Apartemen Gading Nias Emerald

View : Pool

Main Room Pool View - Second Room - 1 Bath Room 

Disewakan Apartemen dengan 2 kamar daerah Gading Nias Emerald.(Semi Furnished)

Luas : 35
Kamar Tidur : 1
Kamar Mandi : 1
View : Kolam Renang
Lantai rendah : Lantai 3

Fasilitas : 
- Kolam Renang
- Parkir Mobil  / Motor
- Antar Jemput Airport dari Mall Kelapa Gading
- Wisata Kuliner
- Dekat sekolahYakobus
- Dekat access ke Mall Kelapa Gading
- Dekat LRT

Disewakan : 3 bulanan, 6 bulanan, 1 tahun.

Semi Furnished 
- Pantry & Meja
- Lemari - 3 buat
- AC kamar utama
- Hexos Fan

CP :083813517998 - Stefanie

Pantry

Ruang Tamu 

Life likes a shit

Yes, truely life likes a shit! We have a sin in the world, because of that sin we should work cant have a holiday. If you have a holiday you should work twice harder or your future will become worst.

In the world somehow you cant become good people, if you become good people the other live and you don't live. But in good way, if we become good, so we expect when we are in difficult way they will help us.

Life is cruel. Everybody look for money one and another. That's crazy. Who mean or can eat other's money can stay longer that the others that like to give. A bit sad to realize that!

Human is worker, what they need learn learn learn & work work work & becomes old. Aaahhh sadddd!!!  What should i do?:'( I am afraid to be old & wishes to going to die.. Hiks hiks hiks..
The exam of life more difficult. Mature but still galaw! What will be!!!

errrr

I love writing so much.

I am really a cool person. This is already advised previously that it is not so good, but i think it's a character that never been easy to be changed.

Same like, i don't like reading. I like to hear people talking then reading information by myself. But that's make my vocabulary and structure of my english is not good enough.

I am at the intersection Singapore or Jakarta. Spend money or waste money. Security country or unsecure company. ahhh. Life is complicated as usual.

No matter where your heart want to lead you. There will hands that try to hold you back. Life's challange is to find the strength to break free.

-That sentences is true. But in time, i understand when you fail then you will come back to your family. Same story with Lost child from the bible.

God, lead me

Hi God,

I understand that life is never easy. But everything happen insistently make me demotivation.
God, lead my way. Make me stronger again and again.

I hate me. a lot of crying caused of family, they expect me so much. But somehow that really make me sad. I should be strong god. Wish i can reversing all this thing. I trust into God.

Everything can be happen just never lost hopes.

Thank you god.
your humble servant.

Seem everybody treat me as mature person

hmm.. Long paused after 3 month.

Especially when i cameback from Hongkong, everybody seems treat me as mature woman. Am i mature enough ? :D

And more than that after i comeback from jakarta then go to semarang, attending my friend's wedding then go to surabaya meet by brother and family there. Seems everything a bit untidy. My father ask me to go surabaya, then i go to surabaya then my uncle seem say don't need to hear my father. I cry after that seems life is very funny. Maybe it's true that there is no right and wrong in this life. And everybody try to influence me, or maybe because i able to listen everybody until make me very confusie.. ahahaha... I have a conclusion, i think when you become very kind to any person, then the other person will be kind also to you.

Then another problem in family. Could i say i hate my family very much? Whyyy, what is the function as a mother, yahhh but at least what i able to say.. mother is a mother, mother also human. My mother maybe very soft, so when the kids grow up become a mature person, she cannot become friend to be argued, or to be exampled. She just become very stubborn with my dad, but very kind with the children. That's might be a different pattern of learner from my mother with the others.

This is critical time for everybody that changed from in relationship to become mature person. Lucky me no need to pass the time like my sister and my brother. Thanks God.

Another wishes for this x-mas year, wish i able to find suitable job here. Since i'm too picky..

What is God's plan

God, what is your plan ? Until now i never know what is your plan for me?

I 'm very thankful although i don't have any job currently, but i still have a boyfriend. :)

Although it has been difficult for me to accept it. But i still try to accept this as my challange. And i am enjoying my free time, so i will able to learn and improve my english and mandarin skill.

