X mas at December 2008

Almost one year, and 2008 will be passed again.. What have i had ?

I only worked along the year 2008.. But I am enjoying this year, becoZ i have a vacation to abroad for the first time. And I do with my little money that i get from worked.. ^^ I really fun to have a much time with him at holiday.. It's special for me..

I worked at the company that i can get a lot of knowledge.. I really have a lot knowledge, but with spend a lot of time, a lot of feeling for being tired, a lot of friends, a lot of input-an for me.. and anothers.. Thx for all, i will be more okay next year.. I am just so childish sometimes.. If i can regret, why must i got the big project in the end of year that make me feel so Arghhz.. sometimes feel i cann't survive..must survive and so lazy to survive.. Argh... shi*..

I have close friend, that sometimes i have spend time to chatting, spend time for hangout, and another. I am never regret to know you more closely. You are really helpful for me at many area.. I really thx for being so kind and harsh sometimes.. I hope this is not a sin.. but an experience..

Next YeaR.. My plannnn, ouch so desperately i feel so sad why global ressesion must come.. make me so afraid to take the challange.. Sometimes, i feel my skill is becomes low time by time.. hhh..God, i am so far from you.. choose me a way please.. My pray for u, also me and my family.. and all my friends..

HaVe A MeRrY - mErRy X' maS time..

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My stupidity

aiaiaiaiaia... melankolie apa yg datang padaku malem ini...

huahuahua.. me.. 24 tahun.. masi suka menjomblo.. suka pria dengan umur lima tahun lebih tua.. Menganggap ia kanak2, meninggalkan nomer hp berharap dia menghubungi. kemudian bersikap sok perhatian...

mennn, dia hampir 30 tahun.. pantaskah aku bersikap seperti itu..

ditambah lagi scenario, satu teman ku juga naksir sama dia..

aiaiaiaiai... stupid stupid stupid... spertiny ga ada harapan.. pupus sudah..

dtambah lagi gosip2 miring yg bkin gue makin kliatan stupid.. >.<

haiah.. memang i dari dlu sampe skrg selalu stupid...

aku cuma bosan menjomblo...dan as always ga tahan untuk sendirian.. huahuahua.. :'(

Kutunggu pacarmu.. dan pacarku..

Kutunggu pacarmu..
Satu tahun lagi..

Kutunggu istrimu..
Lima tahun lagi..

Kutunggu Dudamu..
Sepuluh tahun lagi..

Kutunggu matimu..
Dua puluh tahun lagi

Sampai aku lelah menunggu..
Aku masih akan mencintaimu..

sungguh sulit tuk mencinta..
caraku yg salah..
tidak tahu bagaimana memulai percintaan..


sudah itu masih yakin Cinta itu akan datang
tanpa menghargai cinta yg ada..

terus terus dan terus...
ku mengejar cintaku.. idealis dan perfectsionis..

tanpaa lelah.. dan putus asa..

It's not about love, but it's about feeling lonely..

"Maaf, Troy, aku tak mau kalau hanya menjadi sekadar pemenuh hasratmu. Aku menginginkan posisi yang lebih jelas di hati dan hidumu, gumam Gadis dalam hati'

Sepotong kata hati Gadis as a woman at the novel that i was reading at afternoon. I just like the words. It's should must i do for a long time ago. But sometimes difficult to do at the time when we feels something so special and control to distract the feeling.

For being single, I feel so bored.. I have had a lot of my time for my self. It has been one year being single, and now i thinks i am ready to be in a relationship. But the problem is with whom i would have a relationship ? ho3x.. it's difficult to know that i have a feeling with someone, but he don't have any feeling with me. WeW.. It will be so tired to attact attention from mister from Mars.. :p

Maybe it's good to be true.. Being single with many fans.. :p I will be mrs available for you for the time my fans needs. hahahaha.. "YouR style likes a young girl... " And to realize that i am not enough rich to waste the money for being having fun.. That's all just imagination.. WeW.. :p

I feel desperated to know that i am just an employee with salary just enough for living one month...

