Busy but fun

Hiiiii...
i feeelllzzz gooodd...< br/> yesterday just enjoy my time at home watching movie to movie by i phone. Then continue with watch ironman2 at cinema although didn't understand enough with the story,but i was enjoying. O ya bfore watch,we go to boat quay to gather for fadly want to go back indo... Eat some thai food there.. Good luck to fadly, success to u..

on sunday wake up late for three weeks didnt go to church. I am sorry god. Huhuhu.. Then after that see places for rental room at china town.. And the eat chicken rice at maxwell foodcourt then walk to marina sand see casino at outside, see helix, and the hotel n mall..and the sun very hot then go to esplanade then go to milenia then go walk again to mall fountain, waiting for fontain but exactly the fontain is fixed and i cannot see laser show. It s ok today very tired with walk but fun.. Today already morning n tom need to work again.. God bless me...

My new life @spore

I don't know why i said as my new life. I have lived here for 3 month, i expected that as my adaption and my probation. There is possibility to myself back to indo because of my work or can stand live at here mybe:p

i already get my confirmation, although the salary still the same. Then i buy i phone by my cousin's name. Then i formatted my computer with windows seven. All my old data already moved on to mobile harddisk. And then my i phone just powerful except the battery. I never to afraid for feeling lost at sing, feeling bored at mrt, already installed all that needed. If there is internet connection, dont worry:)

but new mrt route circle line already run. I can use mrt till my office, before i need to take bus. But negatively becomes i didn't get seat in the morning and going home. There is a lot of people.

i got sick, i didn't really know why i sick badly. Sore throat and cough, make my friend's at hole sick too:d

i realize that i really have new life at spore, because all experience that i have.. And i need to improve mine,seems i already at comfortable zone. Starting becomes lazy.. >..< helppp mee..

Holiday without english language

Holiday will be ends.. :P

My holiday is fun, and tiring.. friday, start with going to church in the morning, and feel dizzy after that so i went home for sleeping, then lazyness at home with githa(my roomate). And then went to Toa Payoh Garden from my home at braddel. she said we will walk 3 times, like doing sports.. :p I only can said yes, but after that at Toa Payoh the cloud becomes dark and drizzle.. So we went to Toa Payoh, decided to walk arround at mall.. After walk, we went to fair price to shopping food.. Then go home with our weekly expenditure.. so heavy with cleaner for cloth 3 kilo, pokka for drink 2 bottle.. at last arrived at home, we move on the stuff to exactly place.. After that, see home so messy, i take broom and clean home. Githa continue to mopping.. And our home rental becomes cleaner :) It's really good..

Then, on Saturday .. In the morning,my friend Ivana went to market.. After that, we are busy to cooking, help a little that i cannot cook :D Then, her friend come and eat and eat and drink and drink.. Then finally, they go home and we go to movie cinema at dhoby goat to watching Clash of Titans. After that, go to Vivocity to see my cousins Meta and eat for dinner, then go to Michael Hotel to see my aunty there, and cannot see my uncle since he is busy at casino.. :D Then till the time, 11.30 i go home, running for the last train. Finally come at home 12.30 maybe... WoW so tired and sleep.

In the afternoon, i wake up at 10a.m and wake up eating and other. Till my roomate githa ask me to eat at dhoby goat for sushi that cheap before the price is up twenty sen. Then go to see the park mall, she survey for architecture stuff.. After that, walk to somerset, see arround.. Then i went to bukit gombak to see my other aunty.. My aunty bring some food for me, indomie and other that i order to my mother :) And then go homeeee late again.. My holiday is very busy.. :P

But all, i contact will all indonesia.. O ya, here seems i look at a lot of indonesia, seems i see susanti my high school friend, and astrid, my friend at binus.. But, i didn't want to call them.. I am afraid to be wrong :D Truly, there is a lot of indonesian here.. :D

Tommorowwww,, woooorrrkkk againnnnn, ouchhh nooo.. Give me strength god, :) Work is fun, fun fun fun.. :)

What i want, what i need.. me too usual..

Realizing, that my blog all the content about hope, and grumble..Seems that i write the blog when i feel abstract.. Where am I now ? as quality human ?

I don't know where i am.. what i feel.. Like live just for live till the time ends.. What things that supposed i do, just need to make my parent proud.. That's all..

What supposed i do for myself ? still nothing, only walk arround.. i dont have a dream.. When i see arround, my friend learn mandarin, take S2, other take many vacation, my roommate get the scholarship to Netherland.. For me, after move on to singapore still feeling nonexistent..

I don't have any idea, what supposed i do.. Really dunno.. God, what should i do ? Give me the spirit! Spirit come come come.. I want to die.. Really not wisee.. :'(

Why, i always try becomes kind.. unruly.. Don't ask why.. but How..

:) Keep Smile

Considering today as horrible day

I just feeling afraid, everyday when i go to office.. Just thinking what will happen today..

Just feeling like that useless to recruit me or not, because there is no benefit for the company.. But need to be thanksful for being lucky, can work here and see many kind people.. Althought if my probation will not succeed, but need to be positive.. The first one should i do is taking an english course, and speak english.. What is me? seonggok manusia bodoh yg suka melakukan hal bodoh.. Today, my card to go in the office is lost, Today is Salary day. Likes the time this is the end, you dont need to work anymore.. HuHuHuuuuUuuuuuuuuuu... T.T - I hope this is only my negative thinking..

And then, my family again.. why problem never ends, i just calling my mother today.. Like she is so stress :( because of my brother is easily to be angry.. His wife is sick, and still dont know what ill that she have.. Life becomes not easy.. God, Mother Mary just need you to protect my family..

Why my family, like have many disaster. All have a problem becomes family, didn't want to make family... :'( But, so owe see the family that happy with kids..

Today is really bad day, but keep me strong God.. Dont let me becomes down, i want to be someone.. Please let me became someone that have character..

me, gundah

Aku ingin menangis malam ini..

Thank you for being there for me. Although i know, that your life is harder than me. Your load that you should assure more heavy than me.. But truly, my gratitude that you really care to me, although sometimes i talk rush to you.. Hope you and your family will be on alright.

Somebody out there, where are you. Do you like me or not. Why are you do nothing? why? Do i really ignore you ? :D

Somebody from my memories, sometimes i remember about you. i just want to at least same to you. i don't like more weak than you. Althought it's seems like that.

God, give me a chance.. I want to be survivor..

There is not perfect life, perfect company, perfect soulmate, perfect family.. Please be realistic..

I am really sorry, that i am not kind..

Ragu & Takut..

Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Bimbing aku..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Kuatkan aku..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Buat aku Tegar..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Jadikan aku sesuai Rencana-Mu..
Tuhan, aku takut..
Tuhan, Tetaplah di sampingku..

Bunda, aku lemah..
Bunda, aku bodoh..
Bunda, aku pesimis..
Bunda, aku tak bersemangat..
Bunda, aku hanya memikirkan kesenangan..
Bundaaa, Ajari Aku menjadi kuat menjalani hari-hari besok ku hingga deadline itu tiba..

Aminnn..
kupercaya, ku akan kuat..
kupercaya, ku akan bisa..
kupercaya, ku akan mampu..
kupercaya, ku akan sanggup..
ber-juang dengan lelahku, usahaku, niatku, dan doa..

Ajariku berdoa..

Busy & some thinking..

My weekend so tired.. Saturday i went to cathay at Orcard watching hachiko, and then look around at Orchard with Juli. Juli buy something for souvenir, and i buy 2 flat shoes..:P Hope the shoes make me comfortable on singapore.. A lot of walking.. :p And then, after that i was going to swimming with many stuff that will be saved on locker. I like spore very much, because when i go to swimming pool. All registered by marchine... You can only insert the money to come to swimming pool. Yesterday is so tired..

At Sunday, Today i went to St Theresa Church with Reynard, my cousin. And then eat lunch, and continue with watching 14 blades at golden village Vivocity. Thank you Re.. :) And see Julius at St John Church, i went to church for second ^^ And then i went to take dinner and walk arround at china town, to see many things.. It's fun but so tired, my foot so "pegal".. Dun't find the exactly word.. :P

And i dont know... Sometimes, i am thinking that i am so busy with walking arround, don't concentrate with my job. I am so afraid, that i cann't survive for the probation. Really feel scary, because my boss somehow don't really care with me.. I feel that my language suppose to be increased fast.. but HOW ? Talk to me.. HOW HOW HOW.. i try to listening with watching movie at cinema / television. But somehow, only that is not enough.. aAaaaaa, i must have a big of bravery.. Please give that spirit, holy mary..

Don't let this opportunity become useless.. *keep praying*

Let's pray.. :)

Doa Santa Maria in English
Hail Mary, full of grace,
our Lord is with thee,
blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb, Jesus.
Holy Mary, mother of God,
pray for us sinners, now, and in
the hour of our death.
Amen.

Doa Bapa Kami in English
Our Father, who art in Heaven,
Hallowed be Thy Name.
Thy Kingdom come, Thy Will be done,
On Earth, as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
And forgive us our trespasses,
As we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation,
But deliver us from evil.
[For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever and ever.]
Amen.
Hope i can pray with english.. :)

My Transformation is more exactly than Revolution

Big Thanks to My God, Jesus and My Holy Mary..

I really thanksful that my prayer is accepted.. I can go work to singapore.. I have been pray from more than one year ago. Althought i almost forget with my dream, but in the end how luckily i get what i dream for.. I believe that what i ask to god, god will answer slowly or fast..

My Transformation happened on december 2009, and become reality on January 2010.. What is my purpose to be here ?

Singapore, in this country i want to breath clearly than my office and my country..
Singapore, in this country i try to make my parent proud..
Singapore, in this country i learn to be independent again after 2 years..
Singapore, in this country i will learn an english.. although maybe it can be singlish.. :P
Singapore, in this country i want to earn money more than indo..
Singapore, in this country i hope to find boyfriends and making relationship, maybe also makeing family

It starts from hope , maybe need some effort , a lot of praying... but i frequently absent.. >.<
but hope is hope..
Effort is talk a lot in english, be confident, hardworker, adaptation, learn to sharing, socialization at my home..
pray is pray, to be active to the church.. :p

Holy Mary, bless me..
God, bless me..
and also my Family, Thank a lot to my parent, brother, sister, om siang & family, Tante ani & Family, Davin & Family, Tante me & Family, and the best support from my grand mother, Oma.. :)

Efek umur terhadap kehidupan kamu

Hu.hu.hu Entah knp stlh sperempat abad, dan setelah kerja selama 2 tahun. Aku merasa ada yg berbeda. Dari sisi stamina, gairah kerja, dll.. Why happen with my body ? seperti mudah lelah. mudah masuk angin. uda ga tahan lg makan pedas2. merasa malas aka jenuh. hu.hu.hu.. saia sedang beradaptasi dengan pekerjaan baru, yg sptny akan melelahkan.. like work hard play hard. tapi merasa blm bisa menyesuaikan diri dengan baik.. smoga esok akan lebih baik.. -amin- give a strength god, please.. i dunt have enough motivation for working.. uoOoo >.<

Friday, 11 September

This Afternoon at the offices.. i am feel so sooo stupid... feel so lazy too.. feel guilty too.. feel so sad too.. how come this feeling always be with me..

i feel so stupid becoz of my work for my project task.. i am work the project lately becoz i feel that this project without implement, and the new programmer make me use more effort.. huh..

i feel so lazy becoz of this is friday.. the day before saturday.. the day that my offices treat the employee at hanamasa.. hohoho.. and also one week before holiday (lebaran mode ON).. cann't wait till the dinner timeeee... :D

and alsooo i feel guilty becoz of mine is so freaky... i have waste the money ... my thr is gone gone gone... hua :'( i am sorry to my family, that i am to freaky for wasting the money for stuff or for food... i feel free a little when i say to my friend... how come the money is so fast become empty.. :D

and damnnn, today i realize that people at the office realize something for the first day after the holiday... arrghhh.. i hope that i can absent for the day, but my boss cann't let me absent bcoz the other people celebrate lebaran and i am not.. and then i hope that all the people absent, so the office will be a few people.... waaa.. but i hate there is people make other realize... >.< when the day, there will be somebody dun me... maybe my boss.. hoho..

i am so sad.. that realize that the topic at the lunch make me sad. that my friends will be gone awayy... hiks,, temmy has resign, disty will be resign too from my offices, and than my other friend become diligent to find the other job.. hukz... if they go, i will go too... it's a must... i think i must positive thinking that resign will be some brighter than my offices.. buuuuuttt,, why i am so lazy to find another job.. am i feel satisfied with my offices ? i think i am at the comfortable zone.. i must move on.. >.<

ouch no.. the time still point at 4.35.. It's still a long time until 5.30 pm.. i want to go... i feel so bored to work...

