About parental guide

Today i saw the movie of planet earth at andi's place n also watch facebook movie and also watch finding neverland at home. I just thinked about parental guide..

i just thinked i don't have enough experiences from my family life like my others friends have. Some other's parent let their children see planet earth to know about other world example animal's life. Or other's parents have a habit to pray together between family, or other's family like to visit many places to show their children example Borobudur, Taman Mekar Sari, others country like Thailand. But my parent seems doesn't like that. My family actually so passive, maybe they pray alone to pray another part of family, then i thought my parent have type as support. They support to make sure their children study until university. But maybe they forgot about children need to be learnt about how to life, how to have attitude,and how to dream.

I am very thanksful to get many thing to be learnt from outside. Maybe my turning point of my life happen when i changed my life from jakarta to surabaya, and was realizing that i cannot come to science major at Santa Ursula High School BSD and moved on into Karitas 3 Sby. I live far from my family, and really thanks to know others type of father's brother family. After that decided to back Jakarta again, to study at university but i live at kost near university. I joined an organization during my study.. I learn about organization, friendship and relationship there.
- Organization things that i get is about technical skill and management.
- Friendship things that i get is about togetherness, team work.
- Relationship things that i get is about my selfishness, make me more stronger, and learn how to challange myself become better to run my life. Then i worked at Software House,German Centre, I was learn about banking, then somehow realize about work environment is different with univ environment. Some of people at univ was learning, but at work some of people concern between earn money for making family or about being profesional or both.
But when i moved to Singapore i learn diferent things about friendship more completely ( friendship like family feeling ),
- About Food, How my friend really like to cook & i start to believe from stomach can go to the heart,
- About togetherness we always celebrated friend's birthday, and also spending time to do friend gathering..
- About Story that conflict sometimes happened inside friendship. But we are still friend.

Many things i had learned from my environment, not from my family places.. Maybe that's why my other sister and brother doesn't really mature.. Thanks to many people that makes me learn more, Thanks to God that make me experience many things..

If i could have a purpose of My Life, I am imagining about make a family as challanging experience.. I know i am not perfect as a woman, but as long as i tried to become better is enough.. I want to be active person to make a family member's as a live person (body & soul) to run a reality life.

oh tuhan, oh my god, ya ampun

ya ampun, ya tuhan, ya ampun, ya tuhan..
mengapa hal2 seperti ini bisa terjadi padaku
Rasany aku ingin menangis malam ini

Currently rasanya kok ngenes.
- i almost make my friend late for her's flight
- i lost my simcard
- i don't have money

Before this feeling happen to me, actually i was happy because i am visited by Yuli, my high school friend. She was sleeping at my places one day, then we come and go out on saturday. This morning we go to look for i phone 4g / camera dslr canon. Firstly only survey the prices at Ang Mo Kio, and then we have lunch prata at thomson road. Then we go to City Hall and go to Funan, looking for the camera. She wanted to buy, but actully she didn' t bring money a lot. So i borrow her all my money, but still not enough then she borrow her friend money. Ouch, it such a funny story to buy camera we need to collect money since my friend only one day at spore so she didn't bring enough money since she doesn't have purpose to shopping.

Ok actually for this scenario successfully we did. After that we go home to take rest, then we go out for dinner before she go back to indonesia. Ouch my Godness, because my slovenlines, i didn't bring key so when we go back i realized that the door is closed. Then my i phone is dead.

This the way i hate and also love my i phone. Somehow iPhone as a guidance for me at anywhere, but the battery always died half day if i used 3g more. This thing maybe should i learn, i need to buy battery for my i phone. Actually i want to buy, but i make mine intercept that this is not necessary. :'( so until now, i have not buy.

Then we actually become panic, i asked many people about charger for i phone. Many people said that they doesn't have. How come i am not so lucky, when iPhone so 1000 umat dsini, but i cannot found the charger to make my i phone on :(
I really need it to call my friend to know where they are, and possibility i can take the key because i really need it since yuli need to flight back to indonesia. I am so shameful, at many places asked people. But actually i love yuli, she is smart when we are panic. I though she can explain more clearly to other people and also borrow my neighbour charger for i phone. Thx god, after that we can call my friend, and take the key and go to Airport as soon as possible.

Then, i join yuli to go to airport. I need to make sure if she will be allright. But actually yuli cannot check in the luggage because they said already closed. Then she want prepare to change schedule become tommorow, until the gate stuff said can check in the luggage, and there is many people maybe 4 that need to check in. Another have many of ipad to buy, WoW. Then in front of us, she informed by the staff because its late the luggage there is possibility will be sent for the next flight. Yuli really2 worried with her stuff, but she just already check in cannot cancel. That she can do, try to make sure the luggage will be bring into the same flight. I hope she will can do that.