What must i do, for upgrade my quality. I realize that i have a talent, what must i do just need time for being patient. And upgrade my confidence.. 'till the time.. (i still waiting) huuu.. >.<

What special From china

My friend, Denny will be go to China on 6th October. He will studying 1 year at University. Good Luck yah den.. And also My Cousin went to China too. he learned at Xi'an Jiatong - Liverpool University at Suzhou.. Dewi went to china too, when olimpiade in Beijing was running. And also there are many my friends that learned chinese language for 6month - 1 year after the S-1 graduation..

What special from China ?
I am so curious..

I wondering when will i can go there. I hope that i can go there for visiting them. And they will become my tour guide in China. How do i can earn enough money to go there ??

Since i feel confuse that what should i do for the next year planning.. I want to improve my self.. But i am so afraid, that starting from the beginning again is not easy.. It needs anything, especially my agility preparation to be ready for any changes..

Life needs a challange, to upgrade quality of my life. I hope, there will be a way that direct me to the best choice for better life.

Menikmati masa-masa sulit..

Hai.. :)

Masa sulit selalu akan menghadang kehidupan kita.. Tapi seberapa kuat kita melalui kesulitan tersebut, dan seberapa besar kekompakan kita untuk bekerja bakti melalui kesulitan itu..

Dalam kasusku, aku merasa bersyukur skalipun aku baru berlibur dan masuk-masuk langsung menerima serangkaian project dari BPDNET Jatim, CR spt project Night File Ekonomi, kemudian Project IBS BPRKS, dan lagi2 BPDNET Kaltim.

Yah dari ksemuanya tidak ada PM yang aku sukai.. Aku lebih suka implementator dan temen seperjuangan di QA.. Menyenangkan bertemu dengan orang-orang yang berusaha bertanggung jawab.. wlopun masing2 memiliki kekurangan.. :) Dan tentu saja bahagia, karena orang di sekitar yang selalu siap membantu... Senior serta bos yang mendukung..

Sebal melihat orang-orang yang hanya bisa menerima sesuatu cepad beres, selesai ontime. Jika belum selesai, mereka menyalahkan.. Yah mereka itu memakai cara pandang dari atas, belum bisa melihat dan berempati sampai ke bawah.

Tapi lagi2, kmrn ini aku kena tegur sama seseorang. aku diminta berhati2 menceritakan sesuatu, menyebarkan issue yang belum tentu benar.. Yah mungkin aku memang terlalu cepat berpersepsi ketika menceritakan hal itu. Aku banyak mendengar kejelekannya, dan baru hari ini aku mendengarkan pujiannya dari anak buahnya.. mungkin benar, aku terlalu cepat berpersepsi. ;)

Gapapa lah, teguran itu kan biar mengingadkan kita bahwa kita harus tetap berusaha menjadi orang baik. Terima kasih bapak, atas tegurannya ^^..

Udah ah sgini dlu, nyambi sambil lembur di kantor. ;)

bye bye..
by,
Stefanie

Life is not good

Life is not good.. I think day by day, It becomes worst.. I didn't get bonus. and then the price of stuff become higher, the prices from gasoline is up. Now, i am loses my part time job. My life becomes so difficult. :(

Although i must be thankful for everything that i had have, that means i must not so fast being feel satisfied.. I must do enough effort for getting more and more ..

God, help me.. show me the way for make my family happy.. and can survive..

i hope everything will be allright.. Thx God..

Rgds,
Stefanie

Me on Vacation

From July, 3 until July, 10 : I am on Vacation..
My Journey started from Singapore and finished at Kuala Lumpur.

