Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Ragu & Takut..

Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Bimbing aku..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Kuatkan aku..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Buat aku Tegar..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Jadikan aku sesuai Rencana-Mu..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Tetaplah di sampingku..

Bunda, aku lemah..
Bunda, aku bodoh..
Bunda, aku pesimis..
Bunda, aku tak bersemangat..
Bunda, aku hanya memikirkan kesenangan..
Bundaaa, Ajari Aku menjadi kuat menjalani hari-hari besok ku hingga deadline itu tiba..

Aminnn..
kupercaya, ku akan kuat..
kupercaya, ku akan bisa..
kupercaya, ku akan mampu..
kupercaya, ku akan sanggup..
ber-juang dengan lelahku, usahaku, niatku, dan doa..

Ajariku berdoa..

Sunday, February 07, 2010

Busy & some thinking..

My weekend so tired.. Saturday i went to cathay at Orcard watching hachiko, and then look around at Orchard with Juli. Juli buy something for souvenir, and i buy 2 flat shoes..:P Hope the shoes make me comfortable on singapore.. A lot of walking.. :p And then, after that i was going to swimming with many stuff that will be saved on locker. I like spore very much, because when i go to swimming pool. All registered by marchine... You can only insert the money to come to swimming pool. Yesterday is so tired..

At Sunday, Today i went to St Theresa Church with Reynard, my cousin. And then eat lunch, and continue with watching 14 blades at golden village Vivocity. Thank you Re.. :) And see Julius at St John Church, i went to church for second ^^ And then i went to take dinner and walk arround at china town, to see many things.. It's fun but so tired, my foot so "pegal".. Dun't find the exactly word.. :P

And i dont know... Sometimes, i am thinking that i am so busy with walking arround, don't concentrate with my job. I am so afraid, that i cann't survive for the probation. Really feel scary, because my boss somehow don't really care with me.. I feel that my language suppose to be increased fast.. but HOW ? Talk to me.. HOW HOW HOW.. i try to listening with watching movie at cinema / television. But somehow, only that is not enough.. aAaaaaa, i must have a big of bravery.. Please give that spirit, holy mary..

Don't let this opportunity become useless.. *keep praying*

Tuesday, February 02, 2010

Let's pray.. :)

Doa Santa Maria in English
Hail Mary, full of grace,
our Lord is with thee,
blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, mother of God,
pray for us sinners, now, and in
the hour of our death.
Amen.

Doa Bapa Kami in English
Our Father, who art in Heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come, Thy Will be done,
On Earth, as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
[For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever and ever.]
Amen.
Hope i can pray with english.. :)

My Transformation is more exactly than Revolution

Big Thanks to My God, Jesus and My Holy Mary..

I really thanksful that my prayer is accepted.. I can go work to singapore.. I have been pray from more than one year ago. Althought i almost forget with my dream, but in the end how luckily i get what i dream for.. I believe that what i ask to god, god will answer slowly or fast..

My Transformation happened on december 2009, and become reality on January 2010.. What is my purpose to be here ?

Singapore, in this country i want to breath clearly than my office and my country..
Singapore, in this country i try to make my parent proud..
Singapore, in this country i learn to be independent again after 2 years..
Singapore, in this country i will learn an english.. although maybe it can be singlish.. :P
Singapore, in this country i want to earn money more than indo..
Singapore, in this country i hope to find boyfriends and making relationship, maybe also makeing family

It starts from hope , maybe need some effort , a lot of praying... but i frequently absent.. >.<
but hope is hope..
Effort is talk a lot in english, be confident, hardworker, adaptation, learn to sharing, socialization at my home..
pray is pray, to be active to the church.. :p

Holy Mary, bless me..
God, bless me..
and also my Family, Thank a lot to my parent, brother, sister, om siang & family, Tante ani & Family, Davin & Family, Tante me & Family, and the best support from my grand mother, Oma.. :)