My Dream Wedding Tale

WoW, i am on dreaming of a wedding..

I am in love with Batik..

I dreamed about theme a wedding about "go green stop global warming" (I get the quote from handi) and Reduce, Reuse, Recycle (i got the quote from victor) so the invitation will be by sms, email , web, and paper for oldster.

I would my prewedding session, an image of nature. I would love to take photo session on water, at farm town, at the sea with coral, and etc. I like water very much, and also i like a farm since i played farm town at facebook. hohohoho... :D

I would like that my wedding will have 2 dress, that one is mbatik and an else is modern dress ala europe. The "akad" will be mbatik at the church, wandering mbatik at the church will be wonderful. And the reception places is not at the building, hmm but like at Clark Quay at Spore.. uUuw >.< where places is at jakarta ?#%$#^ ho3x...

It's a tale.. So in perfectly i hope a prince that come to me, that charming, handsome, has patient on me, love me very much and want to take me go arround the indonesia, also the world too ^^

And at the honeymoon, my prince take the princess (me^*^) to go to dubai to see the moon.. :) feel in love suddently.. >.< huahahaha...

When will be i gonna married ? >.< Why this post is called my dream wedding tale, bcoz in the reality it will be difficult that inhibited with money, places, and i don't know about another maybe my husband will be and else.. Maybe become idealism more difficult than becomes realistic..

Friday, 20 June the day before today

Friday, after a long time ago not see temmy. I am succesfully invited temmy at permata project, bintaro to join us (agny, me, tiwi, daniel, and kenny) eating lunch at ITC foodcourt.. It's really nice to gathering again. Temmy with his friend (3 programmer + disty QA) came from bintaro and eat lunch at fudcourt itc bsd.. And feel so proud that kenny and daniel, they bring an lunch from home but they want to go out from office to lunch at itc bsd :p We are all chatting and chatting about work. It's real fun.. :)) when the work becomes story, it's real fun can be laughter stuff. but when the work becomes something that routinely, feel so hard.. :D

and then we back to office and work again, after the offices hour i went pre launching teraskota with yuni, nova, ariani, jenny, danik, erna. Some of us make blitz card. Nothing to do at there except to see arround. there is only stands of food. But the promotion is not enough, cann't make us to try. becoz without diskon :D

After that go home with yuni.. and then tell that i have lunch to temmy. She is angry becoz i didn't invite her to join the lunch. and also nova angry too becoz she is not join too. But for nova i think she want to eat her lunch stuff at office becoz at conversation she went out.. i am sorry really regret. its should be i invited ariani, yuni, and nova. i am so sorry for not inviting.. >.<>.<

maybe some other days :)

walking-walking

For the first time, i borrowed the car from my Dad. and take it go to mall. Thx to u bcoz, although it's is difficult for me to use an effort for that. But finally, and actually at the end it's really fun. :)

I spend this day with my friend with watching a movie at puri indah and also djakarta theatre. For the first watch drag me to hell, and then street fighter, the legend of chin mi.. huahahaa.. it's fun. :) Finally, I went to Puri Indah in this morning, to see the new bioskop that larger than before. And then to try sour selly that famous. But actually , i am little bit disappointed because my blitz card cannot used at sour selly. Becoz my binus card, and also blitz card can be used at monday - thursday not friday to sunday.. huuuu.. and also disappointed with bca credit card that only can used one times, cannot more.. :(( fortunately, my friend have mandiri debit that can used at some 21cineplex for "buy 1 get 2" promotion. And one of the cinema at the djakarta theatre. So we are going to djakarta theatre to watch street fighter. But at the djakarta theatre it also an event "Gebyar BCA" makes the places so full of car, but we finally still find an empty carpool.

About the movie, Don't like Drag me to hell and like street fighter very much. Drag me to hell has bad ending. An effort to free from the curse of lamia is failed. The magician woman is dead after waiting the time 40years to meet lamia, it's wasting time. And how come the devil is win >.< what story laarr.. The better from this film that sound and the scene make the audience feel so depressed many times.. And for the street fighter, it good becoz it's tell about a woman that have a kindness, and also strengthness. Joining skill of piano with skill of kungfu.. Make her so nice to be seen. Also i like the message of her father to chin mi, give her a necklake with liontin that can be turn around(berputar). It means that u must to move on when a difficulty comes. And also i like gen , how him give a learn to chin mi.. Dont like bisan very much, really dunt have a heart... his work just killing the people..

At the end, back to home.. >.< although, i really want to midnight startrek at the summarecon mall serpong. But my mom said that i am ungodly, make my friend take me go home. :(( so sad... huaaaa..

aya ya ya.. i am forgot, that at puri i meet maria fransisca. and i newly know that she have give birth a baby girl two weeks ago.. awesomee... congratulations to u.. ;)

1 day @Semarang, but precious

I went to Semarang June, 12 and It's Friday

I arrived @semarang at night and Fany and Yudis, the new bride and groom was waiting for us. And they took us at the mini hotel like wisma @Jalan Randu Sari, back of Pandanaran Street. I checked the room, and take my stuff into the room. And waiting for my friend , christian. Then we going to arround at the Semarang city till drop. From Pondok Daun, Semawis, Top of Semarang like puncak at Jakarta, and then Mesjid Agung Jateng. Also i am look arround Semarang, christian take me to see My Himmat's Friend that live from Semarang and take me to see the familiar school at Semarang, like Cedes, Loyola, Karang Turi, and Kebon Dalem. I got into my room maybe at 12.30am.

And in the saturday morning, i go to with cristian to take the souvenir(mochi at kentangan and lumpia) that i'll bring to Jakarta. Also take many picture @Gang Lombok. Then i played to Christian's home and see their family from his mother and father, his brother, his rabbit, hamster and turtles.. :) Gotchaaa.. so many Life in that home.. hohoho.. :p

After that i back to my room at randusari then i get to ready fot the party at my friend's wedding. I took by chris into MAJT with motorcycle, and late maybe for 10 minutes. But it's ok i can eat the food from Ducking, Sop Iga , Ice Cream, Gordon blue, and also dont forget to take many a lot of pictures there with friends. I meet Inge, my Computer club friends at binus. And after the reception, we (faran, wie, and me) join with inge go to Kampung Laut. Kampung laut is a places that we can eat seafood, we can fishing there, and enjoy the places like a sea. Very recommended to visit Kampung Laut @semarang.

After that i go to Mall Citraland @Semarang too see tike, my friend at campus. Also meet christian too, and then we chit chat at the mall, and then tika take me and friends go to Bandara and back to the Jakarta City.

Thank you all my friend for enjoying my 1 day at semarang :) God bless u all.. ^^

what the day today.. so messy..

wah.. apa yg terjadi dengan diriku hari ini.. bnyk rencana yg gagal krn hal tak terduga..

Pagi2 berangkat ke kantor, spt biasa gue ngantor ke client di kuningan. gue dianter pagi2 ke halte busway di mampang, dan kmdn gue mlanjutkan naes bus transjakarta. Tapi hari ini bus-nya rame bener.. nunggu bus 1 pertama gue ga masuk, bus ke 2 gue paksa masuk krn dah nunggu lama dan telat bgth.. Bisa gilany lg, entah knp hr ini org2 telat semua kali ye.. masa dari 1 halte ke halte berikut, wlo ga ada orang yg keluar tetep aja org berjejel masuk terus.. mate deh..

Entah ga tahu jg, di tengah perjalanan gue eneg berasa pengen muntah.. daripada gue muntah di keramaian akhirny gue keluar di halte berikutny.. yeppp... akhirnya keluar jg isi perut gue.. dan bis itu keringet dingin bgt, perut sakit.. >.<>.< (klo gue pkir, tdi sakit apa yah yg gue rasain.. bingung..) Akhirnya gue telpon nyokap gue, untuk jemput gue baliq.. hikz hikz hikz... tpi lama bgt dtgny.. scr rmh gue di ujung kulon... hik hik.. gue akhirnya better sendiri, duduk di aw situw..

Dan list kegiatan gue hari ini semuanya berantakan... benci bgth..
- janji reunian ma tmn sd pas mkn siang gagal
- kirim spt lewat kantor di ambas/ke kantor gak kesampean


but gue bersyukur banget di saat-saat ky tadi, gue gak pingsan... bener2 gue kuatin.. gue tkut bgt barang2 yg gue pegang ilang smua >.<

Suspect penyebab kejadian tdi ?? gue bingung.. tpi ada beberapa suspect :
- efek penuh sesak di bus transjakarta, djejelin org terus
- isi perut kegoyang2 scr bru mkn pagi, dan bawa bus nya ngerem ngegas gtu..
- efek shari sblmny gue gak mkn malem.. :D (suspect nyokap gue)
- sakit bulanan wanita yg sptnya dtgny mood2an.. (suspect terberat gue)
scr dalam kehidupan gue sbnernya gue perna pingsan skali doank. dan yg gue tahu gue itu sehat bgth.. ;)

but gue skrg ga yakin dgn kesehatan gue sendiri, semenjak gue kerja dan bertamba umur.. >.< seperti ada stamina yg kurang..

whatz..

aku mau bercinta..
bak orang dewasa..

aku mau bercinta..
seperti cinta itu sungguh ada..

aku mau bercinta..
asalkan ada dia..

aku sudah gila..
krn ingin bercinta..

ha.ha.ha....

aku kamu..

kamu..

hidupku rasany hampa..
pikiranku sptnya picik..
sifatku tertutup..
sikapku misterius..
hidupku bebas..
pergaulanku terbatas..
temanku bnyk..
tpi shabat tak ada..

pekerjaan kupunya..
gajiku dapat..
tpi kerjaku tak benar..

keluarga ku ada..
masih lengkap..
tpi ku tak puas..

krn ga ada kamu..
apa krn km ?

kurasa tdak..
penyebabnya krn aku..
seandainya aku bole berkata..
"aku benci diriku.."

hopes

Tuhan, masih sanggupkah aku berdiri tegak dan mengangkat kepala ?

Mengapa dengan diriku ?
seperti merasa sedih..
seperti hidupku tak berarti..
seperti rasanya sepi..
seperti tak berharga..

aku yg ingin dihargai..
aku yg ingin bahagia..
aku yg tak ingin sendirian..
aku yg manja..

ajarilah aku selalu rendah hati..
ajarilah aku selalu belajar..
ajarilah aku untuk bersabar..
ajarilah aku untuk tegar..
ajarilah aku untuk selalu berusaha..

jgn biarkan aku slalu mengeluh..
jgn biarkan aku slalu bersedih..
jgn biarkan aku merasa putus asa..
jgn biarkan aku terkurung..
dalam perasaan yg tak menentu..

aku cuma ingin kamu.. :'(

Tiba2 ingin menulis dgn santai ..

Pengen mengutarakan perasaan tanpa harus berpikir, tanpa harus merasa tertekan, tanpa harus merasa berath. Pokoknya menulis dan menulis yang panjang...

Sanggupkah, spanjang apa yah ??

Hmm.. -berpikir- Entah semakin bertambahnya umur, terasa skali kalo duniaku hanya pekerjaanku. teman2 seakan2 menjadi nomer 2 stlh pekerjaanku. Aku butuh beristirahat dari pekerjaan ku, mari kita mkn siang keluar. Beda sama waktu sekolah dlu. belajar dan berteman sama bobothnya, bahkan menjadi lebi seru berteman. mengobrol saat jam pelajaran, merencanakan jalan-jalan setelah pulang kuliah.

Aku ingin tak terlalu banyak berpikir, just enjoying the time..