The moment that i done;
Thursdat at July 3,
I am arrived at Spore from Batam by Ferry Penguin.. I was picked by my cousin and bring my stuff into the apartment. After that, my journey is started. I am going to Orchard Road, buy card number at seven eleven and then i phone, and meet Juli and Steven. We eat at Rumah Makan Ayam Goreng Ria at Lucky Plaza. It's Indonesian Food. WeW, i am treated by Juli likes rice, chicken, tahu tempe with delicious chili..and off cource drinking teh botol sosro.. :D For that, Juli paid for 33 dollar spore.. i realized that Indonesian Food at others countries is so expensive... and how comes, i am from indonesia and for the first time going to abroad, was eat indonesian food.. but taste the chili is unforgetable.. very hot.. And then after eaten, we walk at orchard road, buy an ice cream that the prices is 1 dollar.. and walk, walk and also chatting.. And for the first time, i was used MRT at spore.. Very nice ;)

Friday at July, 4
I was going to Bugis Library with my friend, Kurniawan. I used a free internet there until lunch time. Then we eat, and searching souvenir at Bugis Street. As usual we take any pictures at many event, many places likes Wong Ndeso see arround at Spore.. ^^ After that, in the afternoon i was going to meet steven. And see arround again at Marina mall and citilink mall. And then unforgetable moment that i had. ;)

Saturday at July, 5
In the morning, i went to Sentosa island, and see arround, and also take many pictures. And then in afternoon i went to my cousin wedding at Saint Mary Church. I meet Nico, and my big family of course. My Wedding is very nice, the koor is very good, the church is good too. And reception is also very nice, my cousin and the wife was singing at the wedding.. Good Event bro.. very creative.. and unforgetable.. After that see my cousin's home. And it's nice.. Not bad.. my cousin just very2 pleasant people.. have a sense for anything.. ;)

Sunday At July, 6
I went to China town, with my others cousin. We searched souvenir, and we buy anything becoz the price is cheap than others places.. ;) We searched in the morning until afternoon, and then i went to flyer flies like mangdu, and then went to daisho at (forget :D).. And then have dinner with my others cousin at cathay pasific.. And going homeee.. becoz we must be prepared for the next day to go to Kuala Lumpur aka Malaysia..

Monday at July, 7
I went to Malay by the bus. The facility of the bus very nice. We paid 89 dollar for PP. And need 6 hour until we arrived at Genting.. We went at 6.45 o'clock and arrived at 1 pm. My uncle searched hotel, and we spend night at First World Hotel, Tower 2, Floor 27, and room 27917, 27822. we walk at the mall Genting, see arround. At night we(i am and my cousin) see the casino at Genting.

Tuesday at July, 8
I went to KLCC, the mall that in there we can see petronas and take any pictures.. KLCC is very Expensive Mall, likes Plaza Indonesia maybe.. I am just see arround and feel so tired, bcoz we cann't find the cheap stuff.. :p And then we gone back to Genting, and at night we see DreamZ Showing like circus, and many dance and also with the mini orchestra.. At very night, we see Outdoor Theme Park.. The Theme park had been closed, but we went into the places quietly. and also take any pictures.. ;)

Wednesday at July, 9 We see arround at Genting, and buy clothes, and hot pants.. and we prepared back to Spore at afternoon. And then at July, 10 i went to Vivocity to going home by ferry to Batam. And vacation is over..

I am really enjoyed my vacation, and also so tired. Because only walk, walk and walk arround.. :)

Thanks to my God for the vacation, i am sorry to my friend maybe i didn't talk to u, or i was not contacted my friends at spore..

For Pictures, see http://picasaweb.google.com/home

Perasaan ini bukan cuma punya saya

Kata-kata itu yang gue pegang untuk saat ini. Ketika gue berbuat salah, dan dimarahin karena bekerja kurang benar. Atau karena ada perasaan tidak nyaman karena tanggung jawab yang terlalu besar.

Ternyata bekerja dan mencari uang sangat melelahkan. At least buat gue... Kadang ada perasaan tidak sanggup untuk menjalani..

Jika perasaan itu datang, gue mencoba melihat pada figur-figur yang gue bisa jadikan contoh. Aku hanya ingin sebaik mereka.

Terkadang dengan kesibukan gue, gue suka lupa untuk melihat ke belakang. Kesekitar gue, banyak hal yang teracuhkan..

