Tired of this life..
Yesterday i just came back to Jakarta, meet my father because of he like to message me and when i called him, my mother said he is crying. On that day, i immediately check the flight and decided to buy then come back to Jakarta, take time with him. Actually i feel he changes the way he talk more sarkasm. But i feel sad when i see him difficult to walk because his bulge on the foot and the way he cough each time. He just finished his operation take polip from his nose. Then perhaps it caused he cant enjoy his food, he said all the food is not nice and he feel want to vomit. But then he said like he feel want to die, because he can not enjoy the food, and probably life also. We are spending time together go to puncak, to Romo Yohanes church at Cikanyere and talk at the car along that day.
Then after i come back to Singapore again, i am still thinking about my father. It seems he still money oriented, and also ambitious. After he went to Surabaya and meet my uncle, he seems become delirious. He still want to build business, then look for money since my uncle is very rich man. My uncle ask my father to live there, and my father also want but he still think about many thing at jakarta. His asset at jakarta, his grandchild, etc.
But the thing that i don't like about him is
1. His age has reached almost 70 probably, but he still want to get many thing. Why he doesn't thankful for what they have.
2. He assumed he is smart, a lot of his time used for read newspaper and watch the news, and also he was MAFIA (mathematics, physic, chemistry) teacher, then he has experiences to learn philosophy, and has experience as chairman at church environment, and also chairman for home environment and he has experience also as businessman. That why he feel he know about everything, but i don't know he is success or not to do all. Because for me, how smart he is but the family cannot know the essence of all that he done. Probably he just look for the respect from other people that he can not get from home. Since my mother maybe got big respect from the family. Ok, enw that political at home :D
The other thing that make me tired also
1. My friend at home, she is very kind and also can not be quiet. Since she lost his ex boy friend, it seem she always make her busier. Yesterday, i hear that she sometimes still remember him and sometimes she just crying although when she is walking. But ya, she always sleep late til night cooking, or walk at night, or else.
2. My friend that wanna marry this October, she feel a bit depressed that his fiance a bit late to think anything. She feel do anything by herself. Although i don't want become to interfere her marriage preparation too much. But if i have time sometime help a little thing.
3. My stuff, preparation to go Europe it seems very difficult for me. There is many pressure, problem and anything that come from family, money, time and myself. But i hope i can manage all to get what i want.
Beside all that tired thing, but thankful is needed. I spend time together with him at Jakarta, take a look new mall Gandaria City and Mall Living World. That both mall is new, and its big. But the food has adapted with mix Singaporean food and also Indonesian food. I just realized that Indonesia is modern city, i feel unbalanced when i go to inside mall and come out to the road. o ya, enw thank you for pick me up and accompany me walk at jakarta. :)