Berhari-hari ngutik-ngutik dan ngubek-ngubek facebook. Melihat kehidupan teman-temanku..wah rasanya iriiii.. Ada yg sudah menikah dan punya anak yg lucu, ada yg di luar negri, amerika, aussie, spore.. Sudah pada berpasang2an, sudah pindah kerja beberapa kali.. Rasanya muncul saja perasaan kenapa aku masih sperti ini. Rasanya kehidupan tak berubah, berjalan agak lambath.. dan rasanya yg melaju dgn cepat umurnya saja.. ugh..

Perasaan yg kacauuu.. balauuu sekali... Org lain dari jogya bisa ke jakarta. aku dari pamulang kerja di bsd.. haha.. hanya dalam hitungan beberapa centi di peta.. :))

Status masi jomblo, tanpa ada niat membuka diri untuk orang yg masih ada, masi menunggu sosok baru spt yg lama.. :D

Sepertinya stuck stuck stuck... naek mobil blm bisa.. ke luar negri blm kesampeannn.. masih berjuang keras rajin menabung, bekerja dengan baik, menunggu pangeran dgn kuda putih.. sambil terus menghabiskan waktu time by time..

Tpi sptnya gjala cwe judesnya mulei kluar, scr kerjaan smakin menekan, masi menjomblo, rajin menabung shingga tidak bisa bersenang-senang. menjadi gendut, dan tembem, punya perasaan iri thd lingkungan skitar... Ini spt gejala depresi, hampir putus asa, dan rasanya hampir dipastikan akan merasa sendirian, dan benar menjadi sendirian.. Lonely.. :P

hahaha.. malang bgt sih nasib kuww.. Ayolahhh aku butuh perubahannn nich.. gmna yahhh.. perubahan spt apa ?

Kalo aku bole membenci keluargaku. Aku sungguh membencinya sangat.. Tak ada sosok yg patut dicontoh. i hate that. Untung aku berhasil membentuk figur ku sendiri.. tapi mungkin masih ada yg salah, janggal atau kurang.. Untung jg aku masih memiliki nyokap yg sangat sabar sekali.. baikkk tiap hari selalu mengurus aku dengan baik.. sosok ibu yg luar biasa.. Aku ingin nantinya spt ia tpi dgn versi lebi pintar tentunya.. ^^

Tapi klo disadari ada2 aja sih tmn yg nasib2nya mirip2 gue.. hehe.. masi still single, work, dan feel bored dgn kehidupan ini.. Cia yooo.. mari kita raihhh mimpi qta.. ;)

Kalut

kalut gue skrg..

hate this feeling..

ktika gue brasa butuh,,

tpi it's should not to call him.

but feel need to dependent..

It's hard..

complicated..

i am sorry i am not commit..

really sorry..

rapuh..

feel lbi tenang.. sdkit..

Are you ready for 2009 ?

Am I ready for 2009 ?

Again, year 2008 passed by and changed to be 2009.. But every year have an issue, last year i remembered that price for gasoline is up. Issue this year is ressesion that happened at America, will be joined by another country. And will be sorely at the middle 2009 at Indonesia.

Changes

Changes will be happen to with my office.. Like usual the structure will be changed again, likes habit every year.. But the changes i think so will be very different for my position. Between i will be moved from jakarta to Bali, or i will moved to others position with another boss. I have enjoyed with my boss for one year three months..

UuuuW.. added by many my friends will be moved on to another. They are still work at my company, but will be moved to client, 1 of my friend will be moved to Permata, and another will be moved to Bank Indonesia. And i dont know about destiny of anothers..

aghh.. so boreeeddd.. to know that adaptation will be my journey again.. ugh.. what happen to me ? like i am so old.. and feel lazy to changes againn.. uUuuu.. so terrible.. About my dreammmmm, huaaaaa i hate i feel i am not ready for do that at 2009. But remembered still 12 month until the end of 2009.. still hoping.. *praying*

so hopeeeee, that i will prepare for 2009.. New hopes, new effort, new me.. that i must be do is more patient to do everything.. not hurry-hurry.. :))

enough.. enough.. i want to enjoy my time.. it's stop. Another time i write again. bubye.

enw, Welcome to 2009, Happy New Year All, have the best for all...

X mas at December 2008

Almost one year, and 2008 will be passed again.. What have i had ?

I only worked along the year 2008.. But I am enjoying this year, becoZ i have a vacation to abroad for the first time. And I do with my little money that i get from worked.. ^^ I really fun to have a much time with him at holiday.. It's special for me..

I worked at the company that i can get a lot of knowledge.. I really have a lot knowledge, but with spend a lot of time, a lot of feeling for being tired, a lot of friends, a lot of input-an for me.. and anothers.. Thx for all, i will be more okay next year.. I am just so childish sometimes.. If i can regret, why must i got the big project in the end of year that make me feel so Arghhz.. sometimes feel i cann't survive..must survive and so lazy to survive.. Argh... shi*..

I have close friend, that sometimes i have spend time to chatting, spend time for hangout, and another. I am never regret to know you more closely. You are really helpful for me at many area.. I really thx for being so kind and harsh sometimes.. I hope this is not a sin.. but an experience..

Next YeaR.. My plannnn, ouch so desperately i feel so sad why global ressesion must come.. make me so afraid to take the challange.. Sometimes, i feel my skill is becomes low time by time.. hhh..God, i am so far from you.. choose me a way please.. My pray for u, also me and my family.. and all my friends..

HaVe A MeRrY - mErRy X' maS time..

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My stupidity

aiaiaiaiaia... melankolie apa yg datang padaku malem ini...

huahuahua.. me.. 24 tahun.. masi suka menjomblo.. suka pria dengan umur lima tahun lebih tua.. Menganggap ia kanak2, meninggalkan nomer hp berharap dia menghubungi. kemudian bersikap sok perhatian...

mennn, dia hampir 30 tahun.. pantaskah aku bersikap seperti itu..

ditambah lagi scenario, satu teman ku juga naksir sama dia..

aiaiaiaiai... stupid stupid stupid... spertiny ga ada harapan.. pupus sudah..

dtambah lagi gosip2 miring yg bkin gue makin kliatan stupid.. >.<

haiah.. memang i dari dlu sampe skrg selalu stupid...

aku cuma bosan menjomblo...dan as always ga tahan untuk sendirian.. huahuahua.. :'(

Kutunggu pacarmu.. dan pacarku..

Kutunggu pacarmu..
Satu tahun lagi..

Kutunggu istrimu..
Lima tahun lagi..

Kutunggu Dudamu..
Sepuluh tahun lagi..

Kutunggu matimu..
Dua puluh tahun lagi

Sampai aku lelah menunggu..
Aku masih akan mencintaimu..

sungguh sulit tuk mencinta..
caraku yg salah..
tidak tahu bagaimana memulai percintaan..


sudah itu masih yakin Cinta itu akan datang
tanpa menghargai cinta yg ada..

terus terus dan terus...
ku mengejar cintaku.. idealis dan perfectsionis..

tanpaa lelah.. dan putus asa..

It's not about love, but it's about feeling lonely..

"Maaf, Troy, aku tak mau kalau hanya menjadi sekadar pemenuh hasratmu. Aku menginginkan posisi yang lebih jelas di hati dan hidumu, gumam Gadis dalam hati'

Sepotong kata hati Gadis as a woman at the novel that i was reading at afternoon. I just like the words. It's should must i do for a long time ago. But sometimes difficult to do at the time when we feels something so special and control to distract the feeling.

For being single, I feel so bored.. I have had a lot of my time for my self. It has been one year being single, and now i thinks i am ready to be in a relationship. But the problem is with whom i would have a relationship ? ho3x.. it's difficult to know that i have a feeling with someone, but he don't have any feeling with me. WeW.. It will be so tired to attact attention from mister from Mars.. :p

Maybe it's good to be true.. Being single with many fans.. :p I will be mrs available for you for the time my fans needs. hahahaha.. "YouR style likes a young girl... " And to realize that i am not enough rich to waste the money for being having fun.. That's all just imagination.. WeW.. :p

I feel desperated to know that i am just an employee with salary just enough for living one month...

What must i do, for upgrade my quality. I realize that i have a talent, what must i do just need time for being patient. And upgrade my confidence.. 'till the time.. (i still waiting) huuu.. >.<

What special From china

My friend, Denny will be go to China on 6th October. He will studying 1 year at University. Good Luck yah den.. And also My Cousin went to China too. he learned at Xi'an Jiatong - Liverpool University at Suzhou.. Dewi went to china too, when olimpiade in Beijing was running. And also there are many my friends that learned chinese language for 6month - 1 year after the S-1 graduation..

What special from China ?
I am so curious..

I wondering when will i can go there. I hope that i can go there for visiting them. And they will become my tour guide in China. How do i can earn enough money to go there ??

Since i feel confuse that what should i do for the next year planning.. I want to improve my self.. But i am so afraid, that starting from the beginning again is not easy.. It needs anything, especially my agility preparation to be ready for any changes..

Life needs a challange, to upgrade quality of my life. I hope, there will be a way that direct me to the best choice for better life.

Menikmati masa-masa sulit..

Hai.. :)

Masa sulit selalu akan menghadang kehidupan kita.. Tapi seberapa kuat kita melalui kesulitan tersebut, dan seberapa besar kekompakan kita untuk bekerja bakti melalui kesulitan itu..

Dalam kasusku, aku merasa bersyukur skalipun aku baru berlibur dan masuk-masuk langsung menerima serangkaian project dari BPDNET Jatim, CR spt project Night File Ekonomi, kemudian Project IBS BPRKS, dan lagi2 BPDNET Kaltim.

Yah dari ksemuanya tidak ada PM yang aku sukai.. Aku lebih suka implementator dan temen seperjuangan di QA.. Menyenangkan bertemu dengan orang-orang yang berusaha bertanggung jawab.. wlopun masing2 memiliki kekurangan.. :) Dan tentu saja bahagia, karena orang di sekitar yang selalu siap membantu... Senior serta bos yang mendukung..

Sebal melihat orang-orang yang hanya bisa menerima sesuatu cepad beres, selesai ontime. Jika belum selesai, mereka menyalahkan.. Yah mereka itu memakai cara pandang dari atas, belum bisa melihat dan berempati sampai ke bawah.

Tapi lagi2, kmrn ini aku kena tegur sama seseorang. aku diminta berhati2 menceritakan sesuatu, menyebarkan issue yang belum tentu benar.. Yah mungkin aku memang terlalu cepat berpersepsi ketika menceritakan hal itu. Aku banyak mendengar kejelekannya, dan baru hari ini aku mendengarkan pujiannya dari anak buahnya.. mungkin benar, aku terlalu cepat berpersepsi. ;)

Gapapa lah, teguran itu kan biar mengingadkan kita bahwa kita harus tetap berusaha menjadi orang baik. Terima kasih bapak, atas tegurannya ^^..

Udah ah sgini dlu, nyambi sambil lembur di kantor. ;)

bye bye..
by,
Stefanie

Life is not good

Life is not good.. I think day by day, It becomes worst.. I didn't get bonus. and then the price of stuff become higher, the prices from gasoline is up. Now, i am loses my part time job. My life becomes so difficult. :(

Although i must be thankful for everything that i had have, that means i must not so fast being feel satisfied.. I must do enough effort for getting more and more ..

God, help me.. show me the way for make my family happy.. and can survive..

i hope everything will be allright.. Thx God..

Rgds,
Stefanie

Me on Vacation

From July, 3 until July, 10 : I am on Vacation..
My Journey started from Singapore and finished at Kuala Lumpur.