Kadang gue kawatir dengan kehidupan yang kumiliki. Bisakah kujalani semuanya dengan baik. Terlalu serius itu mengerikan, terlalu santai pun musibah.. Diantara sekian tuntutan kehidupan, ku berusaha untuk menyeimbangkannya.. Tapi masih belum bisa.. bagaimana ini ?

Tuhan, ajarilah aku supaya adil...

Outing Kantor skalian Bion BNCC

Jadi ini loch acara gue dari tanggal 9-11 Mei 2008.

hari pertama
Tanggal 9 Siang, meninggalkan pekerjaan yang belum selesai T.T gue pergi outing kantor ke Wisma Kinasih Bogor, Sukabumi. Wlopun dengan perasaan yang malez, krn kerjaan blm beres :D, gue naek ke bus K. Yang bkin tamba malez lagi, di bus ga ada orang yang gue kenal baikz.. Hhhh.. Singkat cerita di bus dsuruh buat yel2, trus dipresentasiin malem Jumatnya. WeW.. Kya gene nechh,..
Kami dari Bus K
Datang dari Desa
Sigma.. Sigma.. Jaya

Siang apa Malam
Malam apa Siang
Kerja Kerja terus...

Tiap hari Testing
Kepala jadi pusing
Untung ada outing

Project jalan terus
Badan jadi kurus
Butuh dapat bonus..

bonus.. bonus.. bonus..
Sigma .. Jaya..
Sigma.. Jaya..
Sigmaaaa... Jayaaaa ..
Karena kelompok gue terlalu jujur, gak menang deh.. T.T

Hari ke2
Lomba racing Car, Dibagi jadi 2, yg pertama persiapan sebelum racingnya. Yang ke2 baru lomba racingnya. Serunya yg pertama, qta hrus kreatif ngecatin mobil maen2an ituw, bkin baju racernya, menangin game buat dapet uang, melajarin lokasi pertandingan. Klo serunya yg kedua, ngedorong mobil ngelewatin pos-pos, ada pos yang ngedorong mobil lwatin jalurnya, trus ada yg musti zigzag ngehindarin hambatan, ada yg matanya pendorong harus dtutup, dan ada tanjakan dan turunan. Ditambah lagi racer yg blm biasa jadi racer beneran, kadang belok belok nyetirnya :D, ada yg bannya sampe copot, 'n ashnya patah. Sampe mobilnya diangkat dpannya demi menyelesaikan 3 lap. Ato ada juga yg sampe mobilnya diangkat melayang smuanya biar bisa menang.. Klo gue bilang sih.. norakkk.. :)) hahaha.. tapi itulah permainan..

Nah dah selese itu malemnya qta dikasi makan malam di kebon, yg ada prasmanan n panggungnya. Dsitu tuch dibagi2in doorprize; dari sepeda gunung, printer, speaker home theatre, microwave, dvdplayer, kamera digital sampe notebook acer. WeW . Dari sekian hadiah gue gak dapet 1 pun. T.T.. Lha wong yg dateng 752 orang... walopun gue sering beruntung, tpi kali ini gue masih kalah beruntung sama yg dapet2... :'( ... Di puncak acaranya, qta nerbangin lentera ke langit.. Keren deh.. lentera2nya.. Bkin takjub.. Indah bgt klo ada terang di dalam kegelapan ;) ... Biz acara nerbangin lentera abiz, qta dsuguhin bir angker trus dugem deh orang-orang di kebon.. :D sampe akhirnya dmatiin krn dianggep mengganggu orang skitar.. T.T

Hari ke-3
Baliq lha gue ke jkt. Sampe di Serpong lg jam 11an, dan gue lanjut tuch ke acara bncc di TA. :p

Dateng kesana, ternyata ga ketemu siapa2 awalnya. Karena anak2 pada rame kesana ternyata sabtu kemaren karena ada acara ten 2 five. Sementara minggu tuch ga ada acara apapun. Hikz. akirnya gue mkn siang sendiri di mc d, trus memantau dari lantai 2 klo-klo ada senior yg dtg di lantai 1, dan gue bisa langsung turun. hehehe. Akhirnya sore2 smua pada bermunculan. Ada felisia, yogi, shelsia, vendy, wie2, golam, lieching 'n pcr, adit jg. Yah lumayan lha.. biz capeee ketawa ketiwi,'n berhubung bdan masi capekk biz outing.. trus gue pulang dehhh...