After that i just sit at airport and try to re-thinking all. I dont want to happen like that anymore. It is really stupid. I need to learn for this experience, I will buy the charger for my bad iPhone. And then i will always bring key to anywhere. "PROMISE" and also i will bring key for internet banking.

i hope this will not happen anymore. so stupid thing. me.. why me always like that. so sad!

The Day after my birthday

Actually 24-26 September is the busiest week for me.. Because 24th i am too busy to celebrate my birthday by myself go to Johor and participate on Suprising Party for me by my friends. Then 25th, take a rest and take enough sleep and wait Eby's friend from Japan Juri Hitaka is coming to see F1. We have dinner at shokudo, Raffles place after accompany Juri to take the ticket. There are Ivan, Ebby, Anton, Bram, and Juri also me. Juri is Japanese girl that can talk Indonesia. Juri actually Ebby's friend at Jogya. Juri can speak Indonesian well.

Thanks God to make me open my mind, at least at this month i just realized that i found two people, one is Yuli's friend ( Yuli is my High School friend and also married with my university's friend ) at Jakarta that Indian but can speak Indonesian well. Currently i find the Japanese but can speak Indonesia. Indonesia should be nicer because many overseas people want to learn Indonesia language. :)

Why the didn't learn Italy, France, or others.

then, back to topic.. After that Saturday night, i go to Davin (My Cousin) and Indah place to help them celebrate 1st Year (Richie) their children at Sunday. I ask Ivan and Ebby's help to preparing the party. The preparation is late, so some people come when the party have not finish. But it's ok since they help up to create the baloon. Then more people were coming and start the party. Actually Richie sometime cry when the balloon bang, or because too many people. Other thing the food from Aneka Canteen is nice, then there was a Macaroni Schotel and Pudding also have Longan ice. I love the food very much. The party finish at 3 o'clock and we(Ivan, Ebby and Me) help them until finish all the thing.

And then We start to go to Newton MRT to the next plan. I treat my friend at Korean Restaurant, Jalan Lorong Kilat. When we wait my others friend to come Juli my friend is very excited to ask Juri about Japanese thing. Since she was very escited to go to Japan. Juri explain that Tokyo, Osaka and Kyoto can be describes as Tokyo is modern, Osaka 50th older, and Kyoto 100th older.. Maybe you can find many traditional place in Kyoto.Then at Tokyo there is two airport Haneda and one more maybe Narita. But She said that Haneda more near to the town, alhough Narita more newer airport. After all my friend come, We were enjoying the food and also order Sojo - Korean beer almost 20% alcohol.. Ganpaii.. It was because Bram like beer and I want to know how the taste of that one. After that we go home, and enjoy watching F1 at home and also take a rest after my tired day..

The topic that i like this saturday - sunday about the beer and wine. Actually this topic come to me by Bram. Maybe he already know many beer. I try to describe. In Many country have beer. At Korea have Sojo, And then at Japan there is Asahi, And he said there is more nicer the beer from German.

100% happiness

Since my birthday today but my friend in the office all is very kind. They give me a cake,treat me and also give me the present.. My Singapore friend have a culture like that to celebrate the birthday before the day, if the birthday girl/boy will on leave or the big day on Saturday / Sunday. I am very happy to have chinese name and receive the present.. Thank you.. :)



Today i take on leave, and i really enjoy. My birthday is special day...

Especially for me, today in the morning wake up very early to go the church. The worship start at 6.30 AM at Novena. I remembered that there is reading from a woman about a time. "There is a time, A time to learn, A time to love, A time to hate, etc.." Too many.. But I thought that correct, as long as i am live, We always have A time to love, A time to hate, A time to share, A time to sad, A time to happy.. There is a time to people to realize any feeling.. That time that can make people will be mature.. anyway today is my time to be happy..

After that i just hunting money changer to change singaporean dollar into ringgit. But I though the misa is too early, so when i go to china town the money changer still closed. Then i go to Arcade Raffless place still closed too, until i need to wait by having breakfast in foodcourt..

After that i go to Johor Baru, actually my plan i want to go to City Square and Jusco. But i arrive there already afternoon, then it need time to find City Square although it so easy because i can walk from immigration. But because this is my first time, i dont know that so near. i thought need bus. So i did wrong, i go to Larkin Bus interchange, then need to go back to Malaysia immigration anymore. So i cancelled go to jusco, since it is maybe complicated like i need to buy mrt card / use coin. so next time can try again more far from immigration.

