H2C VS Berusaha tetap berguna

H2C alias harap-harap cemas menunggu kerjaan diterima atau tidak. Sambil tetap fight on utk tetep jadi orang berguna..

cia ela.. stlh dalam masa bimbang menerima atau tidak pekerjaan itu. akirnya dptuskan jg utk naik banding.. alias minta nego gaji lebih tinggi dan scukupnya ^^ Sambil menunggu wktu, dari blm bisa terima klo ga kterima sampe akirnya skrg cukup pasrah 'n bpikir positif.. Kalo kerja, yang 1 untung tpi yg lain buntung buat apa yaa ?? ..

Sekarang ini gue yaaa.. mayan dah melakukan hal2 berguna kembali. Sambil kuinstal kembali xampp (thx fan, ini installer oks bgt^^), trus instalasi flash, n dreamweaver(stlh chat ma feli, n dia kasi masukan ttg web gua.. thx fel^^), steven(yg mau minta tolong bantuin coding php dia, tpi gak jadi^^), dan jati (yg gue paksa ajarin gue joomla^^).. Akirnya karena itu semua kubuka kembali dreamweaver, kuliat kembali file-file php.. Yah wlo perubahannya blm bnyk, at least niatnya ada.. Nanti aku mau ubah bgian portfolio web ku jadi php.. doakan semoga berhasil.. Dan tunggu ya hasil karyanya^^

Dan kmdn skrg gue utak atik headset + mic gue yg dlu gue titip beli ma fany. Fan, stlh gue format komputer gue beberapa wktu lalu 'n gue dpet sumbangan vga card dr tmn gua, skrg gue tes headsetnya jalan booo.. sueneng guaa... trus critanya gue langsung tanya ma tmen gue yg sering call by computer ke istrinya yg s2 di jepang.. Dia ceritain klo di yahoo tuh ada 2 jenis, ada call pc to pc, dan ada call pc to phone number. Kalo menurut dia sih yahoo itu kualitasnya call pc to phone number itu standar tapi murah. Sedangkan untuk skype bagus tapi mahal. Dan gtalk katanya bagus jga. Kalo pc to pc sih menurut dia gak pake biaya. Dah seharusnya pake benwit, tpi berhubung dia pake warnet, ya ga urus lha ya masalah benwit :D. Untuk call pc to phone number ktnya byrnya pake dollar, dan bisa menggunakan kartu kredit. Untuk link lebih jelasnya bisa liat di voice.yahoo.com.

Yah bgitulah sharing2nya, lgi penasaran niii mau call pc to pc.. Ayooo sapa yang mau temenin ?? tpi benwit ku tipis.. >.< uda tgl 30 agustus.. sisa 10 mega doank kali.. huaaa :((

Dear God, and our Mother (Virgin Mary)

Thanks you so much for our mother, because you hear my prayer and God answer my prayer.

I am really-really happy when i know that the course center calling me today. And suprisingly, call me for attending to their place in this day too. i thank to you God, and mother.

And i attend the interview that i hoped as last interview. I really afraid to talk about salary, i afraid that doesn't suit with my expectation.

The reality happen. I don't know what must i do? I really thank to god. But the salary is really-really different with my expectation.

Life maybe always like that. Something cann't happen with perfectly. The salary is good, but i reject it. When i like the job, the salary is not enough.

God, please teach me more n more...lead my way... With ur guidance, i hope that i doesn't take the wrong way.

Thanks to u lord..

Best Regard

Stefanie

Anger

Yesterday, i have been watching The Simpson Movies since maybe 3 weeks the movie show premiered. Did you remember about Marge Simpson say to Lisa, when lisa feel angry. Lisa say Dad, u're sucking..blabablabla.. and then Merge say, (less more like this) Lisa, u must handle ur angrier, bcoz u are woman. U should have tolerance. If i am not wrong, maybe when lisa know that her father (bart) who makes the polution for springfield.