Gtulah critanya, wlopun benernya smuanya ga ada yg special, but so far smuanya cukup mengisi hari2 gue.. Gtooo loch..

BION BNCC VS Outing Kantor

Huaaa... baru sadar... :'(

Outing kantor 9-11 Mei bentrok sama BION BNCC 6-11 Mei ...

Bagaimana ini, bagaimana ini ?

Outing Kantor akan diadakan di Sukabumi, tepatnya di wisma Kinasih. Acara yang diadakan yaitu outbond. Dan kalo ikutan outing akan mendapatkan kaos, jaket dan topi. :) Makanannya katanya prasmanan. Ini merupakan acara kantor yang gak stiap tahun ada, bru kli ini aja sukses acaranya jdi. :D Setelahnya batalnya acara pergi ke Bali.. Gue rasa kantor ga pny cukup budget.. hi3x... (ssttttt...jgn blg2 ^^)..

Sementara BION BNCC adalah Pameran Komputer yang diadakan di Center court Taman Anggrek. Dan biasanya event ini merupakan event tahunan bncc, dimana merupakan kebanggaan pengurus. Sekaligus ajang berkumpulnya senior-senior bncc untuk saling update berita bncc ataupun berita personal org2nya.. Dan biasanya semua terkumpul ramai di puncak acara hari sabtu dan minggu.

Bagaimana ini ? Bagaimana ini ?

Yach.. aku mau ikut 22nya... marukhhh.. :))
Semoga aku bisa ikut kedua event akbar tersebut..
amin.. ;)

Outing Kantor

WeW... Kantor gue bakalan outing tanggal 9,10,11 Mei.. Senangnya hatiiiikuuuu... Mariiii berlibur...

Denger-denger bakal ada 1000 orang peserta outing. WoW mantabbb.. Gak nyangka perusahaan gue besar bangeth ya.. Bakalan dapet banyak kenalan nich.. 999 orang yg akan gue kenal... cihuyyy...

Tapi sebelum berlibur aku masi punya banyak tanggung jawab yang harus diselesaikan.. Ada beberapa kerjaan yg mungkin akan menyita pikiran serta tenaga..

Tapi Aku optimis..

Sepertinya Tuhan tahu bahwa aku sedang mengalami kejenuhan. Oleh sebab itu, makanya setelah tanggung jwab ku selesai aku akan diberi liburan yang mengasikkan.. :)

Jadi interest buat melalui semuanya.. :)

Penyakit Malas Berbicara

duh.. Sepertinya gue kena penyakit malas berbicara nih.. Uda beberapa hari terakhir rasanya gue malas bicara bangeth..

Penyakit yang gue miliki ini gue sadari uda ada sejak gue kuliah. Sejak gue ikut organisasi. Gue itu suka hemat berbicara. Palagi kalo lagi banyak kerjaan, dan mumet dengan berbagai hal. Gue lebih memilih diam daripada harus berbicara.

Karena gue malas berbicara, gue menjadi terkesan orang yang cuek..

Dan saat2 aku malas berbicara, kadang aku lebih suka mendengar dan berbicara untuk guyonan.. Hal yang menyenangkan yaitu mendengarkan seseorang berbicara atau bercerita apapun, dan lebih senang lagi mendengar orang melucu.. :)

Sepertinya aku aga2 mulai merasa jenuh.. Tapi aku harus kuat.. Aku harus keras dengan diri sendiri, agar tidak menjadi orang yang lembek..