Then i go to see City Square at Johor Baru. It nice, and looking for many store and see hair studio, and decide where i will rebonding my hair. And find the Hair Studio Pro Trim, actually the places very nice. You know, when rebonding i still can do chatting :D That why i am really enjoying in that hair studio..

And the people that serve me really not mbak2, you know this one like professional / educated. Seem the peopler work does not for money, but for skill. I really like it!!! PROTRIM the hair studio is called.
After that just take a look to many store, then go home. Since maybe its too late arrive in Singapore.

Then when i wrote this blog, my friend call me ask me to go out. Then deng deng deng dengg... There are a lot of people outside... *surpriseeeee... hoho..There is eby, ivan, dimas, bram, anton and prof Andi. :)

And more suprise, exactly when Juli and Andre go out from the centre room... WoW.... Thanks all my friend to make surprise party for me... Thanks a lot.. Then get a cake from Bengawan Solo, then eat some food that they cook.. hihihi.. And the last, there is wine to be drinked.. WoW... It really fun, I love it today 100% percent. Thank u for the present too :)

du di du di dam

Hi, Blog..

How are you ? I am in the office. After i thought maybe two weeks become so emotionally. Sometimes crying, sometime very angry. Today i think it will be calm down. My pre period and period will be expired. :D

I just trying to be happy on my birtday. I hope so, what thing should I plan ? Actually i take on leave but still dunno what will i do. There is possibility to go to bintan , or universal studio, or watching korean movie at home.. The possibility to go to bintan is the smallest than others, but the biggest will be only at home. :D

This year i need to comtemplate my life. Sometimes i just running my life as flow in the river. Without effort, but fortunately i have luck. LUCK.. Do u know "I am Lucky" :) luck..luck..luck..

Ok, after make sure the possibility with some friends, 100% only at home.. T.T
so Unlucky!! :'( Really2 will be Comtemplation Day..

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My friend at Singapore really2 excited to look for a new job. After he work probably 1 year and more.. He like to send Resume and come to interview. I dont know why, It seems that he feel bored with his job, or doesn't satisfy with his salary. Since this is my friend at my previous IT company, then resign and move to singapore and in the end he found the job at User Company without relate to Financial knowledge. Maybe that one of the reason too, that at user company you cannot get enough knowledge.

Actually same with me, i worked at user company. Company that provide the application for children below 5 year maybe ( N1, K1, K2 ). But actually this education company is nicely for family-man to work. The time is more flexible than software house company.

Is my friend experience will be happened to me? I still don't know. I am confusing to think about that thing. Many thing need to be thought, since i worked not at my original country. What will happen if the work pass doesn't pass, and there is possibility to going back home. Or in Singapore, there is many friend that work so bad especially the time make you stress and cann't have enough rest. Until you realize that your body become week, although your brain become smart. Currently maybe i think my body is ok, although my brain become not enough smart. \(^.^)/

But many times ago, when i meet my ex-boss, she said that it so pity that my knowledge in banking no used. She seems explicitly talked that i should use the knowledge. I am still thinking that currently is not the time, since my english still not good enough. But later will be my challange.

tired

Sudah lama aku tidak punya waktu untuk diriku sendiri...

Sudah lama kutahan perasaan-perasaan ku selama ini..

Tapi seperti penuh, beberapa hari ini terkuras dengan air mata..

Akhir2 ini aku merasa lelah untuk menjadi orang lain yg selalu berada dimana2, berusaha hadir di setiap event bersama tmn rmh, tmn yg berkunjung k sini, ke tmpat sdr, dll..

Aku mungkin sosok yg anti sosial. Tidak merasa nyaman ketika berusaha untuk bersosialisasi..

Aku bnyk menangis.. Aku sedih menangisi diriku sendiri kali ini.. Aku sedih kenapa aku hingga hari ini belum bisa bahagia.. Aku masi dalam masa sendiri, menyimpan sakit hati yg telah lalu..

Kehidupan ku seperti tidak maju, tidak ada kemajuan.. Dimana orang lain sudah hampir di masa menjadi istri dan menjadi ibu, aku masi disini di posisi berusaha menyenangkan orang tua dengan cara bekerja.. Tapi diriku sebagai eksistensi pribadi adalah kosong.

Sosok sebagai pekerja, aku kecewa.
Sosok sebagai wanita, aku sendiri.
Sosok sebagai anak, aku cuek.

Aku lelah menjalani hidup ini. Sungguh aku lelah.
Aku ingin menangisi kehidupanku, diriku.