The moment that i done;
Thursdat at July 3,
I am arrived at Spore from Batam by Ferry Penguin.. I was picked by my cousin and bring my stuff into the apartment. After that, my journey is started. I am going to Orchard Road, buy card number at seven eleven and then i phone, and meet Juli and Steven. We eat at Rumah Makan Ayam Goreng Ria at Lucky Plaza. It's Indonesian Food. WeW, i am treated by Juli likes rice, chicken, tahu tempe with delicious chili..and off cource drinking teh botol sosro.. :D For that, Juli paid for 33 dollar spore.. i realized that Indonesian Food at others countries is so expensive... and how comes, i am from indonesia and for the first time going to abroad, was eat indonesian food.. but taste the chili is unforgetable.. very hot.. And then after eaten, we walk at orchard road, buy an ice cream that the prices is 1 dollar.. and walk, walk and also chatting.. And for the first time, i was used MRT at spore.. Very nice ;)

Friday at July, 4
I was going to Bugis Library with my friend, Kurniawan. I used a free internet there until lunch time. Then we eat, and searching souvenir at Bugis Street. As usual we take any pictures at many event, many places likes Wong Ndeso see arround at Spore.. ^^ After that, in the afternoon i was going to meet steven. And see arround again at Marina mall and citilink mall. And then unforgetable moment that i had. ;)

Saturday at July, 5
In the morning, i went to Sentosa island, and see arround, and also take many pictures. And then in afternoon i went to my cousin wedding at Saint Mary Church. I meet Nico, and my big family of course. My Wedding is very nice, the koor is very good, the church is good too. And reception is also very nice, my cousin and the wife was singing at the wedding.. Good Event bro.. very creative.. and unforgetable.. After that see my cousin's home. And it's nice.. Not bad.. my cousin just very2 pleasant people.. have a sense for anything.. ;)

Sunday At July, 6
I went to China town, with my others cousin. We searched souvenir, and we buy anything becoz the price is cheap than others places.. ;) We searched in the morning until afternoon, and then i went to flyer flies like mangdu, and then went to daisho at (forget :D).. And then have dinner with my others cousin at cathay pasific.. And going homeee.. becoz we must be prepared for the next day to go to Kuala Lumpur aka Malaysia..

Monday at July, 7
I went to Malay by the bus. The facility of the bus very nice. We paid 89 dollar for PP. And need 6 hour until we arrived at Genting.. We went at 6.45 o'clock and arrived at 1 pm. My uncle searched hotel, and we spend night at First World Hotel, Tower 2, Floor 27, and room 27917, 27822. we walk at the mall Genting, see arround. At night we(i am and my cousin) see the casino at Genting.

Tuesday at July, 8
I went to KLCC, the mall that in there we can see petronas and take any pictures.. KLCC is very Expensive Mall, likes Plaza Indonesia maybe.. I am just see arround and feel so tired, bcoz we cann't find the cheap stuff.. :p And then we gone back to Genting, and at night we see DreamZ Showing like circus, and many dance and also with the mini orchestra.. At very night, we see Outdoor Theme Park.. The Theme park had been closed, but we went into the places quietly. and also take any pictures.. ;)

Wednesday at July, 9 We see arround at Genting, and buy clothes, and hot pants.. and we prepared back to Spore at afternoon. And then at July, 10 i went to Vivocity to going home by ferry to Batam. And vacation is over..

I am really enjoyed my vacation, and also so tired. Because only walk, walk and walk arround.. :)

Thanks to my God for the vacation, i am sorry to my friend maybe i didn't talk to u, or i was not contacted my friends at spore..

For Pictures, see http://picasaweb.google.com/home

Perasaan ini bukan cuma punya saya

Kata-kata itu yang gue pegang untuk saat ini. Ketika gue berbuat salah, dan dimarahin karena bekerja kurang benar. Atau karena ada perasaan tidak nyaman karena tanggung jawab yang terlalu besar.

Ternyata bekerja dan mencari uang sangat melelahkan. At least buat gue... Kadang ada perasaan tidak sanggup untuk menjalani..

Jika perasaan itu datang, gue mencoba melihat pada figur-figur yang gue bisa jadikan contoh. Aku hanya ingin sebaik mereka.

Terkadang dengan kesibukan gue, gue suka lupa untuk melihat ke belakang. Kesekitar gue, banyak hal yang teracuhkan..

Kadang gue kawatir dengan kehidupan yang kumiliki. Bisakah kujalani semuanya dengan baik. Terlalu serius itu mengerikan, terlalu santai pun musibah.. Diantara sekian tuntutan kehidupan, ku berusaha untuk menyeimbangkannya.. Tapi masih belum bisa.. bagaimana ini ?

Tuhan, ajarilah aku supaya adil...

Outing Kantor skalian Bion BNCC

Jadi ini loch acara gue dari tanggal 9-11 Mei 2008.

hari pertama
Tanggal 9 Siang, meninggalkan pekerjaan yang belum selesai T.T gue pergi outing kantor ke Wisma Kinasih Bogor, Sukabumi. Wlopun dengan perasaan yang malez, krn kerjaan blm beres :D, gue naek ke bus K. Yang bkin tamba malez lagi, di bus ga ada orang yang gue kenal baikz.. Hhhh.. Singkat cerita di bus dsuruh buat yel2, trus dipresentasiin malem Jumatnya. WeW.. Kya gene nechh,..
Kami dari Bus K
Datang dari Desa
Sigma.. Sigma.. Jaya

Siang apa Malam
Malam apa Siang
Kerja Kerja terus...

Tiap hari Testing
Kepala jadi pusing
Untung ada outing

Project jalan terus
Badan jadi kurus
Butuh dapat bonus..

bonus.. bonus.. bonus..
Sigma .. Jaya..
Sigma.. Jaya..
Sigmaaaa... Jayaaaa ..
Karena kelompok gue terlalu jujur, gak menang deh.. T.T

Hari ke2
Lomba racing Car, Dibagi jadi 2, yg pertama persiapan sebelum racingnya. Yang ke2 baru lomba racingnya. Serunya yg pertama, qta hrus kreatif ngecatin mobil maen2an ituw, bkin baju racernya, menangin game buat dapet uang, melajarin lokasi pertandingan. Klo serunya yg kedua, ngedorong mobil ngelewatin pos-pos, ada pos yang ngedorong mobil lwatin jalurnya, trus ada yg musti zigzag ngehindarin hambatan, ada yg matanya pendorong harus dtutup, dan ada tanjakan dan turunan. Ditambah lagi racer yg blm biasa jadi racer beneran, kadang belok belok nyetirnya :D, ada yg bannya sampe copot, 'n ashnya patah. Sampe mobilnya diangkat dpannya demi menyelesaikan 3 lap. Ato ada juga yg sampe mobilnya diangkat melayang smuanya biar bisa menang.. Klo gue bilang sih.. norakkk.. :)) hahaha.. tapi itulah permainan..

Nah dah selese itu malemnya qta dikasi makan malam di kebon, yg ada prasmanan n panggungnya. Dsitu tuch dibagi2in doorprize; dari sepeda gunung, printer, speaker home theatre, microwave, dvdplayer, kamera digital sampe notebook acer. WeW . Dari sekian hadiah gue gak dapet 1 pun. T.T.. Lha wong yg dateng 752 orang... walopun gue sering beruntung, tpi kali ini gue masih kalah beruntung sama yg dapet2... :'( ... Di puncak acaranya, qta nerbangin lentera ke langit.. Keren deh.. lentera2nya.. Bkin takjub.. Indah bgt klo ada terang di dalam kegelapan ;) ... Biz acara nerbangin lentera abiz, qta dsuguhin bir angker trus dugem deh orang-orang di kebon.. :D sampe akhirnya dmatiin krn dianggep mengganggu orang skitar.. T.T

Hari ke-3
Baliq lha gue ke jkt. Sampe di Serpong lg jam 11an, dan gue lanjut tuch ke acara bncc di TA. :p

Dateng kesana, ternyata ga ketemu siapa2 awalnya. Karena anak2 pada rame kesana ternyata sabtu kemaren karena ada acara ten 2 five. Sementara minggu tuch ga ada acara apapun. Hikz. akirnya gue mkn siang sendiri di mc d, trus memantau dari lantai 2 klo-klo ada senior yg dtg di lantai 1, dan gue bisa langsung turun. hehehe. Akhirnya sore2 smua pada bermunculan. Ada felisia, yogi, shelsia, vendy, wie2, golam, lieching 'n pcr, adit jg. Yah lumayan lha.. biz capeee ketawa ketiwi,'n berhubung bdan masi capekk biz outing.. trus gue pulang dehhh...

Gtulah critanya, wlopun benernya smuanya ga ada yg special, but so far smuanya cukup mengisi hari2 gue.. Gtooo loch..

BION BNCC VS Outing Kantor

Huaaa... baru sadar... :'(

Outing kantor 9-11 Mei bentrok sama BION BNCC 6-11 Mei ...

Bagaimana ini, bagaimana ini ?

Outing Kantor akan diadakan di Sukabumi, tepatnya di wisma Kinasih. Acara yang diadakan yaitu outbond. Dan kalo ikutan outing akan mendapatkan kaos, jaket dan topi. :) Makanannya katanya prasmanan. Ini merupakan acara kantor yang gak stiap tahun ada, bru kli ini aja sukses acaranya jdi. :D Setelahnya batalnya acara pergi ke Bali.. Gue rasa kantor ga pny cukup budget.. hi3x... (ssttttt...jgn blg2 ^^)..

Sementara BION BNCC adalah Pameran Komputer yang diadakan di Center court Taman Anggrek. Dan biasanya event ini merupakan event tahunan bncc, dimana merupakan kebanggaan pengurus. Sekaligus ajang berkumpulnya senior-senior bncc untuk saling update berita bncc ataupun berita personal org2nya.. Dan biasanya semua terkumpul ramai di puncak acara hari sabtu dan minggu.

Bagaimana ini ? Bagaimana ini ?

Yach.. aku mau ikut 22nya... marukhhh.. :))
Semoga aku bisa ikut kedua event akbar tersebut..
amin.. ;)

Outing Kantor

WeW... Kantor gue bakalan outing tanggal 9,10,11 Mei.. Senangnya hatiiiikuuuu... Mariiii berlibur...

Denger-denger bakal ada 1000 orang peserta outing. WoW mantabbb.. Gak nyangka perusahaan gue besar bangeth ya.. Bakalan dapet banyak kenalan nich.. 999 orang yg akan gue kenal... cihuyyy...

Tapi sebelum berlibur aku masi punya banyak tanggung jawab yang harus diselesaikan.. Ada beberapa kerjaan yg mungkin akan menyita pikiran serta tenaga..

Tapi Aku optimis..

Sepertinya Tuhan tahu bahwa aku sedang mengalami kejenuhan. Oleh sebab itu, makanya setelah tanggung jwab ku selesai aku akan diberi liburan yang mengasikkan.. :)

Jadi interest buat melalui semuanya.. :)

Penyakit Malas Berbicara

duh.. Sepertinya gue kena penyakit malas berbicara nih.. Uda beberapa hari terakhir rasanya gue malas bicara bangeth..

Penyakit yang gue miliki ini gue sadari uda ada sejak gue kuliah. Sejak gue ikut organisasi. Gue itu suka hemat berbicara. Palagi kalo lagi banyak kerjaan, dan mumet dengan berbagai hal. Gue lebih memilih diam daripada harus berbicara.

Karena gue malas berbicara, gue menjadi terkesan orang yang cuek..

Dan saat2 aku malas berbicara, kadang aku lebih suka mendengar dan berbicara untuk guyonan.. Hal yang menyenangkan yaitu mendengarkan seseorang berbicara atau bercerita apapun, dan lebih senang lagi mendengar orang melucu.. :)

Sepertinya aku aga2 mulai merasa jenuh.. Tapi aku harus kuat.. Aku harus keras dengan diri sendiri, agar tidak menjadi orang yang lembek..

Pengorbanan

Title : "Semua Bisa Bilang"
Kalau kau benar-benar sayang padaku
kalau kau benar-benar cinta
tak perlu kau katakan semua itu
cukup tingkah laku..
Sekarang apalah artinya cinta
kalau hanya dibibir saja
cinta itu bukanlah main-mainan
tapi pengorbanan

Reff:
semua bisa bilang sayang
semua bisa bilang
apalah artinya cinta
tanpa kenyataan

Gue baru tadi dengerin lagu itu dari musikus di bus kota.. Humm, aku jadi terharu aja.. Yah, setuju cinta adalah pengorbanan.. Kubayangkan nyokap gue berkorban seumur hidupnya untuk seorang suami dan keluarga seperti ini. Tanpa pengorbanan mungkin saja keluarga ku sudah berantakan..

Bertepatan dengan Hari Raya Paskah, Pengorbanan Tuhan Yesus untuk manusianya yg berdosa.. Tuhan, ijinkanlah aku tidak menjadi orang yang egois.. Ijinkanlah aku bertanggung jawab atas kehidupanku.. Amin.. Selamat hari raya Paskah buat semua yang merayakan..