Pengorbanan

Title : "Semua Bisa Bilang"
Kalau kau benar-benar sayang padaku
kalau kau benar-benar cinta
tak perlu kau katakan semua itu
cukup tingkah laku..
Sekarang apalah artinya cinta
kalau hanya dibibir saja
cinta itu bukanlah main-mainan
tapi pengorbanan

Reff:
semua bisa bilang sayang
semua bisa bilang
apalah artinya cinta
tanpa kenyataan

Gue baru tadi dengerin lagu itu dari musikus di bus kota.. Humm, aku jadi terharu aja.. Yah, setuju cinta adalah pengorbanan.. Kubayangkan nyokap gue berkorban seumur hidupnya untuk seorang suami dan keluarga seperti ini. Tanpa pengorbanan mungkin saja keluarga ku sudah berantakan..

Bertepatan dengan Hari Raya Paskah, Pengorbanan Tuhan Yesus untuk manusianya yg berdosa.. Tuhan, ijinkanlah aku tidak menjadi orang yang egois.. Ijinkanlah aku bertanggung jawab atas kehidupanku.. Amin.. Selamat hari raya Paskah buat semua yang merayakan..

Finding Soulmate

As a jomblo-ers.. Bergaul menjadi salah satu ajang mencari jodoh, mengisi waktu dan menambah teman dan menambah experience. But, what friends that i get from terlalu banyak bergaul..

I just afraid.. Ketika bergaul dengan seorang yg memiliki istri...
Takut kalo istrinya tau terus ga terima, takut diliat orang terus diomongin. Padahal apa yang salah sih dari menambah teman, berbincang-bincang, dan menghabiskan waktu. without kontak fisik koq...

Ketika bergaul dengan seorang jomblo-ers yang benar-benar bergaul...
Takut kalo gue ga bisa ngimbangin dia, klo ternyata gue kuper. Kalo ternyata gue ga bisa terlihat enjoy dengan cara bergaulnya dia.

Ketika bergaul dengan orang jomblo-ers yang ga pernah pacaran dan kaku, palagi kekanakan..
Takut gak ada bahan pembicaraan, kemudian diam. Pembicaraan basi ke arah-arah membosankan.

Ketika bergaul dengan orang jomblo-ers yang cukup berumur..
Takut banget kalo seluruh gerak-gerik gue dinilai, apakah pantas menjadi seorang istri ato engga. Trus lebih takut lagi, klo dia bilang gue siap memperistri loe. HeHhhhhh.. ?!#&*?!#

I know gue have enough age for marriage. But, i feel DANGER when something or someone come to me so fast.. :D

What's the best for me?? Gotcha.. I got me busy with my career...

Life as choices

Many years ago, I am an easy going girl.. I remembered that it's easy to make choices.. Every choices is good, Every choices have consequences.. That's it that i know..

But the years have pass.. I thinks different.. It's difficult to take choices.. I must take the good choices for every step to my future.. I am very happy when i get a job after 6 months at home.. I am really thanks god when i get 2 job concurrently. Full time and part time. ^^ The one is near my house, although the job doesn't what i expected.. The other one the job that i like, suit with my hobbies.. It's really nice in the first time.. But when i run that double job.. I feel so tired. I am also easy to be sick.. (added with my problem about love.. :( )
I remain to run my life like that.. Becoz i have a target for my future..

Now, i have dillema.. I have a target for my future. But, I really likes my office now. My office like my organization at campus. My office with the challange that given to me.. But, should I sustainable?

Choices...
It's depend on ur target.. Are ur target can be negotiable?..
It's depend on ur age.. Are ur age can wait ?..
It's depend on ur experience.. Are the experiences is enough ?..
It's depend on my family.. When will i make them happy ?..

Only God that can help me.. What life that mate with me ?
I remembered at website http://mtsuperclub.com/. I got article about " The World is Not Fair, But Negotiable" It's good to be read..

Love as usual it's complicated..