Teringat buku eat pray love.. Ingin kucari kedamaian dan ketenangan hati..

You sucks!!

How sucks u are! I want to make u shut up!!

01 sept 2010

Ansein's Birthday. Since her boyfriend was not here, because his traveller work to China, and Ansein's mother in Jakarta cannot get the flight to Singapore, We have plan to celebrate her birthday. Ebby as planner, collect us to give surprise party in NUS the places that she study for S2. Many people involved with this surprise party, and many friend so cooperated with support to do the task. Example Bram said "For cake leave it to me", and Anton said "For flower leave it to me". The person in charge at below :

- Andi, An PHD lecturer at NUS with Major - Engineering. He looking for the Ansein's Schedule, and buy the manekin and bring into the uni.
- Ebby, looking for the gift for Ansein and have conclusion to give manekin, the statue body that used for designer, since she have new hobby as designer.
- Ivant, looking for her friend (lab assistant) in NUS and borrowed some room as suprise party.
- Anton, looking for the flower (lily) that will be given to Ansein
- Bram, he was not coming but he give the cake for Ansein's birthday and drop by at ivant office.
- Me, one day before just buy the biggest paper, so the paper can used to make something like miss universe used to identify from what country they come from.

Then we gather at NUS, one room to wait miss ansein come into the room and give surprise. The light is off, the she come to the room and the light turn on and we said "surpriseee". Suddently she feel shy, the she go out the door but then go back again and see the manekin doll and the cake. :P Happy birthday girls.. :)

Before celebrate Ansein's birthday, In the office we celebrate Miss Kat, Miss Yoke Koon and Mr Sharin's birthday. They will have birthday on 2,3,4 september. But we gather today on 1st September, because some of them take on leave on 2 September. What happy day today, many people celebrate their birthday. :)

Have a blessing Day on their birthday^^

Bali Trip 25-30 Agustus 2010

Bali Trip is my first time to visit Bali. I am so excited come 25 august go to airport from office approx 4 o'clock. Departure from Singapore 19.30PM and arrived in Bali 21.00 PM o'clock.

I am so lucky, Thx to Githa and Febri that pick up me on the NguraH Rai Airport. After that have dinner in Denpasar and sleep in Vebri's place in Ubud.

26 August see my friend, Mba Yuli in Taman Ayun. Have breakfast there, and come inside Taman Ayun to see surroundings. There is Pura, and we take many photos there. Some use Mba Yuli's Camera. Continue to Balicamp, my old company but Bali branch. Actually there i saw Pak Rezha, and Pak Prayugo. Another i didn't know, then see the office from swimming pool, 1st floor to six floor, that Mba Yuli explAin to me. That the bigger number, the lower position. And the highest is col-col. From there, the most beautiful landscape that i saw. There is terasering. And then chatting with Mba Pauline and Mba Yuli, After that we go to eat ayam betutu, and go home to ubud and picked up with Vebri. We take a look the hotel, Puri bayu to take the key and then eat pork ribs at Nuris. Vebri bring the ribs go home and give to Pilow, her's dog.

Then in the night, she bring me to the hotel and i meet Ivana, Dede (her big sister) and bobo (her little sister) and take a rest. The person in charge on Bali Trip.

27 August We borrow motor cycle, then walk in Ubud's market. Then have lunch in Bebek Bengil, and then go to Sukowati's market and Celuk looking for silver. After that we have dinner in Pizza Bagus near Ubud, Ivana meet her friend Vebri and Octo, and have chat until morning in hotel.

28 August, We go to meet Endien by Vebri's car. We have lunch in Warung Sulawesi, and go to Waterboom Bali. Before that take photo in Legian. The game in Waterboom bali is very special, especially Climax like rocket. You will go down 180% and then the tools will throw you to go up and rounded the way. Its really scary, and the funny storie ivana's double sister cannot go smoothly and after the go up, they go down again didn't finish game completely. After that we rent a car, avansa. you know i drive the car from waterboom denpasar then walk to Kuta go to Hard Rock Hotel and continue dinner in Subak, near Tabanan. There, we meet my friend Yudi, and after that Yudi take us to the Seminyak Night Life in Bali and go to Kudeta, the nice places for high class. Thanks to Yudi.

29 August, We was looking for Salon New Melati, but cann't cut hair, and smoothing. Because the cutter is not in, and we moved to others places, expression in Padang only can serve for one people only. After that desperately we go to Galleria, mall in Bali and go to Yopie Salon do creambath, manicure and pedicure, massage. After that looking for souvenir, and go to ice cream place near Jimbaran then bring Bobo to Ubeng, because she will go back to Jatim. After that eat at emak engking, with ivana friend. Then at night go to VEbri's place and chatting.