I just realized for past 1 year, i had not learn very much. I play very hard. :p 

Until now suddenly i realize that i need to be more serious run my life ? whatzzzz, i tot i am too serious run my life :D ok, that mean i should be relax. But if i am too relax they said i'm too relax.. How come ? so which one is correct ? #headache my mind think about that.

Human's journey seems very interesting.  How come there is character of person like me, i can not imagine and understand myself. But now my goal to make my parent happy is almost there, but it is not fully archived. Because i still need to look for new job at singapore, and walk on long distance relationship. Yes, Love is not selfish. I hope i able to survive run through this journey.

so far i have two interview until today. The first one seems the environment more to Indian people, i just does not feel confident with that kind of environment. The second is very formal, i have not reach that kind of level. Although i really hope about working to that company, but i don't feel enough confident to work there. But still wish it, and lets god decide for me. Because i trust that we try our best, but who decide still them as interviewer and god that always give the best for us. 

*How come i am so religious today :D

ok, i'm preparing my holiday. Although there are invitation to come into melbourne by emmy, and to East coast by Joy. But how come still not so easy to decide for going to Melbourne. Am i so mean ? :D

I still need to make my parent happier by planning buy a new apartment in singapore. It seem very hard for me since of course it is not easy. Huwaaaa, why i need to take this challange... T.T

why i am so independent ? and love to be in painful T.T

Presence of God

Seems like God bring me to many of thinking lately...

I feel mine very clear. Yesterday after i run through all my problem from january til july 2012.

I feel very depressed around 2 weeks ago, after my friends husband suddenly passed away. Even God take his life without thinking that she should take care her 6 months baby by herself. I feel all heaviness and on that time that you can do just became surrender.

I realize about the law cause of cause and effect in my office nowadays. Since i almost 3 year in my company. First year, i was very good until 1 year later i didn't satisfied with my raise salary, But my boss' become greedy, and my team become lazy to work and it cause one and another unhappy work with the other, and blaming each other for everything that wrong. What i got this year :
1. My programmer eyes pain.
2. One ops resign on January 
3. The other my ops friend got accident, and got many sickness and around 1-2 month didn't come to office.  
4. My programmer resign from the company
5. My friend's husband passed away

I really want to resign from my company, i feel very depressed with my work load and doesn't satisfied with my programmer didn't fixed the bugs. And then realize later my boss always tell that this application is not so good, and ask me to dig the others. Later on everything is not so good no system, everything become unclear. And all the thing my boss do all that lonely, and he become cannot remind anything.

oh god, the law of cause and effect i feel it very fast here.

After i play badminton, i feel i can see everything clearly, and after learn Chinese i can hear clearly.
I can feel my work become better.

When i feel depressed, i look for to my surrounding and i feel it that many people have their own problem, but when i take a look somebody that older and singaporean they have problem more heavy. And i'm become very sad, cannot help anything til i told my friend. Until i told to my friends, and my friend said what is the continuation. O ya, that time i just can be silent. I should look for money to help people surround me.

Until i go to the Langkawi yesterday, i feel very free. Nature is very simple, it never expect you many thing. I feel presence of God here. :)
Some might say that my boss is perfectionism, you should realize everything that created by human is not perfect.

And too bad my family got the impact, my madness :)) And now i really want to make them happy... 
First year in spore i work hard to perform in office
Second year in spore i work hard to be slim
Third year in spore i'm should learning Chinese

If you stay in the city. It will not never fair, city is created by human. If you look for fairness take a look to the nature, or inside to your self, and God. And you need to find another part of your soulmate to complete you.. Suddenly very narcism i can say this one. :p

Again, we should love our job, but never trust your bosses. Because they also a human!!
Just trust ur god, and please lead me god..

new me^^

Hi,

Thanks God. For happiness you gave to me. A light for me on this year, after many failure now i can accept all, and improve me a lot.