Kutipan dari film "My DNA says I Love You!" Tuk some1 yang dicintai, tapi Long Distance Relationship

Betapa beruntungnya, membuatku bisa memiliki semua cinta yang bisa kau berikan..
Tapi aku mengerti, Kau masih ada ambisi yang lebih besar..
Akhirnya kita tetap bertemu di saat yang tidak tepat..
Biarkan aku menyelesaikan penungguan yang mewah ini..
Masa muda pelan-pelan menghilang..
Kenangan yang indah sudah tidak ada rasanya lagi..
Aku rasa cinta yang sesunggunya tetap memerlukan cinta antara tubuh dan jiwa..
Tubuh dan jiwa, bisa merasakan rasanya dan saling menemani..

Menurut gue kata2nya menarik aja.. Love as usual.. It's complicated.. Walopun sama2 sayang, klo harus berjauhan akirnya dalam rentang waktu panjang juga tetap sulit dijalankan.. Tetep perlu pengorbanan..

Dalam kehidupan, there is not only love. There is career where it is make sense to be reached.. Between Love and career, what important do you think ?

Aku tahu rasanya sakit hati

Aku tahu rasanya...
Sungguh..

Kalo gak sakit hati, tentu ga belajar.. (berusaha berpikir positif)..

Begitu sulit mempercayai orang.. Sungguhhh, aku harus berhati-hati memilih seseorang.. Dalam hal percintaan, seharusnya jika ada yang tidak mau jangan dipaksa..

Wanita memang lemah jika dihadapkan dengan cinta.. Tapi seharusnya wanita jangan mau diperdaya karena cinta..

Kegagalan adalah bagian dari kehidupan. Walaupun sebelumnya, aku merasa cocok dari sisi kesamaan keluarga, agama, pendidikan, pola pikir untuk mau maju. Tapi aku malah mengabaikan dirinya, ia yg menjalani kehidupan bersamaku. Aku terlalu optimis dengan waktu berjalan, dia akan membuka diri.. Kenyataanny tidak bgitu, sharusnya aku tahu sifat nya.. Dia ambisius, memikirkan materi, menginginkan pamor, mengharapkan pujian, melihat kesempurnaan dll. Tak apalah sifat manusia spt itu.. Smoga ia mendapatkan wanita yang tepat.

Sementara aku dsini... berusaha menjadi kuat... Jika keluarga ku tidak mendidik aku dengan benar, at least aku bisa belajar bnyk dari kehidupan ini.. Seharusnya aku bersyukur hidupku tak berjalan mulus.

Ungkapan Sayang yang selama ini qta rasakan, tak pernah kusesali.. Aku tahu mencintai tak cukup dengan hanya sayang.. Mungkin kekuranganku adalah aku terlalu banyak memberikan, tanpa menakar apa yang boleh dan tidak boleh.. God.. Thx for the memories...

Semua mimpi, untuk menjalin kehidupan bersama, bisnis bersama, dan doa yang menyertai utk keberhasilan masing2. Pupus sudah. This is the ending story, I thinks.

Regard,
Stefanie

punya pepatah

Saya baru saja mendengar beberapa pepatah dari senior saya di kantor.. Tapi sayang sekali, senior saya ini akan segera pensiun. Alangkah baiknya, jika saya menuliskannya disini dan membagikannya pada teman-teman semua.. Orangnya tua, tapi tetap awet muda. Orangnya bole tua, tapi suka becanda.

Kami berkumpul dan berbincang. Dan tepat hari ini senior saya dipanggil oleh atasan, dan dengan sangat menyesal senior saya ini dipensiunkan. Dengan kata pembuka Sigma sudah diakusisi oleh telkom, dan perombakan struktur sudah terjadi dan karena aturan yang ada juga harus dijalankan, dengan menyesal bapak dipensiunkan. Yah..birokrasi.. Karyawan harus tetap dipensiunkan pada umur 55 tahun.