After that go home take a rest, on last day 30 august 2010 bring dedek to batu bulan the she continue taxi to airport. Continue to ivana old office to meet her's friend. Until we need to go back into airport.

The holiday is over. Something that make me very happy, i drive the car there. Thank a lot Victory for teaching me how to drive!!

My House mate story..

Jadi keranjingan ngeblog, ga cukup skali.

First time at my home, there are 3 room with 5 girl.
Room 1 are me and Githa
Room 2 are Ivana and Ebby
Room 3 small room, for Diana only

Githa, Anak pertama dari bandung yang mandiri, galak, muka judes tapi kalo dah kenal dalemnya akan terpancar kemodernisasianny, kepeduliannya terhadap kecantikan, juga yg terakhir kliatan kebaikanny. :p

Me, Anak bungsu dari jakarta baru dateng ke singapore belum bnyk tahu spore, kalem, penurut dan semakin kenal akan tahu orangny suka makan, suka tidur, dan akhirny paling suka diledekin plus digalakin sama githa.

Ebby, Cwe jogya yang ramah kecuali kalo mo dtg masa bulanany menampilkan muka galak, dan kalo lagi kelaperan sangath 'n butuh nasi utk sdkt mrubah raut mukanya. Anak rumah yang punya cowo dan sama2 tinggal di singapore.

Ivana, sosok cewe bawel bgth, suka keramaian n ngumpulin orang2 biar rame, suka rame, dan yah sedikit dominan. Paling peduli dengan dapurnya apalagi sejak dia pny oven di dapur. :D

Diana, yg kerja 6 hari seminggu di hotel bisa dapet shift pagi / mlem. Bangun paling pagi jam 6 dah berangkat tpi plg paling cpet jam 3an. Cwe yg sangat sibuk dengan kerjaan, acara gereja, dan pacaran sama cowony yg di Indonesia. Tapi nih cwe satu2ny yg bisa lancar bahasa mandarin di rmh.

Aku ga sempet menceritakan stiap kejadian d rmh.. tapi skrg personil2 itu telat tergantikan pertama Diana pindah ke tempat baru, karena akan balik ke indo untuk persiapan pernikahanny di tahun depan. Digantikan oleh Dimas, satu-satuny cowo di rumah. Kemudian Githa pulang ke Bandung, sebelum melanjutkan kisahnya ke Netherland. Dan personil rumah akan tetap menjadi empat orang, dan teman-temannya yg lain yg akan meramaikan kisah kehidupan.

Yg jelas cerita terbaru,
- My Friend ebby is proposed in Bintan. She was happy, since she talked to her boyfriend. To proposed should be good place and good time..
- My Friend Dimas just bought iPad and how the guys friend really interested with that stuff, although the our friend Phd
- My friend Ivana that got offer to Beijing, but still wandering serious offer / not.
- Me, is dreaming wandering vacation on Bali..


How nice this story if become novel, just a new fresh idea. ;)

Celebrating 7 month in Singapore and Indonesia's birthday

Aku sangat-sangat bersyukur atas anugerah yg Tuhan berikan padaku hingga hari ini.. Walaupun kadang kala kesedihan menghantam diriku, ku harap itu yang membuat diriku kuat hingga hari ini.

Diriku bukan orang yang pintar, istilah indo "lemot" ato lambat dalam merespon sesuatu.
Diriku bukan orang yang rajin, istilah indo "malas" ato suka bersantai-santai tidak suka belajar.
Diriku bukan orang yang kaya, istilah indo "tidak berlebihan hartanya" tapi cukuplah dibantu sana sini..
Diriku bukan orang yang hemat, istilah indo "boros" suka bersenang-senang dan membelanjakan uangnya..

Tapi Tuhan tetap baik padaku, bunda maria juga baik. Aku masi diijinkan untuk mengembara ke singapore. Merasakan teman housemate yang rajin memasak, ramah, suka berkumpul membuat ku merasa homie di singapore. Memiliki saudara dan sepupu kecil di singapore yang bisa dikunjungi membuat hidupku lebih berwarna. Hidup di singapore sebagai negara wisata, banyak dikunjungi teman-teman dari Indonesia. Don't worry asal bisa berkumpul sekali2 menjadi tour guide tidak masalah..

