Kata2 mario teguh sungguh mengena.
"Beranikanlah dirimu.. Bahkan seringlah gagal, Asal engkau lebih sering bangkit lagi.. Kesediaan untuk memulai lagi Tanpa penurunan semangat Adalah penanda tinggi imanmu." Kata2 sering2lah gagal mungkin itu adalah yg terberat. Tidak mudah untuk menerima kegagalan, apalagi sering. Membayangkan ny saja sudah berat, tp mario teguh asal bangkit lagi. Tidak apa menjadi gagal, asal bangkin lagi. Jgn biarkan dirimu terlelap dalam kegagalan. Sebisa mungkin justru jika saat memulai tidak ada lagi penurunan semangat. Itu berarti imanmu tinggi. Imanku tidak cukup tinggi, bahkan kepasrahan ku dan kepercayaan ku pada tuhan tidak cukup besar sehingga dsaat aku gagal aku slalu butuh wKtu lama untuk bangkit kembali. Tuhan aku mungkin skrg brada dalam kegagalan krn aku mrasa dalam persimpangan pekerjaan yg mnrt currently tdk membuatku cukup comfortable dsana.. Tp aku tahu aku hanyalah berada di persimpangan sub div, dmn antar subdiv mungkin memiliki perbedaan scr kepentingan.. Tp ajarku untuk menjadi lebih kuat lagi untuk bisa lebih baik scr personal, bukan untuk menjadi employee yg lebih baik. Ajarilah aku untuk tidak putus asa untuk mencapai cita2 dan harapan yang kuinginkan. Semoga tuhan slalu ada besertaku dan kluarga. Terima kasih untuk mario teguh dan semua motivator, smoga kalian slalu ada untuk membawa kemajuan bagi2 setiap manusia di dunia to become better person. Krn perubahan adalah sesuatu yg konstan, perubahan mjd lebih baik!!!!

20 Januari 2011

I almost send my resignation letter this morning, since i was so depressed today. But fortunately i can passed this morning time.
Actually they are not so bad. They are really kind of person. Maybe just situation that make them need to take responsible like that.
Somehow i so owe with them, with Mandy. How come they can be cheerful, although they have problem about work each others. I know mandy is really kind person, i like her so much. Actually although Jolene become unpleasant people when do verify, but i know she still warm to me. And also Shiau Ling, the one that very worst to report many thing bugs. I know it is not easy become her, because she need to be responsible to all the operation things. I am sorry, i am become very quiet lately. Actually i was very depressed if they still found issue that sometimes me and programmer doesn't what cause it and how to fixed it.
I am happy to become portal team. Although i know maybe somehow my team is not really serious to take schedule, Everything always finish lately. I still like u all. Sharin, that funny guys, and always relax. But actually become serious it is not good too. Somehow i always have many thing to be worried, make me older that i should be. Josh, our consultant that always have something to do, and sometime makes others always have something to be done. But i know, he just kind person that always make me remember about God. I need to thanks to both of them because actually they try to make cheerful if i was been have bad feeling, especially depression because operation thing.
Thank to developer that always do develop and fixed the bugs, actually it is not easy become them. Because they have many thing to do. But i see them still have spirit. Cia Yoooo :)
I love my company currently although i have stress on it. I like u all, at least i am thankful to god because i always go to office that there is political issues. All is my friends :)
And also my home mate, i am sorry. This week i am become very quiet. I just need time for myself. Although somehow i hate u all, but i know all of you hate me too. Somehow i always make u unhappy too.