Thank for anybody that there for me. Now i'm really thankful for all that i have,
1.  Break up from my routine activity.
My high effort to break up my routine activity with my flatmate friends. I usually busy with them for saturday and sunday, and busy to meet the other friend that visit singapore. Now i try to do not care about it, and try to focus with my life.  Forget a moment about kindness, because somehow future more important for me now.
2. Difficulty in English
My company friends already tired with my english skill is not getting improve. But dont not why hope to learn Chinese its really make my english become better. This is like miracle when i realize that my english is improved. Previously i always think that i try to translate from my brain, but now the way i speak i dont need translate anymore. Its like magic!
3. Learn Chinese
I decide to learn chinese, because i really want to understand chinese so can speak chinese with my company friends.
4. Relationship with office friends
 Now i really feel closed with office friend. This is really friendship. But dunno this is become better or not. How come company is like friendship. Cant imagine !! still blur....  That's awesome that i can have a real singaporean and malaysia friends. Its really real friendship. Thanks God! Hope this is make me want to stay at singapore.:)
5. Open mind to learn about God more.
Dunno why, i can join the lesson that requested from my boss related about god. I'm still doing it.

Thanks God for the oppurtunity. Now  i hope i can improve myself become better and better.
1. Know god better
2. Learn chinese better
3. Work improve
4. Management Time and Priority and  Focus!

I enjoy my day !

I'm enjoying my day this week :)

Thank you for everybody that doesn't disturb me, After last week very unhappy with busyness.

Last week like a hell.
First day, just got a long discussion with boss since he just left for church camp 1 week.
Second day, Got mad cause of taking lunch's time longer, and i cant answer the question. the boss can only say "You're not kids right. You are adult" After that look for happiness by watching MIB 3. Feels good after that.
Third day, After working hour should went to take chinese course, join my friends cause of the she couldn't join next saturday then cancelled ladies night at kudeta with the girls. :p then caused they didnt go there and ansein play at home and chit and chat til night..
Fourth day, After working hour should go to take Badminton games.
Fifth day, friday came back home and gather with the girls for packing package that would be shared at anton's birthday for the day after.
Saturday, Vebri's flight in the morning. She wake up in the morning make me cant sleep anymore. and i did my ioning and then take chinese course then go to orchard, went to ikoma, then go to office take some stuff, then continue ioning then went to bishan's park celebrating anton's bday. Then after that continue to Davin's places and meet them until sunday night come back home. :)

This monday, i sleep early and a bit dissapointed bcause him didnt bring hardisk for me. But today tuesday i'm very happy to have my private thing :) i already can accepted why i failed for PR. So i really thankful for today.

Aku adalah boneka hidup thn 2012

heiii...

I'm a alive doll this year.. Thanks and also i want to say a shit politely for everybody that control me..
My mother, that want me apply PR.. After rejected, she just say nevermind, next year can try to apply again.
My grandma, that didnt allow me to resign. Politely seem want to say, how your family live if you didnt work!!
My boyfriend, i'm busy with my business start up company. My focus this year on it.
My boss, my favorite programmer resign.. Heii you please learn become programmer!!

Thanks for the shit this year!
Luckily, i'm still respect all of them..

Where am i ?
- I want to resign, dont have any courageous  caused of family matter.
- I'm happily see my friends that start to have a marriage and babies, others not ready yet
- I apply pr so i can learn again with subsidy, government reject me
- Oklah, at least one step closer learning chinese, programming and badminton games.
Thanks a lot for wiewie, ricky wijaya, my mandarin friends (shinta n linda), all flat mate n spore's friends, company friend that run through my days.

The key of this year : Be Patience...
Until i cannot bear it. I'll leave all of this.

You are not the one that on difficult situation

Hi God,
Thank for slap me. When all my surrounding is very kind to me. You are the one that give me comparison.

I know several people, Andre, Linda, Shinta. I know all of them currently on boring mode in their step of life. Most of them bored with their job, and also some of them bored to be single. Since it's not easy to find soulmate, although we really want it.

I'm still lucky even i feel bored to be single, there is one guy that still love me very much.

When i feel very bored to my job, there is my boss that really want to understand me, and help me different way. My boss really want me to know god deeper. He always do this kind of thing since i'm in at my company here.

And what he said quite shocked me "But dont change for the sake of changing because perhaps the need for change that you feel is within you not so much the environment" kalo diindonesiain Jangan berubah demi ingin berubah karena mungkin keinginan berubah yang kamu rasakan itu berasal dari diri sendiri dan bukan terlalu banyak dari lingkungan.

Yes, big possibility i want to change because i really want to change. And i just throw the reason cause of company. possible...

Thanks god, so far i 've boss for the current n previous company, really understand me. And they didnt allowed me to resign without take good step.