Sungguh bersyukur sekali atas kesempatan bisa kerja di Singapore.. Thx to Ricky Wijaya my friend.. Although i still have a lot to be learned.. I know maybe i am so slow to learn english, to make relationship with non indonesian, but maybe that i am. Tidak punya keinginan untuk mengeluarkan effort utk spt itu.. :D

I hope i can stand live in singapore.. I hope so, because it is not indonesia. No macet, More bersih, More Secure, More Prosperity but still have a lot of indonesian. :)

Be Patient to me.. Change me is not me.. Me just Me.. tetep ada sebuah kebaikan dalam diri ku.. Berusaha menerima diriku apa adanya dan mensyukuri setiap langkah hidupku.. Thx God and bless my family with a lot of joy.. Don't let them in trouble..

Celebrating 17 January - 17 August ; 7 Months in Singapore 'til Indonesia's Birthday.. Indonesia be blessed.. :)

Since my friend at home go to shanghai

On thursday last week, i meet with bu sekar and have dinner together..
On friday, went with juli see discount at orchard, and watch sex and the city 2
on saturday, went with andre to mustafa centre, watch prince of persia 2 and have dinner at botaks jones..
On sunday went to church n leyeh2 at home..

This week on saturday, wait for ac technician to clean all ac here, then clean home and have lunch at old airport road hawker centre, back again to home and see many prewedding video. And today on sunday, go to church and eat at eaton and just dreaming about wedding.. Fufufu.. :'( i want to go dubaiiii n have pre wedding photo in the water:) my next dream after work at spore.. Is it will come true?

Eniway, i just hate my family and the money... ( curhat doank ) huhhhh..

Fun day :)

I really enjoy my friday till sunday... :)

friday, i walked with my office team. We started to walked from cintect1 to my old office near science park - kent ridge - hort park - henderson wave - alexandra arch - mount faber and arrived at harbour front. Really tired to walked but in the end we have a fresh can of juice.. :) nice to charge the spirit^^ and after that take a rest at food court harbour front to drink sugar cane, we continue take bus to marina bay sands and walked again til helix bridge, and go to singapore flyer. But we are so tired to cobtinue to marina barrage, after that we separated, some go to mounbatten and others to harbour front. At mountbatten, i buy beancurd and then see my friends dog yoyo, she is cute:) and go home take a rest............ But you know,at night my friends came home and plan to go to zoux, clubbing...:p awesome, some how at the end i join them.. I think my roomate so stress, so need to clubbing. Waw, and there is so full of people.. Omygod, there was ab event.. The dj so coolz, the name is steve aoki.. He really make us very excited, that i cannot believing the dj is jump to us.. And open some sampagne and shack the bottle and open.. Buzzzzz the water comes out.. And i think clubbing here is unique, because there is boom the oxigen.. But actually my friend really crazy to jump and jump..

on saturday, only at home see many film. And then realize my beancurd didn't enough to my cousin because my roomate so excited to eat many2 times, so i went to mounbatteb again to buy:d i dunno what an aunty think about me:d but the beancurd really nice, then go back and eat botak jones with my roomate, and talk and realize that why she was like that at zoek:p she failed with his eilts, so she need to wait one year to continue her study.. But to my roomate, keep your spirit!!

on sunday go to marina barrage and see my cousin, aunty and uncle and see marina barrage and then take lunch. And then go back to my cousin home, and eat dinner at imm. I get my order from my parent, go back to home with all stuff:) fun fun fun..

Busy but fun

Hiiiii...
i feeelllzzz gooodd...< br/> yesterday just enjoy my time at home watching movie to movie by i phone. Then continue with watch ironman2 at cinema although didn't understand enough with the story,but i was enjoying. O ya bfore watch,we go to boat quay to gather for fadly want to go back indo... Eat some thai food there.. Good luck to fadly, success to u..

on sunday wake up late for three weeks didnt go to church. I am sorry god. Huhuhu.. Then after that see places for rental room at china town.. And the eat chicken rice at maxwell foodcourt then walk to marina sand see casino at outside, see helix, and the hotel n mall..and the sun very hot then go to esplanade then go to milenia then go walk again to mall fountain, waiting for fontain but exactly the fontain is fixed and i cannot see laser show. It s ok today very tired with walk but fun.. Today already morning n tom need to work again.. God bless me...