Finding Soulmate

As a jomblo-ers.. Bergaul menjadi salah satu ajang mencari jodoh, mengisi waktu dan menambah teman dan menambah experience. But, what friends that i get from terlalu banyak bergaul..

I just afraid.. Ketika bergaul dengan seorang yg memiliki istri...
Takut kalo istrinya tau terus ga terima, takut diliat orang terus diomongin. Padahal apa yang salah sih dari menambah teman, berbincang-bincang, dan menghabiskan waktu. without kontak fisik koq...

Ketika bergaul dengan seorang jomblo-ers yang benar-benar bergaul...
Takut kalo gue ga bisa ngimbangin dia, klo ternyata gue kuper. Kalo ternyata gue ga bisa terlihat enjoy dengan cara bergaulnya dia.

Ketika bergaul dengan orang jomblo-ers yang ga pernah pacaran dan kaku, palagi kekanakan..
Takut gak ada bahan pembicaraan, kemudian diam. Pembicaraan basi ke arah-arah membosankan.

Ketika bergaul dengan orang jomblo-ers yang cukup berumur..
Takut banget kalo seluruh gerak-gerik gue dinilai, apakah pantas menjadi seorang istri ato engga. Trus lebih takut lagi, klo dia bilang gue siap memperistri loe. HeHhhhhh.. ?!#&*?!#

I know gue have enough age for marriage. But, i feel DANGER when something or someone come to me so fast.. :D

What's the best for me?? Gotcha.. I got me busy with my career...

Life as choices

Many years ago, I am an easy going girl.. I remembered that it's easy to make choices.. Every choices is good, Every choices have consequences.. That's it that i know..

But the years have pass.. I thinks different.. It's difficult to take choices.. I must take the good choices for every step to my future.. I am very happy when i get a job after 6 months at home.. I am really thanks god when i get 2 job concurrently. Full time and part time. ^^ The one is near my house, although the job doesn't what i expected.. The other one the job that i like, suit with my hobbies.. It's really nice in the first time.. But when i run that double job.. I feel so tired. I am also easy to be sick.. (added with my problem about love.. :( )
I remain to run my life like that.. Becoz i have a target for my future..

Now, i have dillema.. I have a target for my future. But, I really likes my office now. My office like my organization at campus. My office with the challange that given to me.. But, should I sustainable?

Choices...
It's depend on ur target.. Are ur target can be negotiable?..
It's depend on ur age.. Are ur age can wait ?..
It's depend on ur experience.. Are the experiences is enough ?..
It's depend on my family.. When will i make them happy ?..

Only God that can help me.. What life that mate with me ?
I remembered at website http://mtsuperclub.com/. I got article about " The World is Not Fair, But Negotiable" It's good to be read..

Love as usual it's complicated..

Kutipan dari film "My DNA says I Love You!" Tuk some1 yang dicintai, tapi Long Distance Relationship

Betapa beruntungnya, membuatku bisa memiliki semua cinta yang bisa kau berikan..
Tapi aku mengerti, Kau masih ada ambisi yang lebih besar..
Akhirnya kita tetap bertemu di saat yang tidak tepat..
Biarkan aku menyelesaikan penungguan yang mewah ini..
Masa muda pelan-pelan menghilang..
Kenangan yang indah sudah tidak ada rasanya lagi..
Aku rasa cinta yang sesunggunya tetap memerlukan cinta antara tubuh dan jiwa..
Tubuh dan jiwa, bisa merasakan rasanya dan saling menemani..

Menurut gue kata2nya menarik aja.. Love as usual.. It's complicated.. Walopun sama2 sayang, klo harus berjauhan akirnya dalam rentang waktu panjang juga tetap sulit dijalankan.. Tetep perlu pengorbanan..

Dalam kehidupan, there is not only love. There is career where it is make sense to be reached.. Between Love and career, what important do you think ?

Aku tahu rasanya sakit hati

Aku tahu rasanya...
Sungguh..

Kalo gak sakit hati, tentu ga belajar.. (berusaha berpikir positif)..

Begitu sulit mempercayai orang.. Sungguhhh, aku harus berhati-hati memilih seseorang.. Dalam hal percintaan, seharusnya jika ada yang tidak mau jangan dipaksa..

Wanita memang lemah jika dihadapkan dengan cinta.. Tapi seharusnya wanita jangan mau diperdaya karena cinta..

Kegagalan adalah bagian dari kehidupan. Walaupun sebelumnya, aku merasa cocok dari sisi kesamaan keluarga, agama, pendidikan, pola pikir untuk mau maju. Tapi aku malah mengabaikan dirinya, ia yg menjalani kehidupan bersamaku. Aku terlalu optimis dengan waktu berjalan, dia akan membuka diri.. Kenyataanny tidak bgitu, sharusnya aku tahu sifat nya.. Dia ambisius, memikirkan materi, menginginkan pamor, mengharapkan pujian, melihat kesempurnaan dll. Tak apalah sifat manusia spt itu.. Smoga ia mendapatkan wanita yang tepat.

Sementara aku dsini... berusaha menjadi kuat... Jika keluarga ku tidak mendidik aku dengan benar, at least aku bisa belajar bnyk dari kehidupan ini.. Seharusnya aku bersyukur hidupku tak berjalan mulus.

Ungkapan Sayang yang selama ini qta rasakan, tak pernah kusesali.. Aku tahu mencintai tak cukup dengan hanya sayang.. Mungkin kekuranganku adalah aku terlalu banyak memberikan, tanpa menakar apa yang boleh dan tidak boleh.. God.. Thx for the memories...

Semua mimpi, untuk menjalin kehidupan bersama, bisnis bersama, dan doa yang menyertai utk keberhasilan masing2. Pupus sudah. This is the ending story, I thinks.

Regard,
Stefanie

punya pepatah

Saya baru saja mendengar beberapa pepatah dari senior saya di kantor.. Tapi sayang sekali, senior saya ini akan segera pensiun. Alangkah baiknya, jika saya menuliskannya disini dan membagikannya pada teman-teman semua.. Orangnya tua, tapi tetap awet muda. Orangnya bole tua, tapi suka becanda.

Kami berkumpul dan berbincang. Dan tepat hari ini senior saya dipanggil oleh atasan, dan dengan sangat menyesal senior saya ini dipensiunkan. Dengan kata pembuka Sigma sudah diakusisi oleh telkom, dan perombakan struktur sudah terjadi dan karena aturan yang ada juga harus dijalankan, dengan menyesal bapak dipensiunkan. Yah..birokrasi.. Karyawan harus tetap dipensiunkan pada umur 55 tahun.

Ia telah bekerja di Sigma hampir 4 thn. Dan selama 4 tahun itu pula ia dikontrak 4x.. Pada umumnya, karyawan dikontrak 2thn, dan kemudian diangkat menjadi karyawan tetap. Tapi ketika 2 thn ia bekerja, atasannya ingin mengangkatnya sebagai pegawai tetap. Atasannya berkata "Lagunya bgini... - bilang saja OKEee - " Namun apa boleh buat atasannya atasan bilang Not OK "Jadinya lagu matta band - Kamuuu ketuaaan - " Akhirnya sang senior saya ini masi kerja di perusahaan saya, dan dipindahkan bagian. Yah lagi2 birokrasi, perusahaan hanya bisa mengontrak pegawai selama 2 tahun, shingga setelah itu ia dipindahkan dalam perusahaan berbeda tapi masi dalam grup yang sama. Karena kondisi kontrak tersebut, senior saya ini tidak mendapat uang pensiun. Karena uang pensiun diberikan hanya kepada karyawan tetap.

Sblmnya, senior berkata seperti ini,
Banyak membaca membuat kita semakin pintar. Banyak praktek membuat kita semakin bijaksana...

Melihat itu baik. Lebih baik daripada mendengar 100x. Tapi masih ada yang lebih baik, Mencoba lebih baik daripada melihat 100x.

So Keep trying..'n Learning by Doing..

Alvin and Chipmunks

hiks... i have been typing, and all is deleted unicidentally... >.<

Alvin and Chipmunks the movie is showed at jakarta. But It's showed on January. It's late because the movie tell about christmas.. My friend at singapore have been watching at last december.

After all, I likes the movie. It's entertain enough. I like simon, he is so lovely n mellow. it's cute when he had a nightmare, n he ask dave to sleep behind dave. And theodore, he is cute with santa's glasses.. And Alvin, he is genious, but difficult to talk that he love dave.. ^^

I want the dvd from alvin :D

January 2008

I thinks this january lasted so long time.. Maybe because of i didn't know how to take the time. I am waiting for my salary this month.. ^^ Since i had the salary last month so quick than it's should be.. Now, i am really2 waiting for.. ;)

I am thinking so much now. About my dream, aboouuut aallll i waannt.. I want that becomes true so quickly. I hope that God will guide my footprints.. Not only for what i will do, but also my healthy to support my will..

I really2 want an higher living.. for me, my life n my family.. I am afraid what'll be happen at the next day. When everything'll not be so easy, i guessed..

I think i need to enjoy my time. But i feel it's not the time. It's time for career, 'n money, 'n my battle to get love..

Because of that, i think that i cann't run my life so easily, and to be enjoyed. Sometimes i feel it's not me. I am so ambisious.. Where does me when i dont think anything about tommorow ? When i can be so playful with my friends.. I want her back..(sometimes)

regard, Stefanie

Organization Structure

Eniwe, we have entry at the year of two thousand and eight.. Have a greeeeaaaattt life in this year frennn..

for my friend that resign from his office, wish u get the best job at 2008.. :)

Talk about my office, my bos talked to me about Organization Structure. She said that at my office, the organization structure always changed. She had count, that my office ever have turnover organization structure frequently until seven change. How come ? :d But, she said that it didn't influence with the job. So she talk to me that i don't need surprise that 2008 will be organization structure changes. Because, it doesn't effect with the job.. Load the job still as big as before..

But before that, i hope that my company will be succeed.. The purpose for organization structure changes must be for better condition.. I hope that my boss is the best boss.. The boss that will lead us, 'n make the best quality for the product.. :)

Is it easy to change my office ?? The answer is not easy.. Change the way of people's work is harder than change the structure.. It's need a time for adaption, for changes the way of thinking, and many others..

It's happen to with my last organization too. When, the structure changes every year, the name of sub division changes too, the name of event changes too.. But something that important, the member of organization is different too. They changes the situation, the structure, the sub division, the event with their analyses with problem 'n the solution. People changes, so the structure changes. i think it's normal that i have at my office. Same people changes the structure repeatly.

But i only can pray for the best vision, n mission, and others ^^

X mas

Meery Meery X mas..

I hope that x mas in this year will be bring a happyness for me and my family..
My family life will be changed. My mom have stop work at her office. It means that next year she will always at home. She was thinking to start a new bussiness, when life will always going on.. And My Father will go to surabaya for help my uncle's business. I hope that my father can adapt with the new situation. I 'll end my probation, and wat 'll happen next time. I hope that i can survive there..

Nexy year will be "year of hope" for me. I hope that everything will be happen with proper. And many challange that will be happen, can make me and my family stronger than before. I hope so.

And for all my friends, merry xmas 2007 and happy new year 2008. God bless me and all the entire of earth.. ^^

wanita oh wanita

wanita sickness...

Tak bisa berhenti shopping selama diskon.. :)

christmas is coming means that discon is coming too.. :D
WeEw... sabtu n minggu ini aku benar benar sungguh boros sekali.. >..<>..<

But, punya barang baru senang jgaaa sih.. ^^ akirnya barang lama yg sudah butut tergantikan juga... ;)
mariii mulai menumpuk harta lagi... :)

Smoga aku dapat menjalani tantangan dalam kehidupan ku ya Tuhan.. Entah kenapa semakin dewasa, semakin menyadari bahwa manusia bole merencanakan dan berusaha, tapi Tuhan jga yang menentukan.. ^^

My feeling

Dear Mine,

How could i describe my feeling ?? I really dont know.. We dunno what'll happen in the next day..That's feeling likes i have a broken heart.. Cann't describe if tommorow still have a smile at my face or not..

I feel losing someone.. And there is not agreement within us, like yesterday, last month, a year ago, or maybe 3 years ago..