Even now, when i really want to runaway from this job, this life. My family doesnt agree with it. My mother especially want me to stay here. Its not easily deal with it, i should stretch it. Even my uncle, my aunty all give advice to me. I cannot be careless to take the decision. It will effect very big to my family. oh God, give me some strength to pass all of this.

Related about my life,my relationship with many flat mate. I also hear many problem, my roommate lost her dog, and she is really sad about it. The day when she hear about it, she is crying and cannot sleep til early day. Then my other flatmate, she just have complicated relationship with the guy that i think have take 1 or 2 year until they decided to be in relationship. But at the last its over on a month, and a bit difficult for her because she really runaway to Jakarta spontaneously. The other one also, my friend that have work in spore for 2 year, then move to Netherlands for study, and failed go back Singapore and look for the job. A bit pathetic for her, because she work at start-up company after 3 month probation the company just cut off her salary.

O ya even my company's friend also have many problem. The one that have 1 baby, 1 dog, and 1 mother to be take care. And even her husband probably is not reliable. Then the other on single not married woman, that now have many sickness from asthma, gastric, eye problem. Before she have an accident within 3 car. I hope all of them will be okay.

My pray for you god, please take care all of them. Even i'm sure Davin and Indah also have the difficult way about their new house, and Reynard feel tired about all his job.

o God, Thanks for reminding me that i'm not the one in difficult situation. I make a wish, hope all of us can pass through all the problem.

I just realize that i'm still lucky person. That i know i should improved myself. That is an obligation. Where is my spirit ? I really want to change!!!

Always trying to find A safer place to hide.. - Kina Grannis Heart and Mind

After talk secretly with ... , i feel don't want to talk anymore.  I hate myself...
I want to hide..

Human with their experiencing of their life, and interpret any thing.. I know i am fragile..
i always like to runaway..

Too many thing that i did without use my brain. I'm stupid as usual..

Kata2 bagus..

Aku ingin melanjutkan kehidupan ini, keluar dari kesedihan dan kekecewaan, memasuki kehidupan yang ringan terasa di hati, yang lembut terasa di wajahku, dan bening dan sejuk terasa di pikiranku.

Tuhan, bantulah aku untuk Move On!

Aku rindu untuk hidup sepenuhnya sebagai jiwa gembira yang riang merayakan keindahan hidup ini.

... dikutip dari kata2 Mario Teguh tgl 29 march 2012.

Tuhan, aku mau mau pikiran yang sejuk, jiwa yang gembira dan riang menjalani kehidupan. Aku harap aku bisa move on tahun ini. Cheers :)

Let's hope, become hope is stronger than fears. - Hunger Games.2012

Curhat ahay

Hello blog,

long time didnt see you. I feel unhappy although i am surrounded by all kind peoples. I feel dissapointed for anything although i've friend a lot, i've family that really care to me, i've boy friend that like to say cheesy thing.

Blog, i've no spirit to work anymore at singapore. :( God, although i know somehow i should be thankful, but i still unhappy with the job at spore. And maybe also about the salary. Ah sucks! you know how emotional me at my third year at singapore.

Everybody can say, you can save a lot at singapore. But actually there are a lot of temptation too at singapore. First is Shopping, since shopping mall at singapore always persuade you with many discount thing :p Between bag, shoes, books, electronic, gadget or else.. :p Second the temptation is Vacation, Its easy to go holiday from singapore since manage visa here is easy, and this city very small and so bored. Then the third, after all the temptation if you cannot handle it you can suicide, have party, or free sex. hahahaha...

What kind of life that you can have here, ALL is UP TO YOU.. But how you work here, also sometime you need to work very hard with minimum salary since you're just worker from others country. But still positive, that you are here is happier than live in Indonesia.

Blog, i still dont know about the future. What i want cannot be easy to be get. Why my brain is not clear, i really dont know what i want now. I feel unhappy, i cannot control my emotional. I miss to be loved by my parents. God, why we need to be mature ? I still want to be kids.

I'm too temperamental. I'm afraid that i can finish my life til the end of age god give to me. Maybe i'll suicide before that time. :)) HaHaHa..

There are no correct or wrong way, everything you can do, but please god, give me your wisdom, i still want to make my grand ma and my parents happy.

Sometimes i want to runaway from this life..