Ia telah bekerja di Sigma hampir 4 thn. Dan selama 4 tahun itu pula ia dikontrak 4x.. Pada umumnya, karyawan dikontrak 2thn, dan kemudian diangkat menjadi karyawan tetap. Tapi ketika 2 thn ia bekerja, atasannya ingin mengangkatnya sebagai pegawai tetap. Atasannya berkata "Lagunya bgini... - bilang saja OKEee - " Namun apa boleh buat atasannya atasan bilang Not OK "Jadinya lagu matta band - Kamuuu ketuaaan - " Akhirnya sang senior saya ini masi kerja di perusahaan saya, dan dipindahkan bagian. Yah lagi2 birokrasi, perusahaan hanya bisa mengontrak pegawai selama 2 tahun, shingga setelah itu ia dipindahkan dalam perusahaan berbeda tapi masi dalam grup yang sama. Karena kondisi kontrak tersebut, senior saya ini tidak mendapat uang pensiun. Karena uang pensiun diberikan hanya kepada karyawan tetap.

Sblmnya, senior berkata seperti ini,
Banyak membaca membuat kita semakin pintar. Banyak praktek membuat kita semakin bijaksana...

Melihat itu baik. Lebih baik daripada mendengar 100x. Tapi masih ada yang lebih baik, Mencoba lebih baik daripada melihat 100x.

So Keep trying..'n Learning by Doing..

Alvin and Chipmunks

hiks... i have been typing, and all is deleted unicidentally... >.<

Alvin and Chipmunks the movie is showed at jakarta. But It's showed on January. It's late because the movie tell about christmas.. My friend at singapore have been watching at last december.

After all, I likes the movie. It's entertain enough. I like simon, he is so lovely n mellow. it's cute when he had a nightmare, n he ask dave to sleep behind dave. And theodore, he is cute with santa's glasses.. And Alvin, he is genious, but difficult to talk that he love dave.. ^^

I want the dvd from alvin :D

January 2008

I thinks this january lasted so long time.. Maybe because of i didn't know how to take the time. I am waiting for my salary this month.. ^^ Since i had the salary last month so quick than it's should be.. Now, i am really2 waiting for.. ;)

I am thinking so much now. About my dream, aboouuut aallll i waannt.. I want that becomes true so quickly. I hope that God will guide my footprints.. Not only for what i will do, but also my healthy to support my will..

I really2 want an higher living.. for me, my life n my family.. I am afraid what'll be happen at the next day. When everything'll not be so easy, i guessed..

I think i need to enjoy my time. But i feel it's not the time. It's time for career, 'n money, 'n my battle to get love..

Because of that, i think that i cann't run my life so easily, and to be enjoyed. Sometimes i feel it's not me. I am so ambisious.. Where does me when i dont think anything about tommorow ? When i can be so playful with my friends.. I want her back..(sometimes)

regard, Stefanie

Organization Structure

Eniwe, we have entry at the year of two thousand and eight.. Have a greeeeaaaattt life in this year frennn..

for my friend that resign from his office, wish u get the best job at 2008.. :)

Talk about my office, my bos talked to me about Organization Structure. She said that at my office, the organization structure always changed. She had count, that my office ever have turnover organization structure frequently until seven change. How come ? :d But, she said that it didn't influence with the job. So she talk to me that i don't need surprise that 2008 will be organization structure changes. Because, it doesn't effect with the job.. Load the job still as big as before..

But before that, i hope that my company will be succeed.. The purpose for organization structure changes must be for better condition.. I hope that my boss is the best boss.. The boss that will lead us, 'n make the best quality for the product.. :)

Is it easy to change my office ?? The answer is not easy.. Change the way of people's work is harder than change the structure.. It's need a time for adaption, for changes the way of thinking, and many others..

It's happen to with my last organization too. When, the structure changes every year, the name of sub division changes too, the name of event changes too.. But something that important, the member of organization is different too. They changes the situation, the structure, the sub division, the event with their analyses with problem 'n the solution. People changes, so the structure changes. i think it's normal that i have at my office. Same people changes the structure repeatly.

But i only can pray for the best vision, n mission, and others ^^