My stupidity

aiaiaiaiaia... melankolie apa yg datang padaku malem ini...

huahuahua.. me.. 24 tahun.. masi suka menjomblo.. suka pria dengan umur lima tahun lebih tua.. Menganggap ia kanak2, meninggalkan nomer hp berharap dia menghubungi. kemudian bersikap sok perhatian...

mennn, dia hampir 30 tahun.. pantaskah aku bersikap seperti itu..

ditambah lagi scenario, satu teman ku juga naksir sama dia..

aiaiaiaiai... stupid stupid stupid... spertiny ga ada harapan.. pupus sudah..

dtambah lagi gosip2 miring yg bkin gue makin kliatan stupid.. >.<

haiah.. memang i dari dlu sampe skrg selalu stupid...

aku cuma bosan menjomblo...dan as always ga tahan untuk sendirian.. huahuahua.. :'(

Kutunggu pacarmu.. dan pacarku..

Kutunggu pacarmu..
Satu tahun lagi..

Kutunggu istrimu..
Lima tahun lagi..

Kutunggu Dudamu..
Sepuluh tahun lagi..

Kutunggu matimu..
Dua puluh tahun lagi

Sampai aku lelah menunggu..
Aku masih akan mencintaimu..

sungguh sulit tuk mencinta..
caraku yg salah..
tidak tahu bagaimana memulai percintaan..


sudah itu masih yakin Cinta itu akan datang
tanpa menghargai cinta yg ada..

terus terus dan terus...
ku mengejar cintaku.. idealis dan perfectsionis..

tanpaa lelah.. dan putus asa..

It's not about love, but it's about feeling lonely..

"Maaf, Troy, aku tak mau kalau hanya menjadi sekadar pemenuh hasratmu. Aku menginginkan posisi yang lebih jelas di hati dan hidumu, gumam Gadis dalam hati'

Sepotong kata hati Gadis as a woman at the novel that i was reading at afternoon. I just like the words. It's should must i do for a long time ago. But sometimes difficult to do at the time when we feels something so special and control to distract the feeling.

For being single, I feel so bored.. I have had a lot of my time for my self. It has been one year being single, and now i thinks i am ready to be in a relationship. But the problem is with whom i would have a relationship ? ho3x.. it's difficult to know that i have a feeling with someone, but he don't have any feeling with me. WeW.. It will be so tired to attact attention from mister from Mars.. :p

Maybe it's good to be true.. Being single with many fans.. :p I will be mrs available for you for the time my fans needs. hahahaha.. "YouR style likes a young girl... " And to realize that i am not enough rich to waste the money for being having fun.. That's all just imagination.. WeW.. :p

I feel desperated to know that i am just an employee with salary just enough for living one month...

What must i do, for upgrade my quality. I realize that i have a talent, what must i do just need time for being patient. And upgrade my confidence.. 'till the time.. (i still waiting) huuu.. >.<