My new life @spore

I don't know why i said as my new life. I have lived here for 3 month, i expected that as my adaption and my probation. There is possibility to myself back to indo because of my work or can stand live at here mybe:p

i already get my confirmation, although the salary still the same. Then i buy i phone by my cousin's name. Then i formatted my computer with windows seven. All my old data already moved on to mobile harddisk. And then my i phone just powerful except the battery. I never to afraid for feeling lost at sing, feeling bored at mrt, already installed all that needed. If there is internet connection, dont worry:)

but new mrt route circle line already run. I can use mrt till my office, before i need to take bus. But negatively becomes i didn't get seat in the morning and going home. There is a lot of people.

i got sick, i didn't really know why i sick badly. Sore throat and cough, make my friend's at hole sick too:d

i realize that i really have new life at spore, because all experience that i have.. And i need to improve mine,seems i already at comfortable zone. Starting becomes lazy.. >..< helppp mee..

Holiday without english language

Holiday will be ends.. :P

My holiday is fun, and tiring.. friday, start with going to church in the morning, and feel dizzy after that so i went home for sleeping, then lazyness at home with githa(my roomate). And then went to Toa Payoh Garden from my home at braddel. she said we will walk 3 times, like doing sports.. :p I only can said yes, but after that at Toa Payoh the cloud becomes dark and drizzle.. So we went to Toa Payoh, decided to walk arround at mall.. After walk, we went to fair price to shopping food.. Then go home with our weekly expenditure.. so heavy with cleaner for cloth 3 kilo, pokka for drink 2 bottle.. at last arrived at home, we move on the stuff to exactly place.. After that, see home so messy, i take broom and clean home. Githa continue to mopping.. And our home rental becomes cleaner :) It's really good..

Then, on Saturday .. In the morning,my friend Ivana went to market.. After that, we are busy to cooking, help a little that i cannot cook :D Then, her friend come and eat and eat and drink and drink.. Then finally, they go home and we go to movie cinema at dhoby goat to watching Clash of Titans. After that, go to Vivocity to see my cousins Meta and eat for dinner, then go to Michael Hotel to see my aunty there, and cannot see my uncle since he is busy at casino.. :D Then till the time, 11.30 i go home, running for the last train. Finally come at home 12.30 maybe... WoW so tired and sleep.

In the afternoon, i wake up at 10a.m and wake up eating and other. Till my roomate githa ask me to eat at dhoby goat for sushi that cheap before the price is up twenty sen. Then go to see the park mall, she survey for architecture stuff.. After that, walk to somerset, see arround.. Then i went to bukit gombak to see my other aunty.. My aunty bring some food for me, indomie and other that i order to my mother :) And then go homeeee late again.. My holiday is very busy.. :P

But all, i contact will all indonesia.. O ya, here seems i look at a lot of indonesia, seems i see susanti my high school friend, and astrid, my friend at binus.. But, i didn't want to call them.. I am afraid to be wrong :D Truly, there is a lot of indonesian here.. :D

Tommorowwww,, woooorrrkkk againnnnn, ouchhh nooo.. Give me strength god, :) Work is fun, fun fun fun.. :)

What i want, what i need.. me too usual..

Realizing, that my blog all the content about hope, and grumble..Seems that i write the blog when i feel abstract.. Where am I now ? as quality human ?

I don't know where i am.. what i feel.. Like live just for live till the time ends.. What things that supposed i do, just need to make my parent proud.. That's all..

What supposed i do for myself ? still nothing, only walk arround.. i dont have a dream.. When i see arround, my friend learn mandarin, take S2, other take many vacation, my roommate get the scholarship to Netherland.. For me, after move on to singapore still feeling nonexistent..

I don't have any idea, what supposed i do.. Really dunno.. God, what should i do ? Give me the spirit! Spirit come come come.. I want to die.. Really not wisee.. :'(

Why, i always try becomes kind.. unruly.. Don't ask why.. but How..

:) Keep Smile

Considering today as horrible day

I just feeling afraid, everyday when i go to office.. Just thinking what will happen today..

Just feeling like that useless to recruit me or not, because there is no benefit for the company.. But need to be thanksful for being lucky, can work here and see many kind people.. Althought if my probation will not succeed, but need to be positive.. The first one should i do is taking an english course, and speak english.. What is me? seonggok manusia bodoh yg suka melakukan hal bodoh.. Today, my card to go in the office is lost, Today is Salary day. Likes the time this is the end, you dont need to work anymore.. HuHuHuuuuUuuuuuuuuuu... T.T - I hope this is only my negative thinking..

And then, my family again.. why problem never ends, i just calling my mother today.. Like she is so stress :( because of my brother is easily to be angry.. His wife is sick, and still dont know what ill that she have.. Life becomes not easy.. God, Mother Mary just need you to protect my family..

Why my family, like have many disaster. All have a problem becomes family, didn't want to make family... :'( But, so owe see the family that happy with kids..