I feel so sad, like i cann't stand by my self to run my life.

I feel it's to be good for him.. for his life.. Just good luck for u. and always Take care. God always bless u.

If there's time for loyalty, especially for me. i really really thank u. I wish to My God, and Mothers.

I feel so excited to be like u. I wish and i trust i will. I hope soo..

Maybe at that time, it's the best for us. I hope so..

Just my feeling.. I wonder hoW after passing year by year at the future.. Life will be changes.. But i hope my feeling will not changes..

Regard, Stefanie

After 2 weeks Working

Blog, sudah lama ya ga isi. Sejak dapet pekerjaan, aku sampe lupa sama blog ku ini . Mulai terbiasa dengan rutinitas kerja.

Adaptasi dengan Lingkungan kerja artinya Adaptasi dari Windows ke Linux.^^ Di kantor pake ubuntu, terus 2 minggu kemudian dikasi komputer bekas pakai orang dikasi kubuntu pluz kde. Ya adaptasi lagi deh.. Mana ribetnya tuh musti ngubungin ke lan, setting email, setting printer, instalasi ie di linux, etc etc.. Tapi tetep berpikir positif. Itung2 namba pengalaman. Toh tampilan yang sekarang lebih ok.. Selamat dtang dalam dunia linux.. ^^

Yah... setelah bekerja beberapa orang bertanya.. "Gimana kerjanya, suka ato ga ?" Yah.. jujur aku ga tau harus jawab gimana. Pokoknya ya kerja itu gitu itu, konsekuensi kerja di perusahaan kan dituntut macam-macam dari waktu, tenaga, dan otak. Yah selama masi mampu jalanin aja, Aku rasa yang aku dapat ini merupakan pilihan terbaik saat ini. Jadi susah-susahnya terima aja dlu, namanya baru permulaan..Nanti semoga sambil jalan aku semakin better deh..

Aku baru aja dapat kenalan di kantor. Kalo belom ada kerjaan yang jelas, suka ngajak ngobrol dia. Tapi ternyata orangnya bakalan resign. WeW dan jumat depan dia uda ga di perusahaan. Yahhh.. sayang sekali bisa begitu ya.. Dan entah kenapa, anak-anak seumuran gue di perusahaan gue ini kok pada cao ya, pada ga tahan lama.. Tanya kenapa ? Padahal exp yang didapatkan mnrt gue banyak, mungkin effort yang dikeluarkan terlalu besar kali ya.. Hiks, ada perasaan sedih.. Di dunia organisasi aja org ga keluar gtu aja, tapi di dunia kerja sepertinya begitu. Banyak orang yang keluar masuk perusahaan, lompat cari kerja keluar dengan gaji lebih tinggi. Kemanakah nilai loyalitas.. ciye :P Masi ada rupanya.. ^^ Loyalitas diberikan bukan untuk perusahaan, tapi untuk uang. :))

Yah.. Mungkin kehidupan memang seperti itu. Ada yang datang dan ada yang pergi. Juga ada yang ditinggal. Juga ada yang menunggu. Juga ada yang diajak. Sesuatu akan hilang dari kehidupan ku.. Hiks :(( Yah Semoga aku bisa mengambil hikmah dari pengalaman ini. Aku memang tipikal orang yang sulit melepaskan begitu saja pengalaman masa lalu. Kudoakan yang terbaik untuk mu, semoga kamu akan baik-baik saja.

Life still going on..

Nujuh bulanan

Dudul : Uda tau mbak apa jenis kelaminnya apa ??

toinx..
Namanya jga dudul..
Jgan salah sangka dahulu.. Mari kita belajar berhitung.. Aku lulus sidang bulan februari akir. Dan sekarang September, itu artinya aku dah nganggur dari bulan maret sampe september, skitar 7 bulanan. Akirnya masa-masa pencarian ku selesai juga..

Alkisah gue dah ngelamar di tempat-tempat berikut :
Maret ; santai
April ; Volensa (GD), Lippo(WD), BCA Finance(MT)
May ; UOB Buana(MT), Maximus(Flash), Wings(SAP), Makarizo(GD), VMI(WD)
Juni ; ke Surabaya
Juli ; Digikids(Teacher), Software House ga tau namanya(PHP), Master Grafica(GD)
August ; Tanamas(GD), Digikids(Teacher), Ozone(GD), IBM (Intership)
September ; 'n PT Sinar Surya Sejahtera(WD), Sigma(QA)

Dari sekian itu Gue ditolak 10x, Gak ngerjain tugas 2x, Nolak 2x, Terima 2x..

Dan akhirnya aku bekerja tepat di hari ulang tahunku yang ke 23 tahun, Sepertinya bintang ku cerah kembali setelah sial di awal tahun sampe agustus kali ye.. Dari raibnya 3 HP, strees skripsi, 'n cari kerja. Akhirnya aku kerja kerja kerja..

Tapi dari sekian kali wktu-wktu sial ku, aku tetap berusaha dalam kepasrahan. cia elaa.. ^^ Toh aku masi dapet hp samsung w600, 'n dbeliin cdma 2865, skripsi lulus lah pokoknya, dari sekian kali ditolak kerja gue menghasilkan web beserta portfoliony, dan web jualan. Berpikir positif sekali ya gua.. Selalu mencoba melihat sisi positif dari penderitaan ku selama ini.. cia elaaa.. hahaha...

Yo wis, doakan aku betah dikerjaan ku yaa...

Perpanjang SIM A

Stefi : Setelah 5 tahun bawa mobil, akhirnya sim A saya habis.. Akirnya harus ganti deh.. mknya saya perpanjang sim saya.

atoo

Stefi : Setelah 5 tahun pny SIM A, masih jga belom bisa bwa mobil. Walaupun belom bisa, tapi perpanjang aja deh buat gaya, di dompet pny sim A.



Nah.. yang mana yang kalian percaya, kata-kata pertama ato kata-kata kedua ? ^^ hehehe.. terserah yang baca deh ya, pokoknya hari ini Saya abis memperpanjang SIM A di Sim Keliling. Untuk informasi lebih lanjut dapat dilihat di website Ditlantas Polda Metro Jakarta Raya.

Terus pake acara sms an ma pak polisi lewat nomer 1717 . Saya diantar cc saya mau perpanajang SIM di SIM Keliling di Kalibata, namun karena blom tau tempat pastinya kita sms in aja 1717. 'n Pak Pol nya jelasin lwat sms kalo tempatnya di sekitar Taman Makan Pahlawannya. Yah udah deh tadi saya n cc naek bus p20 dari Lebak Bulus sampe Duren 3 , bis itu naik 57 sampe depannya Taman Makam Pahlawan.

Oh ya tempatnya itu katanya buka dari jam 8 -12 siang ajah. Sementara tadi kita dateng jam 11an dan disana rame, kita pikir antri ternyata nunggu difoto. Awalnya saya diminta fotokopi KTP dulu, 'n tersedia jasa fotokopi dimana 1 lembar Rp 1000 ajah.. WeW.. terus dah gitu balik lagi kasi foto kopian, diminta fotokopi KTP 'n SIM yg hampir kadaluarsa 'n diminta isi formulir. Berhubung saya ga bawa bolpoint, sekali lagi silahkan pinjem ke bapak ituh.. Eeehhh, dia kasi sebox 'n diambilin 1. (Gue dah kira ni jualan neh... >.<) Terus gue pake tuh pen, slesenya gue bilang gini Pak, saya tadi pinjem kan.. ini saya kembaliin yaa.. Gak papa kann.. hehehehe.. Terus saya pake tanya berapa pak harganya, sang bapak menjawab 2000.. Tapi berhubung ma org yg kasi form suruh pinjem ya artinya pinjem dunkz.. Gue baliqin deh pennya.. :p

Nunggu.. nunggu.. Yaa akirnyaaa sholat jumat dlu.. Againn nunggu lagiiii... Yahh akirnya saat org2 pada sholat jumat gue kebagian foto duluan.. ^^ Di dalam mobil nya berAC booo.. Wuadem tenan^^ Di dalem kita dimintain duit, terus difoto, cap jari kiri 'n kanan, 'n tanda tangan kita discan.. Canggih jga ya polisi qta^^ Senangnyaa... Ternyata dari foto sampe jadinya cuma bentar booo.. Paling 10 menitan kita dah bisa terima jadi SIM kita.. Senangnyaaa, mendapat SIM baru.. Ingin rasanya aku bawa mobil.. ho3x...

Yahh.. Pa lagi, sbenernya di rumah ada mobil nganggur.. >.< Gara2 saya belom kerja-kerja gak kepake deh tuh mobil. Saya tidakkk sanggup membeli bensinnya T.T Jadi sedih deh.. Belom belajar-belajar lagi deh sampe skarang.. Huuu..

Doa kan saya ya, supaya saya bisa membeli bensin 'n bisa bawa mobil keliling- liling kota. hi3x...

H2C VS Berusaha tetap berguna

H2C alias harap-harap cemas menunggu kerjaan diterima atau tidak. Sambil tetap fight on utk tetep jadi orang berguna..

cia ela.. stlh dalam masa bimbang menerima atau tidak pekerjaan itu. akirnya dptuskan jg utk naik banding.. alias minta nego gaji lebih tinggi dan scukupnya ^^ Sambil menunggu wktu, dari blm bisa terima klo ga kterima sampe akirnya skrg cukup pasrah 'n bpikir positif.. Kalo kerja, yang 1 untung tpi yg lain buntung buat apa yaa ?? ..

Sekarang ini gue yaaa.. mayan dah melakukan hal2 berguna kembali. Sambil kuinstal kembali xampp (thx fan, ini installer oks bgt^^), trus instalasi flash, n dreamweaver(stlh chat ma feli, n dia kasi masukan ttg web gua.. thx fel^^), steven(yg mau minta tolong bantuin coding php dia, tpi gak jadi^^), dan jati (yg gue paksa ajarin gue joomla^^).. Akirnya karena itu semua kubuka kembali dreamweaver, kuliat kembali file-file php.. Yah wlo perubahannya blm bnyk, at least niatnya ada.. Nanti aku mau ubah bgian portfolio web ku jadi php.. doakan semoga berhasil.. Dan tunggu ya hasil karyanya^^

Dan kmdn skrg gue utak atik headset + mic gue yg dlu gue titip beli ma fany. Fan, stlh gue format komputer gue beberapa wktu lalu 'n gue dpet sumbangan vga card dr tmn gua, skrg gue tes headsetnya jalan booo.. sueneng guaa... trus critanya gue langsung tanya ma tmen gue yg sering call by computer ke istrinya yg s2 di jepang.. Dia ceritain klo di yahoo tuh ada 2 jenis, ada call pc to pc, dan ada call pc to phone number. Kalo menurut dia sih yahoo itu kualitasnya call pc to phone number itu standar tapi murah. Sedangkan untuk skype bagus tapi mahal. Dan gtalk katanya bagus jga. Kalo pc to pc sih menurut dia gak pake biaya. Dah seharusnya pake benwit, tpi berhubung dia pake warnet, ya ga urus lha ya masalah benwit :D. Untuk call pc to phone number ktnya byrnya pake dollar, dan bisa menggunakan kartu kredit. Untuk link lebih jelasnya bisa liat di voice.yahoo.com.

Yah bgitulah sharing2nya, lgi penasaran niii mau call pc to pc.. Ayooo sapa yang mau temenin ?? tpi benwit ku tipis.. >.< uda tgl 30 agustus.. sisa 10 mega doank kali.. huaaa :((

Dear God, and our Mother (Virgin Mary)

Thanks you so much for our mother, because you hear my prayer and God answer my prayer.

I am really-really happy when i know that the course center calling me today. And suprisingly, call me for attending to their place in this day too. i thank to you God, and mother.

And i attend the interview that i hoped as last interview. I really afraid to talk about salary, i afraid that doesn't suit with my expectation.

The reality happen. I don't know what must i do? I really thank to god. But the salary is really-really different with my expectation.

Life maybe always like that. Something cann't happen with perfectly. The salary is good, but i reject it. When i like the job, the salary is not enough.

God, please teach me more n more...lead my way... With ur guidance, i hope that i doesn't take the wrong way.

Thanks to u lord..

