To proposed should be good place and good time..
- My Friend Dimas just bought iPad and how the guys friend really interested with that stuff, although the our friend Phd
- My friend Ivana that got offer to Beijing, but still wandering serious offer / not.
- Me, is dreaming wandering vacation on Bali..
How nice this story if become novel, just a new fresh idea. ;)
Celebrating 7 month in Singapore and Indonesia's birthday
Aku sangat-sangat bersyukur atas anugerah yg Tuhan berikan padaku hingga hari ini..
Walaupun kadang kala kesedihan menghantam diriku, ku harap itu yang membuat diriku kuat hingga hari ini.
Diriku bukan orang yang pintar, istilah indo "lemot" ato lambat dalam merespon sesuatu.
Diriku bukan orang yang rajin, istilah indo "malas" ato suka bersantai-santai tidak suka belajar.
Diriku bukan orang yang kaya, istilah indo "tidak berlebihan hartanya" tapi cukuplah dibantu sana sini..
Diriku bukan orang yang hemat, istilah indo "boros" suka bersenang-senang dan membelanjakan uangnya..
Tapi Tuhan tetap baik padaku, bunda maria juga baik. Aku masi diijinkan untuk mengembara ke singapore. Merasakan teman housemate yang rajin memasak, ramah, suka berkumpul membuat ku merasa homie di singapore. Memiliki saudara dan sepupu kecil di singapore yang bisa dikunjungi membuat hidupku lebih berwarna. Hidup di singapore sebagai negara wisata, banyak dikunjungi teman-teman dari Indonesia. Don't worry asal bisa berkumpul sekali2 menjadi tour guide tidak masalah..
Sungguh bersyukur sekali atas kesempatan bisa kerja di Singapore.. Thx to Ricky Wijaya my friend.. Although i still have a lot to be learned.. I know maybe i am so slow to learn english, to make relationship with non indonesian, but maybe that i am. Tidak punya keinginan untuk mengeluarkan effort utk spt itu.. :D
I hope i can stand live in singapore.. I hope so, because it is not indonesia. No macet, More bersih, More Secure, More Prosperity but still have a lot of indonesian. :)
Be Patient to me.. Change me is not me.. Me just Me.. tetep ada sebuah kebaikan dalam diri ku.. Berusaha menerima diriku apa adanya dan mensyukuri setiap langkah hidupku.. Thx God and bless my family with a lot of joy.. Don't let them in trouble..
Celebrating 17 January - 17 August ; 7 Months in Singapore 'til Indonesia's Birthday.. Indonesia be blessed.. :)
Diriku bukan orang yang pintar, istilah indo "lemot" ato lambat dalam merespon sesuatu.
Diriku bukan orang yang rajin, istilah indo "malas" ato suka bersantai-santai tidak suka belajar.
Diriku bukan orang yang kaya, istilah indo "tidak berlebihan hartanya" tapi cukuplah dibantu sana sini..
Diriku bukan orang yang hemat, istilah indo "boros" suka bersenang-senang dan membelanjakan uangnya..
Tapi Tuhan tetap baik padaku, bunda maria juga baik. Aku masi diijinkan untuk mengembara ke singapore. Merasakan teman housemate yang rajin memasak, ramah, suka berkumpul membuat ku merasa homie di singapore. Memiliki saudara dan sepupu kecil di singapore yang bisa dikunjungi membuat hidupku lebih berwarna. Hidup di singapore sebagai negara wisata, banyak dikunjungi teman-teman dari Indonesia. Don't worry asal bisa berkumpul sekali2 menjadi tour guide tidak masalah..
Sungguh bersyukur sekali atas kesempatan bisa kerja di Singapore.. Thx to Ricky Wijaya my friend.. Although i still have a lot to be learned.. I know maybe i am so slow to learn english, to make relationship with non indonesian, but maybe that i am. Tidak punya keinginan untuk mengeluarkan effort utk spt itu.. :D
I hope i can stand live in singapore.. I hope so, because it is not indonesia. No macet, More bersih, More Secure, More Prosperity but still have a lot of indonesian. :)
Be Patient to me.. Change me is not me.. Me just Me.. tetep ada sebuah kebaikan dalam diri ku.. Berusaha menerima diriku apa adanya dan mensyukuri setiap langkah hidupku.. Thx God and bless my family with a lot of joy.. Don't let them in trouble..
Celebrating 17 January - 17 August ; 7 Months in Singapore 'til Indonesia's Birthday.. Indonesia be blessed.. :)
Sunday, June 06, 2010
Since my friend at home go to shanghai
On thursday last week, i meet with bu sekar and have dinner together..
On friday, went with juli see discount at orchard, and watch sex and the city 2
on saturday, went with andre to mustafa centre, watch prince of persia 2 and have dinner at botaks jones..
On sunday went to church n leyeh2 at home..
This week on saturday, wait for ac technician to clean all ac here, then clean home and have lunch at old airport road hawker centre, back again to home and see many prewedding video. And today on sunday, go to church and eat at eaton and just dreaming about wedding.. Fufufu.. :'( i want to go dubaiiii n have pre wedding photo in the water:) my next dream after work at spore.. Is it will come true?
Eniway, i just hate my family and the money... ( curhat doank ) huhhhh..
On friday, went with juli see discount at orchard, and watch sex and the city 2
on saturday, went with andre to mustafa centre, watch prince of persia 2 and have dinner at botaks jones..
On sunday went to church n leyeh2 at home..
This week on saturday, wait for ac technician to clean all ac here, then clean home and have lunch at old airport road hawker centre, back again to home and see many prewedding video. And today on sunday, go to church and eat at eaton and just dreaming about wedding.. Fufufu.. :'( i want to go dubaiiii n have pre wedding photo in the water:) my next dream after work at spore.. Is it will come true?
Eniway, i just hate my family and the money... ( curhat doank ) huhhhh..
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