Eniwei, i want to talk about anger. I feel anger with some1. Somehow, maybe i am sensitive lately for personal reason(maybe u know, maybe u don't know). And then he talk about that personal reason with his sweet speechs.. And then he talk about a girl beside him with praise her, how seduce she is.. hiyekz.. i hate a man.. I dunno but i think i hate a man like that. He cann't treat a woman like a ladies. He is jerk. Only see a woman like a nothing.. He is sucking!!!!! I feel mad again... huh huh huh.. he say about that i'll make him poor, or i'll make him died, and others..

okay, okay.. i think margie simpson is a patient woman with bart as a husband. i cann't think how patient or how tolerate she is, with all have done by bart.. so stupid.. and he say, he never think..ha3x...

I think enough. i am not interest with this article. It's trash..

Internet for woman

I like that title.
A long time ago, internet only used by military people, then IT professional. But nowadays i think woman can also use internet.

Woman, as a mom sometimes known as homemaker. They live at home, and take care children, take care husband, make food for small family. Especially at Indonesia, many homemaker spend their time together and talk about their surrounding, start by child, food, husband, housemaid, and then neighbour, artist, and finally becomes gossip.

But that's traditional woman, now modern woman have know about technology. They know about internet, and blog (special thx for blog, that make some mother easy to share their idea), and google.

And for personal reason, i really happy becoz when i like to cook ( i still newbie) i only open google, and then search. There will be show me a lot of list. There are many blog about homemaker, and they share their recipe for making food. It is very helpful for me. And now, i think that cooking is not difficult. Because the recipe only bawang putih n bawang merah, daun bawang. And beside that in supermarket there is a lot of instant flavour; like saos tiram, saos teriyaki, santan kara, and others. so, it's not difficult for me to cooking..ho3x.. and eating.. ha3x... i like eat...

Ok ok.. Cooking is woman task. Woman must think how to makes "dapur tetap ngebull" he3x... For woman at world, let makes a community for woman.. only woman, without man. ho3x...

This article need a long time for writing. Please enjoy, and i hope that u understand.. I am sorry if the sentences make u confuse... Please tell me if i am wrong.. and dunt forget to comment.. ho3x..

Angin duduk

Again.. Tahun ini.. Saya menerima berita tidak baik lagi. Cowonya tman saya meninggal tiba2 beberapa bulan sblm pernikahannya.. dteng2 ke rmh duka.. Slidik pny slidik, akhirnya tersingkat cerita sebenernya... Cerita nya.. Yang meninggal ini ditemukan di kamar mandi kost nya, dan diangkat bersama-sama anak kost ke graha medika. Dan disana, di rs print-printannya jantungnya uda strip.. Dan gue bertanya? Coba di kasi alat pengejut gak ? Katanya ce nya, gak diijinan ma dokternya, karena orangnya uda pergi. Kalo dilakukan sperti itu justru membuat orangnya yg pergi ga tenang... Kejadian mandinya skitar jam 6an, dan dikabarin tentang meninggalknya jam 10an mlem.

Ditanya tentang penyakit yang dimiliki.. katanya punya penyakit ginjal, dan hipertensi dari februarian.. terusss.. pas meninggal itu badannya kaya masuk angin.. meriang2 gtu, tapi dipaksain mandi.. Dan kemungkinan jatoh di kamar mandi.. gtulah critanya

H+1 stelah dari rumah duka, gue ngobrol ma co nya dvi. Katanya penyakit itu namanya angin duduk.. istilah apa ituuuh..he3x.. Ktanya itu angin jahat. Dan kalo gtu, badannya gak bole dikerokin ato dipijetin karena itu ga bisa membuat anginnya keluar. Tapi justru anginnya tetap di dalam dan akan kena ke tulang(spt gejala meriang) yg bisa membuat jatuh, dan dapat menekan ke jantung sehingga jantung berhenti berfungsi.. Dan angin itu biasanya masuk lewat tengkuk.. ini penjelasan spiritualnya kali yee..

H+2 gue balik ke rmh, dan nyokap tanya-tanya ini itu kenapa bisa meninggal.. penjelasan blablabla + terus gue bilang katanya tmn klo gtu kena angin duduk.. hmm... klo nyokap gue bilang sih itu karena penyakitnya dia hipertensi itu. Pasti pada saat itu hipertensi nya lagi tinggi, karena tinggi bkin badannya jadi meriang. Dan biasanya klo hipertensi uda komplikasi ya gtu, bisa meninggal kapan ajah.. hiii ngeri.. trus nyokap gue tanya, sakit nya emang dr kapan?? (nahh itu mana gue tauuu^^) Ternyata yaa bgitulah hidup, yg bkin lebih nyesek nya lagi.. Tmen gue ini (tmen kost pertama gue yg ga gtu dket) uda mau married januari thn dpan.. huu >.< Bkin aku jdi sedih saja..