Is there any job that you always got mad? Haa?

huhuhu.. After 2012 coming, and went to the office at 3rd Jan 2012. I've bad day got angry by Engineer.. Try to look for some good quotes. It's okay have Bad Day, It's not Bad Life.. Second's day got angry from Operations, what a day. Just keep alive Girl! Life is not easy :p I dont want become sad because of getting other's madness, but sometimes i always got rudeness from the others, try to think think and think... Something wrong with me, possibly i always need warn before i realize what the thing should be.. Maybe that's the way God make me survive, and big possibility my character that always make other people keep angry. :D How to change the character, if that's the way you are. God, promise. I dont want to be losed by any people, at once time i'll urgue that's they cannot do that to me. But somehow, i don't know how to act to others people. Please teach me how to act! Haa? God, could i still alive with my weakness without any colonial feeling. my brain like floating :D I don't want to be affected by anybody, let me be independent.

About Hobby

Hiiii..

Since i went to Europe, i have not create the story. :p Actually i want to create pdf file about my friend & me journey to Europe. But you know because maybe busy. It haven't finish til today :D

Ok lo', let's talk about hobby. Since braddel's personnel changed, Ebby married to Anton there is Desy that partner in crime with Ivant on the room, and me with Vebri at another room. And i feel very fascinated with both person, since now they can be closed with the one guy in bradde, they also have 2 unique hobby. both like knitting, the other one love to collect small thing but funny. :D They are architect, but at home Vebri love to knitting, and can cook. And Desy have a small thing, now she talk about her office desk that have many small thing. She decorated her desk with xmas, and before halloween also have. It's a bit awesome for me.

The other thing, last week visit anseina. She love to design clothes and knitting. She has sewing us for bridemaid dress for ebby's wedding..

Then other about the one guy at braddel, Currently his hobby play rollerblade beside he love music. He just buy the roller blade and the tools since we tried roller blade last week at east coast, but omg what we borrowed smell not nice T.T might be thats why at the 2 day after he went to buy roller blade and take urgent leave to play at east coast alone. It's awesome for me..

then others, ivant. i think her hobby is travelling,n making friendship, sport. This month, she has go to any places ; chiang mai, medan, then bali.

oh god, you are really precious show me many character of people in my life, especially architect. Their necessity about art make me amazed. Sometimes for me all that spend money will be though twice, but for them i think they think about other thing, something fun. :)

This is some part that i can post from their hobby. Test

Travelling to Europe test test

Remember Travelling doesnt mean Shopping. Dont shopping too much when you did travel. Perhaps only rich person that do shopping when they travel. :D Maybe only rich person that used tour to go around the world. Who say, that doesnt have money cannot go. You need to change ur mind if u think like that, u just need to bring ur brain into it. :d test test

Wedding to Wedding 011011 ^^

I wassss very tireeddd.. My friend's wedding was at 1st october that leave any sad feeling to us. Many friend's of bride feel a lot disappointing with anything. It's beautiful but yet so sad.. Since the day is raining, and all decoration become wet and the event like is not coordinated.. TOO BAD for all the thing preparation that they do.. But againnn, when u expect too much and the result is not really good even too bad. It's a lot of crying, even i dont know they cry because the meaning of wedding or the event wedding that for me is unsuccessful for committee, but for guest i tot it's still beautiful. They still can see the concept, but for committee it was raining, the ceremony move to the room, the ROM ceremony was late, the lady singer doesn't come. It's a bit not like what they dreams.

But the event still goes on. And realize that our friend that prepare for make up is really tired :P And i just continue go to the another wedding at jakarta. There was heavy traffic jam at jakarta, but in the end i ask my friend that drive to look for the other road, at the last we arrive at the wedding. That's a nice wedding *sttt that i tot its worth it to be attended. :p from the others wed that i came. But happiness for bride n groom just the 1st important thing.

After the wedding, i stay with devi cirebon and devi semarang. Nicely we slept together and spend time to chatting after a long time didnt meet. :) Then go back home, and visit tante tine , tante annie and come back home to visit parent and take them to the mall and come back to aiport send by wiewie :) Thank you for accompany me during my visit to jakarta. Then comeback to spore, still need to spend time together with githa and vebri. And a lot of gossip about bride. hehehe.. There is article from website about the wedding concept. DIY (Do it Yourself) :D

I'm just tired with all this thing.. to be busy but its fun :P

2 Sept 2 year ago & Celebrate 2 birthday's girl

I amazed when i saw at top right facebook there is my old quotes..:D

Facebook can be very great, since it can make you remember what happen at the past two years.. Oh menn, i update my status like that.. :))

Status galau gw pastinyaa..