Best Regard

Stefanie

Anger

Yesterday, i have been watching The Simpson Movies since maybe 3 weeks the movie show premiered. Did you remember about Marge Simpson say to Lisa, when lisa feel angry. Lisa say Dad, u're sucking..blabablabla.. and then Merge say, (less more like this) Lisa, u must handle ur angrier, bcoz u are woman. U should have tolerance. If i am not wrong, maybe when lisa know that her father (bart) who makes the polution for springfield.

Eniwei, i want to talk about anger. I feel anger with some1. Somehow, maybe i am sensitive lately for personal reason(maybe u know, maybe u don't know). And then he talk about that personal reason with his sweet speechs.. And then he talk about a girl beside him with praise her, how seduce she is.. hiyekz.. i hate a man.. I dunno but i think i hate a man like that. He cann't treat a woman like a ladies. He is jerk. Only see a woman like a nothing.. He is sucking!!!!! I feel mad again... huh huh huh.. he say about that i'll make him poor, or i'll make him died, and others..

okay, okay.. i think margie simpson is a patient woman with bart as a husband. i cann't think how patient or how tolerate she is, with all have done by bart.. so stupid.. and he say, he never think..ha3x...

I think enough. i am not interest with this article. It's trash..

Internet for woman

I like that title.
A long time ago, internet only used by military people, then IT professional. But nowadays i think woman can also use internet.

Woman, as a mom sometimes known as homemaker. They live at home, and take care children, take care husband, make food for small family. Especially at Indonesia, many homemaker spend their time together and talk about their surrounding, start by child, food, husband, housemaid, and then neighbour, artist, and finally becomes gossip.

But that's traditional woman, now modern woman have know about technology. They know about internet, and blog (special thx for blog, that make some mother easy to share their idea), and google.

And for personal reason, i really happy becoz when i like to cook ( i still newbie) i only open google, and then search. There will be show me a lot of list. There are many blog about homemaker, and they share their recipe for making food. It is very helpful for me. And now, i think that cooking is not difficult. Because the recipe only bawang putih n bawang merah, daun bawang. And beside that in supermarket there is a lot of instant flavour; like saos tiram, saos teriyaki, santan kara, and others. so, it's not difficult for me to cooking..ho3x.. and eating.. ha3x... i like eat...

Ok ok.. Cooking is woman task. Woman must think how to makes "dapur tetap ngebull" he3x... For woman at world, let makes a community for woman.. only woman, without man. ho3x...

This article need a long time for writing. Please enjoy, and i hope that u understand.. I am sorry if the sentences make u confuse... Please tell me if i am wrong.. and dunt forget to comment.. ho3x..

Angin duduk

Again.. Tahun ini.. Saya menerima berita tidak baik lagi. Cowonya tman saya meninggal tiba2 beberapa bulan sblm pernikahannya.. dteng2 ke rmh duka.. Slidik pny slidik, akhirnya tersingkat cerita sebenernya... Cerita nya.. Yang meninggal ini ditemukan di kamar mandi kost nya, dan diangkat bersama-sama anak kost ke graha medika. Dan disana, di rs print-printannya jantungnya uda strip.. Dan gue bertanya? Coba di kasi alat pengejut gak ? Katanya ce nya, gak diijinan ma dokternya, karena orangnya uda pergi. Kalo dilakukan sperti itu justru membuat orangnya yg pergi ga tenang... Kejadian mandinya skitar jam 6an, dan dikabarin tentang meninggalknya jam 10an mlem.

Ditanya tentang penyakit yang dimiliki.. katanya punya penyakit ginjal, dan hipertensi dari februarian.. terusss.. pas meninggal itu badannya kaya masuk angin.. meriang2 gtu, tapi dipaksain mandi.. Dan kemungkinan jatoh di kamar mandi.. gtulah critanya

H+1 stelah dari rumah duka, gue ngobrol ma co nya dvi. Katanya penyakit itu namanya angin duduk.. istilah apa ituuuh..he3x.. Ktanya itu angin jahat. Dan kalo gtu, badannya gak bole dikerokin ato dipijetin karena itu ga bisa membuat anginnya keluar. Tapi justru anginnya tetap di dalam dan akan kena ke tulang(spt gejala meriang) yg bisa membuat jatuh, dan dapat menekan ke jantung sehingga jantung berhenti berfungsi.. Dan angin itu biasanya masuk lewat tengkuk.. ini penjelasan spiritualnya kali yee..

H+2 gue balik ke rmh, dan nyokap tanya-tanya ini itu kenapa bisa meninggal.. penjelasan blablabla + terus gue bilang katanya tmn klo gtu kena angin duduk.. hmm... klo nyokap gue bilang sih itu karena penyakitnya dia hipertensi itu. Pasti pada saat itu hipertensi nya lagi tinggi, karena tinggi bkin badannya jadi meriang. Dan biasanya klo hipertensi uda komplikasi ya gtu, bisa meninggal kapan ajah.. hiii ngeri.. trus nyokap gue tanya, sakit nya emang dr kapan?? (nahh itu mana gue tauuu^^) Ternyata yaa bgitulah hidup, yg bkin lebih nyesek nya lagi.. Tmen gue ini (tmen kost pertama gue yg ga gtu dket) uda mau married januari thn dpan.. huu >.< Bkin aku jdi sedih saja..

Tadi pagi ke gereja uda ada pengumumannya.. "Telah meninggal calon suami bernama Ignatius Handy dst dst.. " Yah akhir kata dari saya semoga diterima disisi bapa..

Tahun ini mungkin tahun yang berat, beberapa kali saya mendengar beberapa teman ada yang sakit demam berdarah, gejala tipes, bahkan ada yg meninggal karena demam berdarah. Yah mendengar beberapa ceritanya, sebagian dari orang-orang seumuran gue agak mencuekan kondisi diri sendiri seperti sakit panas dianggap biasa, tdk enak bdan dianggap masuk angin, sehingga mereka berpkir untuk beristirahat sajah.. Atau menyuekan seakan itu hal sepele.. Yah mungkin sebaiknya dari muda, kita harus suda mulai memperhatikan kesehatan agar umur kita panjangg.. ya ya ya? stuju gak ?? gue aja menyesal gue uda sakit maag. masi muda bgini jg.. Mari kita menghindari penyakit2 kronis spt maag, hipertensi, diabetes, dst dst n dst..

BLANK.. BLANK.. BLANK..

I am blank.. My Brain is blank.. sometimes my brain is loss..

I am on Stupidity..

WeW.. This is tragedy..

i watched my boss my hero..peran cowonya ituh cuma bisa mikir 90 detik.. Kenapa kadang gue mulai merasa begitu ya..

Sometimes gue bisa begitu WoW cemerlang, sometimes gue terlihat stupid, sometimes terlihat bosan. I am just like kids, trutama juan.

Kemaren baru gue ajarin dia belajar nulis huruf, baru beberapa huruf udah gak mau lagi, terus suruh nulis namanya sendiri 10x baru 5x uda berenti. Terus bis itu gue tebakin penjumlahan baru 3 pertanyaan dah gak mau jawab.. wleh wleh..

Terus tadi gue bru interview ke 2 at somewhere, dan gue coba jelasin menjadi beberapa part.. part 1 Company profile + discussion part 2 Praktek part 3 Interview singkat

Part 1, Awal2 menarik dan akir2 mulai merasa bosan, gak bgitu fokus lagi dengan materi. Part 2, Merasa fun. Part 3, I have no spirit.

And in part 3, the interviewer ask me.. are you still interest with this job ? "yes." how about part 2 ? "saya rasa biasa-biasa saja" Why are you feel nervous ? Are you likes this every interview ? "maybe.."

Ho3x... i thinks in this part, i cannot think clearly.. I am just dunno what must i talk. Its likes she want me to speak a lot. But i am not have a spirit. I think, this is part very difficult for me. To know about my feeling, to describe how i feel. I think doing something itu biasa2 saja, dan don't doing something it's boring.
KESIMPULAN : apakah ini plegmatis?, lebih suka jadi penonton. Dan kurang suka berdiskusi ber2 apalagi dalam situasi serius..

Terus gue jadi inget dlu anak bncc suka bilang "i, lo koq suka ngelamun.." gue rasa-rasa bener jga.. klo lagi ada presentasi org gtu ya.. gue paling sering deh ngelamun gak konsen.. my brain is loss, my brain is blank.. >.<

Why ?

Dan ada jga yg marah2 ma gue, krn gue ini berpkir pendek gak berpkir panjang. Klo misalnya nih qta mkir bareng2... Trus 2 step gue masi bisa nyamain, eh step step berikutnya dia yg mkir. gue uda gak konsen..

Why ?

I thinks that why i becomes nothing.. huuu :'(

What the hell is the solution ? Can u help me to focus, focus, 'n focus ?

i think my friends who can make me focus about my life.. bcoz they always ask me.. How's ur life? How's ur job ? I luv all my fren. Maybe i was already dead without you.. huuu :'(

Long time no see

Long Time no See My Blog.. apa kabarmu ?? Jauh dari Komputer ku tercinta yang sering guw utak atik sampe gak bener^^ Long time no see my blog, no see my comp, no chat with my fren.. at least klo ga di depan komputer sendiri, curhat ke blog rasanya kurang bebas, browsing bukan dengan komputer sendiri rasany terbatas, chatting gak dari layar lcd secondku rasanya kurang nyaman.. ^^ sekarang i am back... walaupun aku gak ada kerjaan selama ini, tapi kalo di rumah aku bisa mengurus komputerku, web ku, fs ku, software photoshop, dreamweaver, dan freehand ku^^ Sedangkan aku lebih merasa tidak ada kerjaan lagi kalo di surabaya, di tomang. Kerjaan ku cuma tdur, dan menambah ukuran pinggang ^^ Tapi bukan berarti aku menyesal lho, karena ke sby artinya berlibur dan mkn enak:p Ke tomang artinya nemenin oma, jalan-jalan, dapet oleh2 ^^.. Semua nya menarik koq.. Apalagi beberapa waktu lalu wisuda, bertemu temen2 lagi... Walaupun rasanya masih belom sempurna sebagai wisudawati, karena blom bekerja... :( Janjiku pada diri sendiri untuk mendapat kerja sebelum wisuda pupus.. Sudah merasa tidak enak dengan diri sendiri, ditambah lagi omongan dari kubu orang2 yang suda tua(ortu gue, om, tante), dan tua sekali(oma gue^^)... hh... aku harus segera bekerja.. demi ingatan tidak menjadi lumpuh, demi keuangan tidak jadi kering, dan demi Tuhan agar aku berguna.. God bless me.. (harapan smoga kejatohan pekerjaan dengan gaji gede) hahahaha... tetepphh... :P Hari2 ku di rumah skarang ini ngapain ya.. Masak... hohoho ada yg percaya gak ya? ^^ Demi memenuhi keinginan lidah untuk makan brokoli, akhirnya gwe belajar masak.. Untung gak susah, cuma pake bawang putih, kecap asin, sasa, n air.. akhirnya kesampaian jga makaannn.. nyummy.. Tapi dibalik kemudahannya, ternyata gue masih gosong numis bawang putih... hahahaha jadul bgt sih.. dahh gtu brokoli pake acara keempukan sgala lagi gara2 kelamaan dimasak.. Gapapa.. ga papa.. tapi perut terpuaskan koq :)) Terus hp gue yg bagus^^ tapi rusak skitar sebulanan.. akhirnya baik lagi... mungkin itu hp sadar, mau diganti sama batere baru rp 125rb akan membuat miskin pemiliknya.. Dan ketika coba dicharge entah bagaimana, si phi(singkatan si philips^^) bisa dcharge padahal biasanya gak bisa. akhirnya phi, kmu gak ngambek lagi skrg.. ^^ Nah kalo gtu kan duitnya bisa dipake buat bonding.. wkwkwkwk.... Tpi tak pkir2 dlu yaaa, cita2 dr dlu koq ga kesampean jga sih >.< Gue tuh suka dudul deh masalah target. Gak kalah lah sama ronny, fany tentu saja gue punya target. Tapi entah kenapa tepat janji sama si target itu yg susah ^^ duh duh.. tobat tobat.. insyaf... T T dah ah.. ada cerita pa lagi ya.. aku punya banyak stok filmmm... klo nganggur bisa nonton film deh.. tpi jgn gtu.. tetep hrus doakan saya dapet pekerjaan segera yaa.. :) bye allll..