Today is really bad day, but keep me strong God.. Dont let me becomes down, i want to be someone.. Please let me became someone that have character..

me, gundah

Aku ingin menangis malam ini..

Thank you for being there for me. Although i know, that your life is harder than me. Your load that you should assure more heavy than me.. But truly, my gratitude that you really care to me, although sometimes i talk rush to you.. Hope you and your family will be on alright.

Somebody out there, where are you. Do you like me or not. Why are you do nothing? why? Do i really ignore you ? :D

Somebody from my memories, sometimes i remember about you. i just want to at least same to you. i don't like more weak than you. Althought it's seems like that.

God, give me a chance.. I want to be survivor..

There is not perfect life, perfect company, perfect soulmate, perfect family.. Please be realistic..

I am really sorry, that i am not kind..

Ragu & Takut..

Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Bimbing aku..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Kuatkan aku..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Buat aku Tegar..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Jadikan aku sesuai Rencana-Mu..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Tetaplah di sampingku..

Bunda, aku lemah..
Bunda, aku bodoh..
Bunda, aku pesimis..
Bunda, aku tak bersemangat..
Bunda, aku hanya memikirkan kesenangan..
Bundaaa, Ajari Aku menjadi kuat menjalani hari-hari besok ku hingga deadline itu tiba..

Aminnn..
kupercaya, ku akan kuat..
kupercaya, ku akan bisa..
kupercaya, ku akan mampu..
kupercaya, ku akan sanggup..
ber-juang dengan lelahku, usahaku, niatku, dan doa..

Ajariku berdoa..

Busy & some thinking..

My weekend so tired.. Saturday i went to cathay at Orcard watching hachiko, and then look around at Orchard with Juli. Juli buy something for souvenir, and i buy 2 flat shoes..:P Hope the shoes make me comfortable on singapore.. A lot of walking.. :p And then, after that i was going to swimming with many stuff that will be saved on locker. I like spore very much, because when i go to swimming pool. All registered by marchine... You can only insert the money to come to swimming pool. Yesterday is so tired..

At Sunday, Today i went to St Theresa Church with Reynard, my cousin. And then eat lunch, and continue with watching 14 blades at golden village Vivocity. Thank you Re.. :) And see Julius at St John Church, i went to church for second ^^ And then i went to take dinner and walk arround at china town, to see many things.. It's fun but so tired, my foot so "pegal".. Dun't find the exactly word.. :P

And i dont know... Sometimes, i am thinking that i am so busy with walking arround, don't concentrate with my job. I am so afraid, that i cann't survive for the probation. Really feel scary, because my boss somehow don't really care with me.. I feel that my language suppose to be increased fast.. but HOW ? Talk to me.. HOW HOW HOW.. i try to listening with watching movie at cinema / television. But somehow, only that is not enough.. aAaaaaa, i must have a big of bravery.. Please give that spirit, holy mary..

Don't let this opportunity become useless.. *keep praying*

Let's pray.. :)

Doa Santa Maria in English
Hail Mary, full of grace,
our Lord is with thee,
blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, mother of God,
pray for us sinners, now, and in
the hour of our death.
Amen.

Doa Bapa Kami in English
Our Father, who art in Heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come, Thy Will be done,
On Earth, as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
[For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever and ever.]
Amen.
Hope i can pray with english.. :)

My Transformation is more exactly than Revolution

Big Thanks to My God, Jesus and My Holy Mary..

I really thanksful that my prayer is accepted.. I can go work to singapore.. I have been pray from more than one year ago. Althought i almost forget with my dream, but in the end how luckily i get what i dream for.. I believe that what i ask to god, god will answer slowly or fast..

My Transformation happened on december 2009, and become reality on January 2010.. What is my purpose to be here ?

Singapore, in this country i want to breath clearly than my office and my country..
Singapore, in this country i try to make my parent proud..
Singapore, in this country i learn to be independent again after 2 years..
Singapore, in this country i will learn an english.. although maybe it can be singlish.. :P
Singapore, in this country i want to earn money more than indo..
Singapore, in this country i hope to find boyfriends and making relationship, maybe also makeing family

It starts from hope , maybe need some effort , a lot of praying... but i frequently absent.. >.<
but hope is hope..
Effort is talk a lot in english, be confident, hardworker, adaptation, learn to sharing, socialization at my home..
pray is pray, to be active to the church.. :p

Holy Mary, bless me..
God, bless me..
and also my Family, Thank a lot to my parent, brother, sister, om siang & family, Tante ani & Family, Davin & Family, Tante me & Family, and the best support from my grand mother, Oma.. :)