Tadi pagi ke gereja uda ada pengumumannya.. "Telah meninggal calon suami bernama Ignatius Handy dst dst.. " Yah akhir kata dari saya semoga diterima disisi bapa..

Tahun ini mungkin tahun yang berat, beberapa kali saya mendengar beberapa teman ada yang sakit demam berdarah, gejala tipes, bahkan ada yg meninggal karena demam berdarah. Yah mendengar beberapa ceritanya, sebagian dari orang-orang seumuran gue agak mencuekan kondisi diri sendiri seperti sakit panas dianggap biasa, tdk enak bdan dianggap masuk angin, sehingga mereka berpkir untuk beristirahat sajah.. Atau menyuekan seakan itu hal sepele.. Yah mungkin sebaiknya dari muda, kita harus suda mulai memperhatikan kesehatan agar umur kita panjangg.. ya ya ya? stuju gak ?? gue aja menyesal gue uda sakit maag. masi muda bgini jg.. Mari kita menghindari penyakit2 kronis spt maag, hipertensi, diabetes, dst dst n dst..

BLANK.. BLANK.. BLANK..

I am blank.. My Brain is blank.. sometimes my brain is loss..

I am on Stupidity..

WeW.. This is tragedy..

i watched my boss my hero..peran cowonya ituh cuma bisa mikir 90 detik.. Kenapa kadang gue mulai merasa begitu ya..

Sometimes gue bisa begitu WoW cemerlang, sometimes gue terlihat stupid, sometimes terlihat bosan. I am just like kids, trutama juan.

Kemaren baru gue ajarin dia belajar nulis huruf, baru beberapa huruf udah gak mau lagi, terus suruh nulis namanya sendiri 10x baru 5x uda berenti. Terus bis itu gue tebakin penjumlahan baru 3 pertanyaan dah gak mau jawab.. wleh wleh..

Terus tadi gue bru interview ke 2 at somewhere, dan gue coba jelasin menjadi beberapa part.. part 1 Company profile + discussion part 2 Praktek part 3 Interview singkat

Part 1, Awal2 menarik dan akir2 mulai merasa bosan, gak bgitu fokus lagi dengan materi. Part 2, Merasa fun. Part 3, I have no spirit.

And in part 3, the interviewer ask me.. are you still interest with this job ? "yes." how about part 2 ? "saya rasa biasa-biasa saja" Why are you feel nervous ? Are you likes this every interview ? "maybe.."

Ho3x... i thinks in this part, i cannot think clearly.. I am just dunno what must i talk. Its likes she want me to speak a lot. But i am not have a spirit. I think, this is part very difficult for me. To know about my feeling, to describe how i feel. I think doing something itu biasa2 saja, dan don't doing something it's boring.
KESIMPULAN : apakah ini plegmatis?, lebih suka jadi penonton. Dan kurang suka berdiskusi ber2 apalagi dalam situasi serius..

Terus gue jadi inget dlu anak bncc suka bilang "i, lo koq suka ngelamun.." gue rasa-rasa bener jga.. klo lagi ada presentasi org gtu ya.. gue paling sering deh ngelamun gak konsen.. my brain is loss, my brain is blank.. >.<

Why ?

Dan ada jga yg marah2 ma gue, krn gue ini berpkir pendek gak berpkir panjang. Klo misalnya nih qta mkir bareng2... Trus 2 step gue masi bisa nyamain, eh step step berikutnya dia yg mkir. gue uda gak konsen..

Why ?

I thinks that why i becomes nothing.. huuu :'(

What the hell is the solution ? Can u help me to focus, focus, 'n focus ?

i think my friends who can make me focus about my life.. bcoz they always ask me.. How's ur life? How's ur job ? I luv all my fren. Maybe i was already dead without you.. huuu :'(