Friday, May 04, 2012

You are not the one that on difficult situation

Hi God,
Thank for slap me. When all my surrounding is very kind to me. You are the one that give me comparison.

I know several people, Andre, Linda, Shinta. I know all of them currently on boring mode in their step of life. Most of them bored with their job, and also some of them bored to be single. Since it's not easy to find soulmate, although we really want it.

I'm still lucky even i feel bored to be single, there is one guy that still love me very much.

When i feel very bored to my job, there is my boss that really want to understand me, and help me different way. My boss really want me to know god deeper. He always do this kind of thing since i'm in at my company here.

And what he said quite shocked me "But dont change for the sake of changing because perhaps the need for change that you feel is within you not so much the environment" kalo diindonesiain Jangan berubah demi ingin berubah karena mungkin keinginan berubah yang kamu rasakan itu berasal dari diri sendiri dan bukan terlalu banyak dari lingkungan.

Yes, big possibility i want to change because i really want to change. And i just throw the reason cause of company. possible...

Thanks god, so far i 've boss for the current n previous company, really understand me. And they didnt allowed me to resign without take good step.

Even now, when i really want to runaway from this job, this life. My family doesnt agree with it. My mother especially want me to stay here. Its not easily deal with it, i should stretch it. Even my uncle, my aunty all give advice to me. I cannot be careless to take the decision. It will effect very big to my family. oh God, give me some strength to pass all of this.

Related about my life,my relationship with many flat mate. I also hear many problem, my roommate lost her dog, and she is really sad about it. The day when she hear about it, she is crying and cannot sleep til early day. Then my other flatmate, she just have complicated relationship with the guy that i think have take 1 or 2 year until they decided to be in relationship. But at the last its over on a month, and a bit difficult for her because she really runaway to Jakarta spontaneously. The other one also, my friend that have work in spore for 2 year, then move to Netherlands for study, and failed go back Singapore and look for the job. A bit pathetic for her, because she work at start-up company after 3 month probation the company just cut off her salary.

O ya even my company's friend also have many problem. The one that have 1 baby, 1 dog, and 1 mother to be take care. And even her husband probably is not reliable. Then the other on single not married woman, that now have many sickness from asthma, gastric, eye problem. Before she have an accident within 3 car. I hope all of them will be okay.

My pray for you god, please take care all of them. Even i'm sure Davin and Indah also have the difficult way about their new house, and Reynard feel tired about all his job.

o God, Thanks for reminding me that i'm not the one in difficult situation. I make a wish, hope all of us can pass through all the problem.

I just realize that i'm still lucky person. That i know i should improved myself. That is an obligation. Where is my spirit ? I really want to change!!!