Let me tell you story about my housemate celebrate two of friend of us. One is Yustine, and secondly is Ansein. We celebrated Yustine on 30 August and Ansein 1 September. For yustine, its special day on monday which the tuesday is Hari Raya, so it was public holiday. Ivant cook and invite Nico, Raymond, Eci, Anton, and Kiki. then ivant invited Yustine to come into our house braddel. But she cannot come because her phone is off, and before that she said have a date. :p Then when we called her, and there is answer your phone is not available and nico said that.. "Waa, yustine have a boyfriend, the status is not available" hahahaha.. and we laughed :p Its quite entertaining because she cannot make it to come. But Do not worry, since one of friend know already where she stay, so she came into her house to celebrate. Its so good, we celebrate with Nasi Kuning, and laugh laugh laugh till early morning. Its crazy because of we drunk sapporo, and eby become crazy :)), like the orange balloon he said as papaya, its not bird. The bird is the blue one. since all the balloon are birds, so we are laugh again :) At the last, she was very happy with our celebration and presents :)

Then, For Anseina's birthday is different since her's boyfriend already book 1 room at swissotel. Its awesome, we come into the room and gather together n celebrate the birthday. This event also celebrate with arak.. After celebrate with cake, eat sushi and drink arak. We are the girls take photo with any crazy photo :D from bath up til all the space. It was crazy and fun. :)

too many story, i think its enough. :)

me and my fears

You know october will become my fear about anything. But actually is not about the thing itself but also about the preparation.

1. About my friends wedding

My friend's wedding will be celebrated on 1 october and she decided to organize all the wedding by herself without EO. That's awesome, this wedding celebrated in singapore and outdoor. This idea for me it's really great.. But the process to make it come true a bit miraculous, and magically since she want to make all by herself from the invitation, souvenir, decoration on the day. Actually its not possible, but the way she create this event to become all the people's event is not easy.

Til this day, It doesnt mean all runs ok since actually some friend doesnt feel happy with the way she bring all wedding thing to us at anytime, anywhere, and anything. :D Our conversation behind her, "Please deh, that's ur wedding.. Why u need to make urself and ours troublesome" And we just feel a bit frustated about how the way she treat his fiancee with madness, rude words, and pressure other's people with her things.

Actually, this is not my feeling, It just the result from girls discussion without her. And we called her as bridezilla. Maybe bride's feeling near the wedding day :D

For me, all become messy at the preparation but in the end, we are friend that will support till that day. Bcause we dont want she will be sad, and dissapointed for this experience. Check this out. But i should prepare my mentally for all of this that will happen til that day. =.='

More than that, on that day i still need to continue to Jakarta to attend others wedding.. What a tired day enw.. T.T

2. My Trip to Europe

It's more than that. I am stupid enough lha.. Even i realize my trip to Europe too sudden, but i still want it comes true. Maybe its ego.. Holiday is not easy man, Its take all my money and space in brain. There are many pressure that i have for this idea.

Firstly, i'll go with 5 people that they has habit to go abroad for holiday. They have gone to Cambodia, Thailand, Penang, and many others place. So i trust this idea will be grateful, but in the end 1 decided not to go, the other 2 also, and now the other 1 also not. So currently only 2 people that will go. Crazyyy!!! And thats very bad happen also, i tot i want to go europe and visit my friend at netherland, oh man she help me to give the invitation from netherlands, but in the end so sad she will stop her study at that place and will back for good. :'( although i dont like it, but it still her decision that probably good for herself.

And now, i a bit panic because of my visa applying. I dont know whether it approved or rijected, i still afraid of it. Although many people can say that it should be approved why they need to riject it, But i still have fear since my account history is not good and also many inconsistency in the application like my friend said that the cost will become my responsibility, but for staying will be accomodated by my friends. And the day will be on monday, i'll know the result. Oooo God, please let me become strong whatever the result.. My wish, If it approved i hope i can go to Lourdes. Give me strength to face all my fears.

I realize that world is really spin, since my feeling everytime always change from happy, thankful, hope, worry, dissapointed, angry.. But let me be the human that never feel desperate. \(^.^)/