Ke grand Indonesia

Kemaren baru saya baru pertama kali mengunjungi Mall Grand Indonesia di depannya Plaza Indonesia. Walaupun masih sedikit yang baru dibuka, paling baru Seibu dan Bioskop Blitz Megaplex. Seibu itu sejenis Metro, Sogo, dan Centro di Plangi. Yah tempat shopping kaum elite. Mari kita lwatkan sajah.. Yang cocok buat kaum mudanya tentu saja bioskop blitz megaplex. Ternyata dari mall menuju ke bioskopnya cukup sulit. Mengingat lift nya yg aktif baru sedikit. Lift pertama yang mau saya naiki ternyata belum aktif, lift ke 2 yg dinaiki ternyata cuma mengakses sampai lantai 4. dan akhirnya lift ke -3 baru akhirnya dapat mengakses sampai lantai 11. Blitz Megaplex terletak di lantai 8 Grand Indonesia. Yahh sekali liat.. terasa skali nuansa bedanya dengan 21. Blitz memiliki 11 studio. WeW keren yaa... Dan karena kapasitas yang besar gue rasa blitz bisa memuat 1100 orang, sampai-sampai disana bisa banyak menemukan kursi-kursi untuk sekedar menunggu, nongkrong, merokok, dan lain sebagainya.. Saya kesana rada-rada ngecez ngeliat penonton yang membeli kentang dan sambal di kotak berbentuk balok. Setengah balok untuk menaruh kentang dan setengahnya untuk sambal. Melihatnya rasanya nyummy ^^ Berbeda kalo ke 21 dah pasti pegangannya popcorn.. Kemudian.. Gak lupa saya mampir ke kamar mandinya.. WeW kamar mandinya seperti kamar mandi di lounge gtu.. Gelap dengan cat-cat warna hitam.. Tapi lagi2 kamar mandinya luasss bgt.. Yah sepertinya memang blitz menjadi tempat tontonan yg mempunyai kapasitas besar. Wah sekali-kali gue musti ngerasain nonton kesana nih... Oh ya dan enaknya lagi, karena masih terbilang baru mallnya. Parkirnya masih gratis.. Jadi gak usa takut biaya parkir besar karena kelamaan di mall :)

Jlan-jln ke pool taxi

Hari ini saya pergi ke pool blue bird. Dsana melihat-lihat mobil bekas taksi yang sedang dijual, dan juga berbincang-bincang dengan teknisi dan bagian personalianya.. Cerita punya cerita, tadi gue diceritain bahwa di Blue bird itu dia punya 2 bagian bengkel. Bengkel pertama yang mengurusi bagian mesin, dan bengkel kedua yang mengurusi masalah estetika. Bengkel yang mesin tentu saja mengurusi organ dalam mobil yang ada di kap depan, sampe ke ban-ban dll. Sedangkan yg estetika lebih memperhatikan pada penampilan mobil kali ya...

terus jga sekarang ini blue bird lagi gencar menjual taksi-taksinya karena peraturan perusahaan hanya memperbolehkan mobil dipakai selama 5 tahun. Mobil yang dijual di blue bird ada Soluna thn 2001, 2002 'n 2003 menyusul, dan nissan cedric. Untuk melihat-lihat bisa langsung ke pool blue bird terdekat di daerah anda. Karena mobil-mobil lama terjual maka sebagai ganti taksi yang baru blue bird akan menggunakan merk limo untuk blue bird dan mercy untuk silver bird. WeW keren ya..

Kemudian juga diceritain bahwa yg kerja di blue bird pun jga ada S1 dan bahkan S2, ada dosen pula. tapi menurut pencerita motivasi mereka bukan karena uang, bisa jadi sekedar hobi jalan, atau jga merasa jenuh dengan kerjaannya. Atau ada juga yang bekerja untuk sekedar mendapatkan relasi, jika mendapatkan tawaran kerja dari penumpang kemudian berhenti. aneh-aneh aja ya tujuan setiap org..

Yah kemudian gue jga dkasih tau tentang cara menyetir yang baik, dimana posisi tangan sebaiknya selalu berada di arah jam 3 dan jam 9. Walaupun mutar pun cukup mendorong stir ke arah kanan, kemudian balik lagi. Menurut teknisinya itu untuk menjaga keseimbangan mobil. Jika terjadi kecelakaan tidak otomatis melempar setir.. Tapi ini belum dipraktekan sih^^ Silahkan mencoba.. Hari ini banyak melakukan banyak stuff lainnya.. Yah cukup menyenangkan mempunyai barang baru^^

Weekend gue

Say hiii..

senangnya akhirnya komputer ku menyala lagi.stelah sebelumnya mati beberapa hari.. Stelah diganti power supply sumbangan dari temen :) senangnya lagii.. krn slain dapet sumbangan power supply jga dapet sumbangan vga card yg lebih bagus dari tmen gue.. wkwkwkwk.. :)

gue mau cerita apalagi ya.. Sabtu lalu tgl 11 Mei 2007, ada kumpul2 anak bncc angkatan 2000- 2002.. Ceritanya kumpul2 dalam acara traktiran oleh anak bncc yg terlibat di blizz. Anak-anak yang hadir ada Rama, Kuri, Golam, Eko, Ferry, Elly, Andry, Vera, Etina, Nyitz, Novith, Martina, Yosua, Cia, Steven, en gue tentunya.. Acara makan sebenarnya di pizza hut, karena ramai akhirnya tempat berubah menjadi di Thai Food. Biasalah yah klo rame2 itu sama dengan tidak tahu malu. Paling berisik, ada yg teriak2, foto2 dll... Setelah bkin kehebohan di resto itu, kita smua jalan-jlan di TA. Ada beberapa anak yg mau shopping untuk acara malah harinya yaitu Rave Party di Ancol. Dan sayangnya saya tidak ikut jadi tidak bisa menceritakannya.. maap^^.

Minggunya, tgl 12 Mei 2007 Saya mengikuti acara seminar gratis di Hotel Ciputra. Seminar itu berisi tentang informasi PR di beberapa negara seperti singapore, australia, dan kanada. Seminar itu diadakan oleh jasa konsultan di daerah slipi yaitu OcscGlobal. Dari seminar itu, saya mendapat informasi bahwa Bina Nusantara tidak dikenal oleh Singapore. Singapore menerima mahasiswa dari Untar, Trisakti, Atmajaya, UI, dan UPH. Nah ini nih hal yg cukup membingungkan saya, karena mengapa binus tidak dikenal, sementara mereka membutuhkan tenaga kerja IT Profesional.. Yah tidak banyak informasi yg bisa diterima, karena speakernya berbicara dalam bahasa inggris. Dan yang baru saya sadari, ketika kita memutuskan ke luar negri, ada perhitungan point untuk mendapatkan PR (Permanent Resident) di luar negri. Perhitungan point bisa dilihat dari faktor usia, skill, Pengalaman bekerja, kemampuan bahasa, Jenis pekerjaan yg dicari, Keberadaan sodara di negara tersebut, dst.. Jika point tersebut mencukupi syarat tertentu baru dapat berhasil mendapatkan PR di negara tersebut. Dan menurut saya keuntungan dari PR tersebut tidak dapat langsung didapatkan, mungkin sekitar 2 tahun kemudian baru dapat. Tapi setelah itu anda akan terjamin dari pemerintah, sperti dari sisi kesehatan dan pendidikan anak. (dimana tentunya di Indonesia tdk dapat >.< ) Yah sekian dlu.. Hari minggu ku terasa hambar, walaupun aku menjalani banyak kegiatan. I hate this situation..

Perjalanan yg melelahkan.

aloha... :)

Maap ya, klo blogger ini sering gak di update. Yah sbenernya ini blogger hanya untuk dibaca teman2 ku saja.. Tapi terkadang suka ada yang melihat2, but it's nice^^. Cuma gue gak tau jga ya harus bagaimana dengan orang yang bru dikenal :) selain salammm kenal^^

Wahh kemaren ini saya melamar kerja jauhhh sekali ke daerah pecenongan. WoW, saya dari daerah Pamulang dan menuju ke sana. It's so tired... Pergi sih masih semangat, berdiri di bus pake acara ditipu sama kenek sialan. Gue kasih 10rb, harusnya kembali 5rb. Gue minta kembalian dia cuma blg iya, tpi gak kasi2.. Pas terakhir2 dah sampe pecenongan akhirnya berani jga gue minta tuh kembalian. Atas bujukan salah satu penumpang yg baek^^.. Sialan tuh kenek. nyaris gue menjadi cwe polos, yg mudah dikerjain:( dan pulangnya.. Wlo gue dapet tempat duduk, gue berasa panassshh banget.. Dan berasa lemas.. kaya mo pingsan, nungguin sampe.. dr ujung 1 ke ujung yg lain :( Ternyata sebabnya.., wktu itu jam 3an sore. Dan terakhir gue makan pagi jam 7 kurang :( normal lah ya berasa mo pingsan, gue gak pny cadangan mknan sih.. adanya cadangan lemak :))

kemudian plg2 langsung mkn, tpi sdkit. Ada perasaan enek.. Akhirnya gue memilih berbaring aja. baringan bntar, dan mulai mengurus pekerjaan (hobby) bntar.. Setelah pekerjaan slesei. Can u imagine. I slept from 7 pm until 7 am.. wkwkwkw.. Rasanya perjalanan jauh itu terbayar.. :)

Hari - hariku

Terang-terang ujan... Hari ini uda dua kali hujan.. Agak aneh memang ya.. Ujan tak lagi mendung. Ujan koq bergantian dengan matahari. Ujan beberapa menit, gantian matahari nongol. Fenomena alam yang ganjil. Seganjil hati ku ini. Bulan berganti baru, dari bulan april jadi mei. Tanggal 30 April lalu, dalam baring-ku aku merenung. Sudah genap 1 bulan aku mengganggur. Interview2 yang ku lakukan, kemungkinan diterima sudah lewat. Besok harus mulai melamar kerja lagi nih, mencari-cari kemungkinan baru. Siang hari, bangun2 mood tidak baik.. Tapi tetap dipaksakan agar mood berubah, mengingat renungan malam hari sebelum bulan berganti. Kupasang status di YM, "Bulan baru, Semangat baru.. Cari kerjaa lagi.." Siang2 ngubek2 majalah kompas hari sabtu dan minggu. Liat-liat taro lagi. bner2 males aku.. Sore-sore nyokap ngajak ngomong.. kamu dah ngelamar2 lagi.. jawaban ku belomm.. hihi... mana pake bilang.. "mami koq nyuruh2 aku kerja sih ^^ " nyokap cuma menjawab; lha kamu kalo gak mau kerja mau ngapain.. dsuruh ngelesin ga mau.. kamu seharian ngapain memangny? yah ada deh.. (jwbn disimpen penulis^^, tunggu waktunya) Sebenernya gue lelah nyebar2in application letter 'n cv, ikut interview ini itu, gue cuma ingin kerja, gue yakin koq gue bisa kerja apapun, tapi gue gak suka diperbandingkan dengan lulusan lain. Entah misal cv gue dibuang, ato melalui interview dicap communication skill kurang. Tapi kenyataannya memang begitu, (iyaa saya tahuu) siapa yg giat mencari kerja dia yg cepat bekerja. Memang seharusnya saya seperti itu (iya sayaa tahuu) tapi sekarang saya lagi tidak bersemangat saja.. Kurasa gue butuh refreshing.. Fresh my mind.. hari ini liat2 weddingku.com.. gara2 ceritanya pengen married.. wkwkwk.. gak lah.. cuma mau liat yg indah2.. bkin acc di situs itu 'n lookin' arround.. Ada cerita lumayan jga di situs itu. judulnya melahirkan dalam air. menarik juga, menurut artikel tersebut bisa mengurangi rasa sakit. :) can u imagine ? liat aja dewek :P oh iya kebiasaan baru gue, liatin perbintangan di friendster. gara2 tmen gue donny mempengaruhi, soalnya dia bilang ada benernya juga. Horoscopenya berubah stiap hari skitar jam 12an siang. Boleh percaya bole tidak, silahkan mencoba.. Udah dulu ya.. c ya..